Starting Buprenorphine on Monday - Questions....

[ColdInVT]

Hi - here is my deal.  I am 35, I have 2 children and have been married for 14 years.  I have a good job and a nice home.  Why is it that all I care about are percocets and how to get them?  I feel like the biggest loser.  I am up to 20 a day and have been doing this for over a year.  Prior to the past year and 1/2, I would use percocets for recreational use which soon started to spiral out of control and here I am today.  

I have decided to get off the percocets as I have a lot to lose at this point (including my health!).  I am, frankly, scared to death.  I only know how I am (personality wise) with percocets and am having a hard time seeing myself without them.  I hate myself for allowing this to happen to me.  I will start bup. on Monday and was hoping someone can tell me what to expect.  I am worried that I will get to this appt. (which is 3 hours away) and be sent home with nothing?  Will they start me on the bup. the same day?  I suppose it depends on the doctor, but I am really counting on this treatment to work.

I want/need my life back... Anyone out there know what the first appt. is like?  Please let me know... :)

[pax]

We have a similar story. I am 34 yrs old,have a great job and a great house,not to mention a wonderful fiance and got custody of my 12 yr old son a yr and a 1/2 ago. Anyway,if you read my post prior to yours you can only imagine what a loser I felt like. (in regards to the amount I was taking compared to your 20 percs a day) I also had to drive 3 hours to get my scripts filled by a doc who wrote me a monster of a script due to the severity of my neck problems. I started 5 years ago and spiraled to the amount afore mentioned. I don't know about the drug you are going to try to get but all I can suggest is the road I went down which was cold turkey with a Clonodine patch and some Ativan. As I had mentioned in my prior posts it was two weeks of hell but with a caring wife which it sounds like you have you can be free in a matter of days. I am clean now for about 2 1/2 weeks and feel like a real person again.The anxiety is still hanging a little and my energy is not all the way back but I am not in that trap anymore.I am lucky to be alive! I can also suggest a jacuzzi or hot showers to ease the suffering but again just gut it out and get on with a normal drug free existance.You can kick it.If I can get off what I was taking......you can certainly get off what you are taking ( not to belittle your situation )just the more you are taking,from what I understand,the worse the withdrawal.Make sure to eat even a little every day and possibly short walks . I know it doesn't sound like much but it does help. I wish you the best of luck in your quest to quit.God bless

[hippy]

hey there, i was on 15 vikes perc a day,
then i found this fourm, about 15 months ago,
i have  1 year clean today, i went cold turkey
i used the thomas's receipe, it helped more than i can
put down in words. it took away the sever depression and
the tolol lack of energy.
the times i tried to detox my self never worked out because of the depression and enertia(lack of energy.
i am 43 years old and was clean for many years from speed and qualudes, i got clean in na.
i was not aware of how addicting vikes and percs were
when i started taking them for pain, as a matter of fact
i hated the way they made me feel, 2 thing in life that i hate
are dizzieness and nausia and the vikes dave me both of these
side effects, but my pain was so bad ,i had to take them
after a a period of time they no longer made me dizzy or nausiaous, ,my tolerence went up and then the doc said no more.
well i could not function with out them, and i had to work,
so i bought them on the street.
in the last year of useing them i llost 40 pounds , went from
225 to 185, paper cut took weeks to heal and i was so depressed
and life had lost its meaning and i just want to be clean agian.

now that i have been clean agian, i have to deal with
bad to sever pain, i found an addiction doctor and he prescribed
bub / suboxone  about 2 months ago i tried to get the scrip filled at 6 different pharmacies to no avil.
so now i am not in as much pain , so i gave up trying to get it filled. i still have the script in my wallet.
i sorta just took it to mean  that it was not ment to be.
i am sure if i tried harder i could get the scrip filled somewhere.

peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hippy

[mrmichael67]

They used naloxone to clean out your system.  They are going to put a pellet called naltrexone in your body.  I am not a big fan of it as it blocks all opiates, including the endogenous ones (endorphins) that make you feel better after a detox when your body starts to produce them again.  But, some people do need some insurance.  It is great that you got through the procedure successfully.  Many have a nightmare of a time with it.

