Still Blue

[Jenn32]

Hello everyone...I have been off of Hydrocodone for a week and I am still crying.  I cry alot.  My doctor gave me diazepam and it does not do much for me...calmed my crying for a little bit.  I dont feel like doing anything.  Dont feel like exercising, going to work, watching my kids.  I dont know if the crying is still the down fall of hydrocodone or that I still dont have my period.  I am giong on 2 months without my period.  My doctor gave me a blood test and said I was not pregnant.  Does the down side of hydrocodone last this long?....She did up my Depakote to 3x500mg a day.
I just want to be happy.  That is all I want.  My kids probably wonder why mommy crys all the time.  My doctor wants me to see a therapist..but been there done that...

[kimmieb]

hey, jen, perhaps what your doctor is not telling you is that hydros can really mess up your HORMONES as well as neurotransmitters, etc......and when hormones are messed up, well, we all know how that goes!  hydros screw with hormones, period....my one awesome doctor (whom i'm so thankful i finally found) told me that

i know that crying jags and emotional issues are so totally common during detox (not that that makes it any easier, knowing that it's "common")....but don't underestimate the role that the messed up hormones are playing in all this....

has your dr. also run a hormone profile on you....bloodwork to check levels of progesterone, estradiol, estriol, testosterone, FSH, LH, etc.?  if not, might be a good time....

just a thought....and my personal experience as well

blessings to you....
kim

[beck25752003]

the post here are right, i know not what you want to here. i am 34 days off them and it does take a while for you brain to catch up. but as days go by it will get better. the ups and downs will become farther apart. i wont i lie i still have them but slowly you will see things you havent wanted or cared to see in the world.  limodan is soo right, i felt like you for about 2 weeks and then one day i laughed at the stupidest thing and laughed my a--!! off. and it felt sooo good i hold on to that everytime i have a down day. i promise you it  will get better. i have also read alot of self-help books and books of positve thinking so i could figure  out why i  wanted to numb myself. they say alot of things you should and do know but it really makes you see things you havent felt in a while. hang in there you are doing so good and should be sooo proud of yourself. you are in my prayers
beck

[Jenn32]

What I dont understand is my doctor says..."well it should have been out of your system by now".....yeah but what are the effects after that?....because obviously she has never used

[limodan73]

HI, I am right there with you. I am on Day 8 of c/t from a nasty hydros addiction. It was weird for me becuase I am a guy(A tough guy at that) and my eyes would just start watering. Next thing I know, something stupid on T.V. would send me down a emotional rollercoaster. But, I would like to share something with you. A little while ago, I took my dog for a walk up to the corner store. On the way, I actually had something happen that hasn't happened in a very long time. I could actually smell, and ENJOY, all the brush and mini bomb fires of family BBQ's. I know that sounds silly, but, it was quite a thing for me. The hydros had destroyed my nuro receptors so bad for so long, I couldn't smell or enjoy this. I quess the point to this is this. It is the little feats  and glimpses of normalcy that will get me to where I want to be. And if you hang on, and bear through it, I promise something goofy like this will happen for you. And it will be wonderful. Good luck and keep posting. lot of good people on here.

[worried878]

Gosh i hate to say this but i am not even a "cryer" and i went on crying jags for close to a month...took close to 2 months before my energy was getting better...good days and bad days...at one week clean ur expectations may be a little high...dont expect the worst but do educate urself on what is realistic to expect...u have a ways to go before u feel semi-normal even most of the time...energy returns and good days/energy days will cycle with bad days...but it just gets better and better...relapse happens to many as they do not understand why they are not back to normal after the physical thing is over...but the mental thing is the hard part for me...it lingers for a while...stay strong and keep posting

[BigWill79]

Healing physically from detox takes a while and depression is a major part of this.  The mental part is always the hardest.  Don't give up, I promise you will get better.  I strongly recommend going to a therapist.  If you didn't enjoy your last therapist, try a new one.  Try ten until you find one you like.  Be open minded, do what they ask, go twice a week, whatever it takes to get through this and find out why you use.  You are worth it.  You deserve to be sober and happy.  I'll be happy to chat if you need it.  Have a good night.

Will

[miss_tiffany22]

i know exactly how you feel!!! and it is horrible, my heart goes out to you. I cry and cry, and it seems the more I cry just leads to more crying, not less. I am in the process of quitting, it is a roller coaster ride of mostly failures. I started taking 100 mg of zoloft and that has helped, i also stopped having my periods when i was on hydro. I started taking birth control and that helped regulate it. i also am not going to therapy, mainly because i cannot afford it. i am so proud of you that you made it a week, that is way better then i can do. please please just stick with it, it is always darkest before the dawn. and please feel free to message me and talk anytime.
tiff

[beentrying2quit]

Your happy self will return..could take up to a month or longer.  Remember..you can't rush this.  It took me about 2 mths to see any type of normalcy after going cold turkey from a Fentanyl addiciton.  The mental part usually takes the longest to correct itself but stay strong..you are on your way.