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Starting my tapering
Hi everyone right now i am struggling with my Taper and feel hopeless, I really have no support to do this at home. I feel really alone and hurt.. I knew i had a problem with pain meds 2 years ago when i went from doing 10 mg norcos 8 a day to 12 a day, then i was sent to a pain mangement dr he added 6 30 mg oxy a day, plus 6 10 10 mg norcos and 2 mg of xanax a day.. i have been doing up to 11 30 mg oxys , 6-8 norco 10 mg and 2-3 mg of xanax at night.. On top of it all im scared i have never been so scared before in my life, .. at the moment im trying to push my next dose with a gf that wants to leave me.. we have 2 kids together been together 20 yrs, she got hooked on norcos 2 years ago for back problems.. i just need some hope ... and advice on how to do this... Im aam so very tired of being a slave to these opiates and am not proud of the person i have become. My family has been torn to shreds .. i tryed asking my gf this morning what she wants to do.. she just totally snapped and said some pretty hurtful things.. i asked her if we could just forgive each other and move on and get though this, she said she will never trust me again, cause im sending my kids to my moms for x mas to get them out of this mess that are stuck in..any help on tapering would really be apreciated
No you really did help me and others on this journey I am a sucker for happily ever after story.. Im really enjoying knowing that soon that this will be behind me and my family...enjoy yourself laugh cry have fun just stay clean...
Ty Pat the depression comes and goes.. I am doing what I can to be well supprised.. I find that everytime it comes to take a dose I want to skip it.. I sit there for 3o minutes fighting with in myself to just start the ct. and get the wd over with.. The biggest help right now is my gf she has totally jumped on board and has been tapering with me and is starting to open up we had great sex yesterday. Sorry if thats to much info. It lead to us tal king bout what has happened too our sex life and general life ..she admitted she was tired of me making her feel not wanted..before opiates we had a great sex life. Started using oxy and lost . Id get hard for hrs but could not orgasm my wife took that as Iwas cheating and she didnt do it for me anymore.. I got frustrated by not being to orgasm so stoppedasking for sex.. At the same time I noticed my gf expeiencing the same thing.. The talk helped us alot understand how much a problem opiates have caused.. Sorry for the ramble.. All I know is sticking to it is the key.. Digging deep and facing the dark to get in the light is unavoidable when getting off opiates .. Thursday will be here before I know it all this tapering is just getting trained for the battle.. I will be prepared and kick these opiates buttt
Don't know why, but your response really reach out and touched me. :) Brought tears to my eyes. Knowing I am making a difference for someone else is huge! Been kicking myself in the rear for being such a goof. This site is a lifesaver. I hope you have a fabulous Holiday with your family. There is life after pills...I'm living it and I tell you that even on a bad day, it's better than my best day on them!!! I've turned a corner and will not go back. Now to pay it forward for all those that have picked me up when I was down...
Hey no I'm so happy and proud of you..at the same time I am jealous/envious /motivated by you thank you for taking the time to think of me..now get out there and enjoy your holidays stay strong you will be in my prayers ..Aloha
I don't think I could ever post from a phone lol.
You are doing so well and should be so proud of yourself.
Glad you are thinking of going cold turkey soon. Make sure you get all the supplies you need so you can hunker down for a few days in case you have to.
The depression is so normal and really s u cks so it's good you are getting out and doing things. It helps.
Keep doing what you're doing. It's working.
You are doing so well and should be so proud of yourself.
Glad you are thinking of going cold turkey soon. Make sure you get all the supplies you need so you can hunker down for a few days in case you have to.
The depression is so normal and really s u cks so it's good you are getting out and doing things. It helps.
Keep doing what you're doing. It's working.
You doing awesome Needing!! I managed to catch myself some kind of bug over the past couple days which has wiped me out! Yesterday I had thoughts about how 'if only' but I swiftly kicked them in the butt!!! I wish I could say that I never will have that feeling, but the desire to move forward and not go back is stronger now. Starting day 8 and most of my wd symptoms have subsided...can't wait for them to completely go away! Have a great day and keep on trucking along. I'm proud of you!
gm pat , today is day 6 of taper, im hanging in there. This morning has been a rough one.. Im down from 6 doses f 4 pill es every 2 hrts to 3 doses every 5_6 hrs.. My spirits are a little down but im staying focused and really thinking about going CT by thursday. Ty for checking on me I am geatful..going to try to work today for a few hrs . Maybe take a swim in the pond..Aloha sorry for the crappy p post im using my phone to post.lol these keys are so small
Thats great..friends that dont use are great to see again. They are happy to see you clean...I'm so glad you are living again..my prayers and thoughts are with you..keep strong and enjoy your new found freedom..aloha
Hi needing help
Just checking in on you and seeing how you are doing.