[hairysoda]

I have been there and did that so not to worry, first of all whare are you from? im from south florida and there are quite a few places you can go here. my first experiance with bup the injection was just the same as yours except i was coming off of a 25 a day viciden habit. first of all you have to be starting withdrawals for it to work if you  took them to soon to your apt you might not get the correct effect your looking for since part of the drug is an agonist which would put you in severe withdrawals so make sure for example if you appt. is at let say 9am take your last dose at no later than 6 pm the evening before that will give you enough time. the bup is injections and suboxone is pills you put under your tounge. at first i had no shoice but to give myself injectins and that was the hard part but once i got over that i had no problem they showed me how in the office and they gave me my first shot and then i gave myself one in front of them. the first day i used 12 amps 2 amps at a time and quickly went sown from there in a matter of a few weeks until i was down to 2 amps a day and then it was very tough to go sown from there. you really dont get high from this stuff but it does give a lift a feeling of how can i ay energy i guess or maybe its just taking the edge away that feels good. ther is a withdrawal from the bup just like the percs but not quite so severe you do get the very lethargic thing but not the restlessw leg symdrom but the depression comes for two weeks so you will need support like na. im not telling you this to discourage you but really to tell you my experiance with it but you knoiw every one is different but i really never met anyone who was able to excape from feeling shitty. go for it, give it a try its better than doing the percs for the rest of your life and now that im doing the suboxone the insurance com is paying for it  so thats good. im still on the suboxone because i relaps shotly after my totaly ceaseation of drugs but i found that the suboxone and the bup took away my strong ergesand strong wanting for the drug but it also gave me constipation which i really had when i was taking pills and it ruined my sex drive and that is my magor problem now after 3 years so i wm going to start to taper off these and dont know what to epect but i hope someone is reading this that can tell me. good luck and anything else you want to know just ask as i will check back

[sundara]

hope i have your name right.  i went through a medically assisted detox through a program called Project Straight. Supervised by a medical doctor whom i and my caregiver were in pretty much contant contact. Yes, they basically knocked me out for four days which was the worst of the withdrawls. I was given valium, clodine(this help with the runs and vomit and gagging), halcion and some other pill(which was labled an anti-drepressant) to help me sleep, was first choice over halcion (excuse the spelling) . . . now i  have the implant which last for 7 weeks, pellet under the skin. . . then have option of pills.  So far so good. . . . my god i have been clean of vicodin and percocet for 11 days.after an 18 month everyday 8 pill habit to wake up with out that narcotic hangover is like being on the pink cloud !!!!! . . . .it is highly recommended to exercise and definitly try NA, and maybe something like paxil because we all know we have screwed up our bodys. . . .am hoping i have no problem with the implant , , , i have heard some scary stories , but have heard some good ones as well, and as of now it has kept any thought of using out of my brain (which was mashed potatoes for way to long) . .. .thanks for your thought and hope to talk to you again . . .

[mrmichael67]

I happen to be one who will most likely be on the meds for the rest of his life.  That is wonderful things worked well for you.  There are definitely people who have had a good experience with it.  The biggest thing is getting a good doc.  It sounds like you did.  A lot of docs are doing it now, but that doesn't mean they know what they are doing.  Some do, but some don't and that is scary and dangerous.  My advice would be for one to check up on their doctor.  See if they have a web site and read up on the good doctor.  This isn't like going to see a doctor for a cold.  People have died from this procedure.  I know they aren't dropping like flies, but a bad doctor can be very dangerous just by the nature of the procedure.  If you want to chat, you can e-mail me at ***@****.  I did have more to add, but I just had a brain fart.  Damn greenage will get you everytime.

[oldtimer]

hi, sorry to jump in the post, well you all know how hard it is to start a new one,peaz, again thanks for anwering my post last week,I was abusing my oxycontin for 4rs,(crushing) I was up to 5-6 80's a day,(not all at the same time)throughout the day,I was out with 3 days to go before being able to get my scripe filled, it was horrible, as you all know, I had perks to take, taking about 12 a day, it did not touch the wds'at all, that was when I posted and talked to peaz, I was crying and in horrible pain,so depressed, and ready to put myself in detox,(actually called one and they told me they detox with methadone) but afraid to take that step, I knew my life was out of control and SOMETHING had to be done one way or the other,this is what Iam doing right now,I got my script wednesday and since then have been swallowing them as directed,(not taking perks)this is the 4th day of swallowing them, I have absolutly no high at all,I'm not looking for that anymore,all I know is that Iam not having any wd's physically or mentally,and at this time that is all that matters, I have alot of things to work out in my head as to what my next step is going to be, all I know is for me to stop crushing them and take them as directed was and is a BIG step..it may be a small one, but a step in the right direction as far as I'm concerned, I know that some will say that I can't do this and I'll end up crushing again, believe me I will not,I had hit what was MY bottom,I'm still not sure if I'm going to stop taking them all together, taking it one day at a time right now,what do you guys and gals think?? thanks for listening, take care all
Dee

