you are doing exactly as im doing now,im scared as hell.im in britain and its suboxone tablets here,i have enough to last 4 days by which time i hope the worst of the wds are done with me.i dont intend on swapping one addiction for another!!i really just need to face the world straight again n remember who i was before the pills.good luck Jaynickdee,wish you all the luck in the world.xx
you did the right thing dumping all those using friends....I cant leave my mister but he will respect my wish to keep all pills out of my way, no mention of pills or any of that....I've been with this man since 1997.....but just started taking those pills a few years ago when I was hurt in a accident....I'm gonna make it...I let a withdrawal hit me and that is the only time that I take a suboxone....so soon all this stuff will be out my system and I wont need to take the suboxone at all.....pray for me...I'm gonna make it!!!....
Thank you so much...I've got that plan in place and have told all those around me to keep all pills and all mention of pills away from me..pray for me...thanks....
lol!!!...ain't that the dang truth....I am allowing myself to go thru some WD's...but once they hit me, I put a lil piece of suboxone under my tongue....soon all this would have passed and I will be thru the worse part....pray for me...thanks....
Yes indeedy....I definitely remember those terrible WD's...and I dont put a piece of Suboxone under my tongue unless I start hurting, get sick or have to run to the bathroom because my tummy is hurting....I woke up in the middle of the night and had to run for the bathroom quickly...then when I was done in there, I went and put a tiny piece of suboxone under my tongue...once all this poison is out of my system, I'm done with pills.....
Mister does take the pills.....he just gets them for me because I dont come out the house at all.....lol...he wont be going to no rehab for nothing and I am gonna get thru this....thanks to all of you for the encouraging words....
Dumped all my using friends when I finally got clean. Tried cleaning up 6 months prior and they told me one would be alright. I realized my friend just wanted me to keep using with her, not a very caring friend at all. Try talking to the doctor about how to get clean. I went to a outpatient recovery program for 10 months. I just couldn't keep living a life obsessed with drugs and alcohol. Life is definitely better, studied the twelve step program and learned to have faith in God. I am blessed with my sobriety, you can do it too. We are worth it, to be our very best we can be.
you have to guard your sobriety consider it life or death. do whatever it takes to stay clean.
Have a plan in place when your mind says just one wont hurt because just one turns into 2 then 3 4 5 6 and 100 pills later its a deadly carousel ride and you have to make your mind up that no matter what you wont use.
Accountability is huge and aftercare and your pill source get into an aftercare program if one doesnt work there are many options out there cut out your pill source and tell your secret it helps with accountability.
I know its hard but if you want your life back you can do this!
Good luck to you and I Hope you think about the suggestions given. and keep posting on here this is a good place for help and advice You can do this!
Sometimes after major accident you have to have to have pain relief. This nurse at a trauma that I was in for a .44 magnum gunshot to the hip that blew ti apart,told me, honey you are going to be running out of the strong pain meds they are going to give you. This was in 1989 before pain clinics. She told me to take 5 good ole bellyache asprin and it will stop as much pain as your pain meds. The only difference is you wont get that euphoria. I didn't believe her but she was right. It dont help the withdraws though. Its to bad you can't dance with the devil and have any expectation that he is gonna behave. OH he loves people to be suffering withdraws. What a SOB!!!
Yep! Being Accountable is right. If we keep walking in the coals we will get burned. Have you gone to any of the Meetings? Support is a big one in this road to recovery. Once you fire up the Pleasure (Survival) Part of the brain it plays the "I feel good" or "Just one for this or that reason" See it does not stop. Then before you know it we are out of control one more time. Also knowing they are around can mess with your head. Have him hide these Pills if he has to have them. If not maybe he can get off of them too! I wish you Luck and Keep up the fight to stay clean. Give it some time! It does get better.
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Until your "mister" stops, you will continue to relapse. And the withdrawals are SUPPOSED to be hell. Consider what you're doing to your mind and body. You are putting crap in it and then don't want to face the reality of detox. I used for over 15 years. I've been clean for almost 18 months. My detox was hell on earth. And I use it as part of what keeps me clean. I never want to go through that again. And if there ever is a next time I might not survive. Be accountable for what you've done. Make changes in your life. And accept the consequences of drug abuse. Don't blame doctors. We put the pills in our mouths - not them. You've got a long road ahead if you really want to get clean. Now stop BSing yourself.
K