You have been doing great. Keep it up and let me know.
Hugs
Pat
Just checking in on you and seeing how you are doing.
You have been doing great. Keep it up and let me know.
Hugs
Pat
Keep going your doing great bro.
I have to tell you my buddy and i went out hunting yesterday.
it was strange. As soon as i got everything loaded into my truck getting ready to go. It started snowing. It was awesome.
We seen about 40 deer total. No stooters have to be 4 point or bigger.
But it was the best day of my life in so many years.
We talked about old times, remember when stuff.
We laughed a lot. And i found how much missing my friends means to me.
Boy we really had a great time.
So he is coming back this morning at 6 and we are going again.
I think he knows how much i need him now. Because he has been in my shoes. many surgeries himself. So He knows what I'm going through.
It was so wonderful walking with an old friend, in the wood through the snow.
The ocean sounds like such a wonderful place to go.
I grew up in Seattle and was always out fishing on my boat.
I miss the smell of it.
Keep your head up. Stay the course bro. I feel like a million dollars and i only on day 6. Life is so so so wonderful. I cannot stop laughing.
Your in my thoughts through out the day. Wondering how you are doing.
Keep trucking bro. I know you will get there. You are way to strong not to!!
I have to tell you my buddy and i went out hunting yesterday.
it was strange. As soon as i got everything loaded into my truck getting ready to go. It started snowing. It was awesome.
We seen about 40 deer total. No stooters have to be 4 point or bigger.
But it was the best day of my life in so many years.
We talked about old times, remember when stuff.
We laughed a lot. And i found how much missing my friends means to me.
Boy we really had a great time.
So he is coming back this morning at 6 and we are going again.
I think he knows how much i need him now. Because he has been in my shoes. many surgeries himself. So He knows what I'm going through.
It was so wonderful walking with an old friend, in the wood through the snow.
The ocean sounds like such a wonderful place to go.
I grew up in Seattle and was always out fishing on my boat.
I miss the smell of it.
Keep your head up. Stay the course bro. I feel like a million dollars and i only on day 6. Life is so so so wonderful. I cannot stop laughing.
Your in my thoughts through out the day. Wondering how you are doing.
Keep trucking bro. I know you will get there. You are way to strong not to!!
i will your support and example has really changed me inside.. id like to ty i will continue my prayers for you to maintain your sober happiness... i plan on running my pits on the beach and taking the family to the beach.. something about the salt water and sun that makes times fly.. i believe the salt water helps alot with muscle aches.. positive vibes ,
It's strange. As we get clean we feel stuff that is foreign to use at the time. Simple because we forgot that feeling. And yes it does feel strange but in such a good way.
Our body are miracles. The way the heal themselves.
It's strange also that I'm welcoming company. Something i would never do while using.
So everything will get better day by day.
Who know what the day will bring. But as humans we are designed to stand up and face it head on.
Keep getting it done bro.
You are doing great. You got this keep fighting you will see your life in such a Shot time. AND LIVE AGAIN!!!!
Enjoy your day and try and stay busy. It will help u in the end.
Our body are miracles. The way the heal themselves.
It's strange also that I'm welcoming company. Something i would never do while using.
So everything will get better day by day.
Who know what the day will bring. But as humans we are designed to stand up and face it head on.
Keep getting it done bro.
You are doing great. You got this keep fighting you will see your life in such a Shot time. AND LIVE AGAIN!!!!
Enjoy your day and try and stay busy. It will help u in the end.