[suzneedshelp]

CONGRATULATIONS my friend!   WOw, one year ...when is your party?  Wish i could be there to celebrate with ya!
You have helped so many and are such an inspiration to us all.  As Jess says the definition of inspiration is "to breathe in the spirit"...and you do that for us all!
Love Suzie

[hippy]

hey suz, hows life.
you sound good , thanks for the post.
i hope you and your daughter are doing well.
down there in the tallahassie sunshine.
so how was the rehab. are you going to na meetings.
always nice to see you name  there posting.
peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hippy

[lisabet]

Hi hippy - I think I've told you before, but want to say it again...CONGRATS on being clean for a year.  Always read your posts; they always inspire me. God bless you for sticking around after you got clean to help us who are more unfortunate. I truly think there's a special place in Heaven for people like you.  Love ya, Lisabet    HAPPY EASTER !!!

[hippy]

thanks lis.
i think of us as all the same , in so many ways.
being addicted is no fun,it is a difficult road.
pain can be more difficult, because  there nothing we can do about it , sometimes.
getting clean is easier for some ,harder for some
staying clean is the same.
for me staying clean is easier for me, getting clean
was a problem.
being clean from drugs is something i cherish.
it is freedom to me.
drugs have always been an escape for me most of my life,
today i am not trying to easape anything.
we  have the tendency to glorify drugs, when in the end
they always took me to misery and not wanting to live
today is the solution, today  we can do something,
today we can make a difference. i have had many friends
die because of drugs and more than a few famly and relitives die
from abuseing drugs.
when i was a kid drugs were a way of life, i thought it was cool , i thought it was a good time while all the while i was
destroying myself. and my relationships.
when the drugs stop working , i guess that is a gift.
these days i have to take care of myself, like rest my body.
get hot baths , use ice for pain, stretch my limbs, and hamstrings.each year i get a little older , i have to deal with
more pain. i hope i never have to resort to meds for pain.
because i am so irresponsable and a glutton.

well  anyway happy easter, i hope you enjoy the day,
enjoy the fragrence of flowers, notice all the budding
trees, with there beautiful pink and red and purple and white
flowering. i love the trees in the spring time as they all come back to life
to top it all off i have a bunch of ducks in my yard,
they are fun to watch.
I HOPE YOU AND EVERYONE HAS A WONDERFUL EASTER

PEACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!HIPPY

[peaz]

Hi ---Happy Easter!! I have to be away to relatives today but I didn't want you to think I was ignoring tou.....I will try to post tonite or in the morning for sure!!   A lot of us are gone or busy on the wkends, so hang in there, darlin'.    Talk to you later------Love, Peazy

[RobynBanks]

I am also 35, married, have 2 children and have a great home . I also got up to 20 percs/day. It took just over a year to get to this point. I am now on a low dose of methadone (25mg) and intend on weaning off very slowly. I WISH bup was available in Canada but its not so this is the route I took. I just couldn't go cold turkey with 2 small children and tapering was repeatedly unsucessful. I hope the bup works for you. Keep us posted.
Robyn.

[peaz]

It sounds like you've had a rough time lately.  You mention that you think you have hit your "bottom" but go on to say you aren't sure if you will get off the merry-go-round or not....To me, that suggests that you HAVE NOT hit rock bottom, because the term  refers to the time when one is faced w/ the stark reality that the addiction MUST stop.  Perhaps I am splitting hairs w/ semantics...I don't know.
       To have quit crushing your oxy and to swallow IS large...I hope you can continue to resist the crushing temptation. So what is your game plan?   Have you thought about slowly tapering from the oxy's to the percs and totally wean from them?  I don't want to be presumptuous here-----you will have to fill me in on what your objectives are.  As I said, I'm not sure if you are saying you're ready to QUIT. You have a fairly hefty habit, and you need to come up w/ a plan that will allow you to go off slowly and safely.
     We will all help you as far as guiding you. Lots of people here have experience w/ your very situation (I went CT, so weaning is not my forte). But Mrm, for one, could help to make it less miserable for you. I guess you just need to let us know where your head's at.......I wish you well and let us hear from you.  Love, peaz

[peaz]

LMAO--You're not supposed to actually TELL people when you've forgotten something....just let them think you're doing more research.  LOL  But perhaps you need to write down what it is you're researching.........

