Starting over

I had almost 30 days clean from a 10 norco A day habit of almost a year. I thought for some reason that I could take just one and man was I wrong. I'm back up to 10 a day and want nothing more than to be done with this nasty habit once and for all. I'm terrified that I'm going to go through those horrible withdrawals again and that's mainly why u haven't gotten up the nerve to stop again. I really really want to be done with these little yellow dEmons. Does anyone know if the withdrawals will be as bad this tiered around its been almost 3 weeks since I started using again. I plan on quitting on Monday ( only because unordered to start at the beginning of the week when my parents and boyfriend will be at work all week and only be home at night, I don't want to feel horrible over the weekend with them watching me cause none of them know anything about this.)

[kyle505]

Welcome back...If you recall, our stories re Norcos, amount per day and duration of use are very similar. I think that we were supportive of each other because our circumstances were so similar. One thing that I did, that I've posted several times, is put up roadblocks so I would not have access to the meds. I emailed my doctor, dentist, and pharmacy and asked them to red flag my medical records; no opioids (sp?). I told a couple of friends who'd given me a pill or two in the past that they cannot give me any meds; and I came clean to my wife, so she'll know not to have any opioid scripts written for me. Don't know where you get the meds, but making sure you can't get them in the future is probably a good idea. I did the roadblock thing because I can't honestly say that, if offered or available, I would not take a pill in a month, year, whatever. Good luck...Keep posting.

[sandstone27]

Hi,
Sorry about your relapse, but it happens alot.  Generally speaking, withdrawals do get worse the more you go through them, but you've been back on them for a relatively short time, so it may not be as bad as your first time around, when you were on them for almost a year.  

The only way to find out is to either taper or jump, and then you'll know for sure.  I really hope it won't be too terrible for you this time around.  You've put alot of work into that 30 days.  BUT, the sooner you start your withdrawal, the sooner you'll finish.   Do you have any plans in place for aftercare, so that you can be prepared once you've detoxed again?

Don't beat yourself up too much...you've been through this before and you'll get through it again.  It took alot of courage for you to post that you've relapsed;  that's something to be proud of!  

Keep posting so we know how you're doing...

Well wishes,

Sandy :)

[Imdone12]

Has anyone ever been through anything similar that can give me any ideas as to what to expect come Monday. I'm really scared to start over and I'm not sure I can handle the withdrawals again

[atthebeach]

dont anticipate the withdrawal. the fear many times is worse than the actual withdrawal. the longer you stay on them the worse the withdrawals will be. what are you options? continue to use or to detox.
do you have any aftercare in place? if not that would be essential to prevent another relapse. you were well on your way with 30 days under your belt. you can do this. set your plan to quit monday and stick with that day. we will be here to support you and encourage you.
sending hope,hugs,encouragement and prayers
debbie

[releaseme]

i'll kick with you!!! i need so much help and a starting date would be the beginning for me.  I'm sooooo damn weak when it comes to these damn pills!!! while they're in my system, I feel like I can do it, but, I give in each and every damn morning.  let's help each other... I'll start the detox with you.  stay connected and heaven help the both of us; heaven help us all!!! By the way, i'm up to 4-6 (512's) pr day.  So I assume this is 20-30 (or so) miligrams a day.  I have taken 4 (602's) in a day.  I'm scared to exceed 6; I am scared of the whole f'---ing thing!! It's crazy how they give you so much energy isn't it:-). However, I am scaring myself with all the forgetfullness. LOL!!! I know.....it's not funny.  let's put this behind us and laugh together.  I'm wasting soooo much money on this **** (money I don't have) and as much as I like shoes, hair dos, clothes, nick nacks around the house....I'm ready to substitute my habit for something I can see!! good luck, and I'll look forward to chatting with you on Monday.

[releaseme]

i'll kick with you!!! i need so much help and a starting date would be the beginning for me.  I'm sooooo damn weak when it comes to these damn pills!!! while they're in my system, I feel like I can do it, but, I give in each and every damn morning.  let's help each other... I'll start the detox with you.  stay connected and heaven help the both of us; heaven help us all!!! By the way, i'm up to 4-6 (512's) pr day.  So I assume this is 20-30 (or so) miligrams a day.  I have taken 4 (602's) in a day.  I'm scared to exceed 6; I am scared of the whole f'---ing thing!! It's crazy how they give you so much energy isn't it:-). However, I am scaring myself with all the forgetfullness. LOL!!! I know.....it's not funny.  let's put this behind us and laugh together.  I'm wasting soooo much money on this **** (money I don't have) and as much as I like shoes, hair dos, clothes, nick nacks around the house....I'm ready to substitute my habit for something I can see!! good luck, and I'll look forward to chatting with you on Monday.
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[Imdone12]

Yes that sounds good we will do it together. I want to be done with these once and for all. I hate feeling this way. I know I can do better than this I don't know why I caved last time I was almost at 30 days and I was finally feeling good again and being the best mom to my kids. Someone that they deserved to have not this. I just want to feel good again and I want to be happy. So on Monday we will get our lives back on track and so this :)

[releaseme]

my 19 yr old son has pissed me off and being upset, is leading me to being weak!! how do you deal with anger and frustration during detox?:-). I'm praying that pounding these words on the keyboard helps me to calm down and forget about it.:-).......................I think it worked, I'm calm.