Isn't that a great feeling when you wake up and the first thing on your mind is your recovery rather than needing a pill??? Im doing pretty darn good despite a minor cold I've acquired. Still some very minor annoying wd symptoms of yawning and sneezing. The night sweating has reduced to almost none. My hands feel sticky off an on. Hope this part ends soon. Day 7...gonna go do some christmas stuff with my daughter and grandson without opiates! :) you got this need!
gm .... its a new day.. last night was a lot of tossing and turning but i actually fell asleep for a few hrs.. i thought id get up jonesing cause of skipping one more dose then palned yesterday ... today i will cut another 1/2 a pill each dose and make 6-8 hrs before dosing again..i feeel positive this morning ... when i woke up i didnt think about pills i thought about getting off them.. i didnt wake up craving them like i normally do.. which is a good feeling.. for all of you doing this.. stay strong keep your heads up, aloha
that is awsome not ... have a great time tomorrow its always good to see old friends. even better you are doing what you love to do... that is great news!!!! stay strong i am so envious of you guy and motivated... night
thats awsome that you are home safe and laughing about it.. awsome to see you feeling so good.. and yes Pat is awsome and blessed for sure.... some music triggers emotions i am trying to avoid love songs lol... but some bob marley or reggae for me keeps me happy.. night and awsome cant wait to be there with ya on the clean side... keep it up ..
Yes. I agree it is time to try and sleep. Got out today went for a 100 mile drive walked some in the woods. It was a great day.
Tomorrow an old friend is coming over and we are going scouting for hunting.
It's. Going to be a great day tomorrow haven't seen him in a very long time (years).
Have a good night all. Sweet dreams if you are able to sleep.
Nite.
Tomorrow an old friend is coming over and we are going scouting for hunting.
It's. Going to be a great day tomorrow haven't seen him in a very long time (years).
Have a good night all. Sweet dreams if you are able to sleep.
Nite.
i been taking my vitamins and the 5 htp its been helping alot.. so im going to lay down now.. total amount of pills done today 6 oxy and 4 norcos.. im almost under double digits yay!!! i was really trying to get by on 4 if i culd but i allowed myself some leway so if i didnt end up doing 4 and 4 today i wouldnt feel all guilty..good night everyone.. my prayers go out to all of you... things do get better dont beat yourself up and stay strong , everyday does make you stronger..stay focused on the positive things..oh yeah my goal is to be down to 4 and 4 with 1 mg of xanax by sunday ... stay strong stick to what ever you are doing if its tapering or ct.. just stay strong the end result is you will have your life back...
Ha. Keep it up.
Went for a drive this afternoon. Scouting for deer.
On my way home i blew a new tire. ***** im out in the country and just took all my tools out of my car. My lug wrench for the car will not fit my mag wheel.
Ha ha ha. Called les Schwab they came out and changed it no charge.
Really no charge. He said have a nice night sir. I gave him a $10.00 tip.
And now I'm home safe. Wow was that weird or what. I've never not had to pay for a service call.
Just blew me away. Very kind man.
So my story is things do get better.
Don't be afraid, it is all so much better on the clean side.
Glad you had the music cranked up. Music does wonders. When healing i think.
And yes about pat. She is one of a kind. That lady is blessed i think.
She helped me so much.
Keep trucking brother
Went for a drive this afternoon. Scouting for deer.
On my way home i blew a new tire. ***** im out in the country and just took all my tools out of my car. My lug wrench for the car will not fit my mag wheel.
Ha ha ha. Called les Schwab they came out and changed it no charge.
Really no charge. He said have a nice night sir. I gave him a $10.00 tip.
And now I'm home safe. Wow was that weird or what. I've never not had to pay for a service call.
Just blew me away. Very kind man.
So my story is things do get better.
Don't be afraid, it is all so much better on the clean side.
Glad you had the music cranked up. Music does wonders. When healing i think.
And yes about pat. She is one of a kind. That lady is blessed i think.
She helped me so much.
Keep trucking brother
thanks and i understand this is not something i cant just talk away... i did manage to skip another dose today.. and am actually feeling ok about it.. i understand how important after care is.. and yes my family does deserve it.. thanks again
I am so happy for you and you sound great.
I will tell you this..I got clean and relapsed more times than a person should. It wasn't until I admitted that I was an addict and I surrendered that I could STAY clean. See getting clean is easy, staying clean is where the work comes in. You said you were addicted before on another drug. You have always been an addict and always will be. You just traded drugs. I got that. I did that.