[NEW ORLEANS LADY]

Just checking in "mother"--I had my last Hydro at 4:30 p.m. yesterday--Yea so much for tapering---for me its cold turkey or nothing--I guess I'm a glutton for punishment--Things are so much better with Hubby--We both actually broke down and cried last night over this!  He is offering support--and as you know that means soooo much!--I went to Barnes & Noble and found a book called Rational Recovery--Have you ever heard of it?  I started reading it and it seems to make a lot of sense--Please forgive the rambling I'm a little shaky right now but knowing my wonderful husband is behind me I know I can Make it--Love, Peace,and Prayers to everyone--N.O. Lady--AKA Mystere

[peaz]

WOW!!! Good for you!!  Hang in there w/ the CT thang..you can do it.  That is awesome about your husband---I just knew he'd come to his senses after a bit....WhooHoo!!!  I'm doin' a cartwheel here, which is miraculous in itself since I don't know HOW to do a cartwheel.....LOL
   I have read Rational Recovery cover to cover.  AVRT and the "Beast" approach makes sense in terms of identifying addictive behaviors and voices that lead you down the path of relapsing.  And I positively LOVED  Chapter 4: The Recovery Hall of Mirrors: Let's Shatter the Illusions.  Great stuff.  I can't say that I TOTALLY subscribe to any one school of thought in this recovery gig, however.  I have mostly taken some from each( Rational Recovery, AA, Smart Recovery Pavlov :-), et al) and come up w/ a custom plan that works for me.  
  You are ON YOUR WAY girl---with your huband's support you will do this.  This is the best news I've had today!! Congrats!!!  love, Peaz

[peaz]

WOW!!! Good for you!!  Hang in there w/ the CT thang..you can do it.  That is awesome about your husband---I just knew he'd come to his senses after a bit....WhooHoo!!!  I'm doin' a cartwheel here, which is miraculous in itself since I don't know HOW to do a cartwheel.....LOL
   I have read Rational Recovery cover to cover.  AVRT and the "Beast" approach makes sense in terms of identifying addictive behaviors and voices that lead you down the path of relapsing.  And I positively LOVED  Chapter 4: The Recovery Hall of Mirrors: Let's Shatter the Illusions.  Great stuff.  I can't say that I TOTALLY subscribe to any one school of thought in this recovery gig, however.  I have mostly taken some from each( Rational Recovery, AA, Smart Recovery Pavlov :-), et al) and come up w/ a custom plan that works for me.  
  You are ON YOUR WAY girl---with your huband's support you will do this.  This is the best news I've had today!! Congrats!!!  love, Peaz

[peaz]

Did ja get it yet or is third time a charm?? LOL

[NEW ORLEANS LADY]

I forgot to add i hope everyone had a nice Easter--I can't think of a better time to get clean and sober--SPRING--A time of renewal and hope--Congrats Hippi! One year is quite and accomplishment--You have also provided me with such inspirational posts-I seem to post alot while going through withrawal--I think its some sort of therapy Thanks againt to all of you--Love,Peace, and Prayers--N.O. Lady-AKA Mystere

[NEW ORLEANS LADY]

peazy we are kindred spirits and you positively have to be my guardian angel--You are so right about finding a program that is specially designed for you--There are many aspects of AA that I like and MANY that I have problems with--I plan on finishing the the Rational Recovery book and see what happens--I like the idea that I am in control! of my addiction--Thanks hon again just for being here--Now I guess I really had better do some work!--Love Ya--Peace, Prayers,  N.O. Lady--AKA mystere

[Chezz2]

Mystere,

Glad to see you hubby came through. Most of us guys are suckers and can't stay mad too long. Especially when it is evident that you are suffering. I am sure he came to his senses when he finally realized this was his WIFE, and not a drug seeking patient.
I hope all goes well with this detox and you are able to stay off them!!! That at it seems for some is almost harder than just the initial withrawals.

Happy Easter(belated).

Post on, that is what keeps this forum going......Good job,
Chezz

[mystere]

You are also one of my guardian angels--48 hrs. and counting hoping NO KNOWING this will be the last time I will have to endure the agony of withdrawal--I had posted on another thread about a recovery center mentioned to me by a therapist known as Joli Mar Recovery? Have you ever heard of it? I looked it up on the internet and it looks like a freakin resort!--I am very confused right now between AA/NA--and this Ratonal Recovery thing by Jack Trimpey--Anyway for what it would cost to stay at this "Recovery Center"--HELL I could check into the Ritz Carlton for a month and cure myself!  Anyway thanks for thinking of me and I hope you are doing well--I can't tell you what your support means--Love, Peace, and Prayers always--Mystere/AKA N.O. Lady

[mystere]

Just thought I'd check in with another one of my "guardian angels"--Over 48 hrs now and things are getting much better!  I really think staying on the Wellbutrin (anti-depressant) has helped lesson the horrid effects of the withdrawals! Along with the Thomas Recipe of course!--I spoke to another addiction therapist today and the minute he heard my husband was a physician he is recommending in-patient therapy--Who would have thought?-I did look this place up on the internet it is called Joli Mar Recovery--It looks like a resort/spa-As I said on an early thread I could check in to the Ritz Carlton for a month and cure myself for what this "Recovery Center" costs--I am very confused right now I'm in the middle of the Rational Recovery Book and I know I need support after the initial withdrawal period is over. So for right now I think I stick with you guys as long as you don't get sick of me posting! You are one of the many wonderful helpful people on this forum! Thanks and much love peazy--Peace/Prayers/ Mystere AKA N.O. Lady

[peaz]

Hell, no! We won't get tired of reading your posts!  Why do you think we hang around??  We want to know how you're doing....Tell you what--you pay me HALF what you would be paying the in-patient dudes and I'll pamper and spoil you, I'll cook you gourmet meals and lend you my golden retriever to soothe you .... and I'll even be your therapist---right here in beautiful Minnesota: Land of 10,000 Lakes.....What a deal!!! LOL  What is the point of in-patient, exactly, that you can't do out-patient?  You can get a good therapist and sleep in your own bed if you do out-patient, and your husband can be w/ you.  In sharing this he will probably get the addiction education that he needs so badly.   Plus, out-patient costs TONS less...Anyone have any input here?  I have never done in-patient, so I really can't say what the advantages are.
   You sound like you're maintaining just fine, darlin'---just keep writing and letting us know how you are.  Someone will post after this and give you thoughts on what in-patient was like for them.  Take care, Doll--love, Peazy

[peaz]

I neglected to state the obvious about in-patient care: That it's lots more intense and w/ out "worldly interruptions". One can concentrate SOLEY on the problems at hand.  There would be benefits associated w/ that set-up.

[pammy0690]

Sign me up darlin' I am there!  I could use some peace and solatude in the beauitful lakes of Minn! That sounds like the best rehab I heard yet!  What happens when people get out is all the stuff they have to deal with is still there.  You still have the same triggers and problems and you still have to cure yourself.  PAmmy

[peaz]

Hey Doll!! You can come to my retreat ANYTIME--bring Rip and your lab and we'll camp out in the yard.....LOL
   I tend to agree w/ your take on this: In-patient just more-or-less postpones the inevitable..I think it is INVALUABLE for those who CANNOT detox by themselves... but in NO LADY'S case, she is on her way and seems to be **** well.   When she posted: "When my doc found out that my husband was a physician, he recommended in-patient  right away!!"  I thought of two things: 1)  MD's stick together ---is he trying to sweep you away and under the proverbial rug? and 2) He assumes that your husband has the bucks to let you do the inpatient, so what the hell?  I may be wrong, of course......just my 2 cents...Pammie. Let me know when you'll be here.....

[NEW ORLEANS LADY]

I'm not really trying to confuse anyone--I didn't know when i registered with Med help on my home computer that I could use my same nickname as at work--When I'm on my computer at work my nickname is N.O. Lady--When I post from home my nickame is Mystere--Sorry for any confusion!  How's my guardian angel today? I managed to make it in to work today but I'll tell you my heart is not in it!  I'm strickly a body because I absolutely cannot concentrate--My wonderful husband left me a card by the coffe pot this morning basically stating that we can overcome this addiction together!  I started crying--He really wants to help me beat this beast! You need to come down here to the beautiful Crescent City--We're gearing up for another BIG PARTY this weekend know as JAZZ FEST!--Yes I will be clean and sober!
I don't think I could have made it this far without all your love and support! I'll post again probably soon--Peace and Prayers- N.O. Lady AKA Mystere (from my home computer)

[pammy0690]

That is awesome!  I am happy to hear that he came around.  Sometimes a guys first reaction to a situation is anger.  Then once they have had some time to stew about it they come around.  You are doing very well!  My husband and I are both addicts and we had a hard time with it all for a long time. Around the time I started posting to these fine folks is when things started to come together but it is still a struggle and there are some ruff roads ahead.  We have had to work on the addiction together and are much closer because of it.  Keep comunicating to each other!  I be rooting for ya!