This is an "I can't, WE can" kind of thing. If you think the addiction ends when you stop the drugs I fear that you will be in trouble. It is your behavior that makes you an addict, not the drugs. I could get addicted to paper clips if I had enough of them. And I could find drugs on a deserted island if I had the mind to. Don't think that because no one around you is using that you can't get drugs. You will find a way if you want them. I always did.
I want to see you make it. I want it for you and your family. YOU deserve better and so do they. So think about aftercare. Okay? For now just think about it.
Get some rest and let us know how you are in the morning.
I will tell you this..I got clean and relapsed more times than a person should. It wasn't until I admitted that I was an addict and I surrendered that I could STAY clean. See getting clean is easy, staying clean is where the work comes in. You said you were addicted before on another drug. You have always been an addict and always will be. You just traded drugs. I got that. I did that.
This is an "I can't, WE can" kind of thing. If you think the addiction ends when you stop the drugs I fear that you will be in trouble. It is your behavior that makes you an addict, not the drugs. I could get addicted to paper clips if I had enough of them. And I could find drugs on a deserted island if I had the mind to. Don't think that because no one around you is using that you can't get drugs. You will find a way if you want them. I always did.
I want to see you make it. I want it for you and your family. YOU deserve better and so do they. So think about aftercare. Okay? For now just think about it.
Get some rest and let us know how you are in the morning.
not \m/ (>.<)\m/ .. turns up that song... taking care of buisnesss... :)
Ty Pat you are a huge motivator for so many on here.. i cant wait to have pain pill free days and smiling again hope you are having a good day..
lol rubber duck sorry your long screen name gave me a laugh.. i know my taper is kind of harsh and have been tempted to up my dose or lessen my time.. but im hard headed more then anything, i feel i would spin into a i failed attitude if i deviate.. i admit it is hard as hell but each day is getting a little better, thank you for your support and advice ...
Hi iBKleen ty for the words of wisdom.. I truly believe God lead me here to this website i have been carrying this guilt and depression for far to long.. started reading my bible again about 4 months ago with no plan of quiting pain meds, after praying and giving up to God i found this site, and my journey has begun.. I feel that its not me doing this but it is God .. you are right with such a rapid taper it really makes me think about getting the wd over with so i can start on the next phase of healing at the same time i dont want to rush and fail.. so im going at a steady pace and will pray for the strength to go CT .. no i have not talked to anyone about aftercare .. i sort of planned on hanging around here till i get this done.none of my friends do drugs i have with drawn from them, i planned on spending more time doing things with them again and maybe go to church.. on the GF you hit it on the head, she is mad but decided she is going to quit, slowly she is coming around, scarey times lay ahead we both know that even tho we love each other we might not be able to be together.. after 20 yrs .. it really does scare me.. but i do know that no matter what happens 2013 i will be clean with or with out her?? ty so much for taking your time to help me..
Ty Pat you are a huge motivator for so many on here.. i cant wait to have pain pill free days and smiling again hope you are having a good day..
lol rubber duck sorry your long screen name gave me a laugh.. i know my taper is kind of harsh and have been tempted to up my dose or lessen my time.. but im hard headed more then anything, i feel i would spin into a i failed attitude if i deviate.. i admit it is hard as hell but each day is getting a little better, thank you for your support and advice ...
Hi iBKleen ty for the words of wisdom.. I truly believe God lead me here to this website i have been carrying this guilt and depression for far to long.. started reading my bible again about 4 months ago with no plan of quiting pain meds, after praying and giving up to God i found this site, and my journey has begun.. I feel that its not me doing this but it is God .. you are right with such a rapid taper it really makes me think about getting the wd over with so i can start on the next phase of healing at the same time i dont want to rush and fail.. so im going at a steady pace and will pray for the strength to go CT .. no i have not talked to anyone about aftercare .. i sort of planned on hanging around here till i get this done.none of my friends do drugs i have with drawn from them, i planned on spending more time doing things with them again and maybe go to church.. on the GF you hit it on the head, she is mad but decided she is going to quit, slowly she is coming around, scarey times lay ahead we both know that even tho we love each other we might not be able to be together.. after 20 yrs .. it really does scare me.. but i do know that no matter what happens 2013 i will be clean with or with out her?? ty so much for taking your time to help me..
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