Peaz wouldn't that be a hoot!  My and Emma and Rip at your house?  Sounds great!  We can BBQ!  Love, Pammy

[peaz]

Hi Doll--Just thought  I'd say "hey" and let you know I did read your weekend posts to see how you were faring, and you sound GOOD!!  I know you expressed a little anxiousness in one post; a "what happens NOW??" kind of thing, and  all I can say is that it's a feeling that ebbs and flows.....Gradually you will feel less apprehension.  This is a brand new gig for your mind and body, and it will take awhile (I don't know how long ;-) until this mode becomes second nature.  Try to stay mellow and not let  the introductory phase throw you for a loop.  Find something to do, and don't dwell on any panic or doldrums.  SMILE and kiss your husband.  Enjoy your clarity.  Thank God you made it.
   I'll check back tomorrow morning.  It's your turn to bring donuts.   Love,  Peazy

[peaz]

HEY--Did ja get a load of my morning email???  LMFAO!!!  I almost lost my breakfast.......I'll let you decide whether or not to show it to Mr Rip....Hope it didn't get you fired..... TTYL  Love, Peazy Mae

[pammy0690]

Ah I loved it Doll!  I am buddy buddy with our tech support so I get to do what I want.   If I do get fired I can collect unemployment and when that runs out get a job making more money anyhow!  LOL!  PAmmy (A good financial aid officer is hard to find harder to train!)

[NEW ORLEANS LADY]

The doughnuts are on your desk!--Krispy Kremes i might add--Thanks so much for checking on me--I read one of your posts saying that you had a houseful of people this weekend so I figured we wouldn't be hearing much from you-Today is day 8 out of hydro-hell and I'm am actually feeling great! Anyway did you happen to see the season finale of "Touched by an Angel"--I know its sort of hoaky, and I have never been a particularly religous person but I really enjoyed it!--it was all about emotional healing and helping strangers being one of the greatest gifts of all--(I will admit I shed a tear or two)--Anyway see any parallels here? HMMMM--I hoped you had a great weekend and I'll check in as Mystere from home tonight-Thanks Love You Are My Guardian Angel--Peace Prayers-N.O. Lady AKA Mystere

[peaz]

Day 9???? Yo WENCH--That is remarkable!!  You are haning' in there w/ the big boys and I am so proud of you!!  Is work going better and is your life in better focus by now?  You will still have your "Senior Moments", but they will lessen w/ time.  I really think there has got to be some permanent brain "alteration" (sounds better than damage!!) though, because even now, 16 months later, I have some tough memory recall bouts (who is this post to, again??) and while it is disconcerting, I tell myself, "What the HELL, girl?  How can you be surprised after what you out in your body for all that time???!!"  So just do the best you can....hopefully any lack in abilities will be slight.
     Thanks for the Krispy Kremes---today will be 50 more crunches and 45 more minutes of cardio......:-) "Everything in moderation" is my motto. I HATE fad diets. So there.
       I am happy to be your guardian angel because you're really no trouble...:-)  Keep up the good work, Doll!! Love, Peazy

[pammy0690]

Peazy may have lossed her memory but not her sense of humor!  Pamela

[peaz]

I just LOVE you, Lulu!!!!

[mystere]

Yes day 9 is in the history books and I'm feeling pretty darn great!--Thanks to you dear heart and percs and Kilo and Thomas and hippi and Graci97 and rodewk and everyone who responded to my deperate cries for help!  I will reiterate I could have never come this far without you!--I would probably be locked away somewhere doing a 12-step dance--(Not that there's anything wrong with that)--Remember Seinfeld?-Anyway I mentioned to gracy97 I'm in a posting kinda mood so I'll check back later!
Peace and Prayers-Mystere

Anne

[peaz]

Thanks for sharing your name!!  it's nice to know.  Guardian angels get all confused when they're looking for just "Ladies" in Nawlins........You sound just great!! You are doing an awesome job of keeping a good attitude and doing what you need to do to get yourself straight.  (round of applause here)  Tell me more about your husband and what he's been saying/doing during your recovery. Are you sharing Rational recovery w/ him?? Make sure you do, and then he'll have a better idea of what this freaking addiction monster is like......
  Anyway--just wanted to say "hey" and I'm rootin' for ya.  Love, Peazy (Diane)