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Stopped taking pain pills...
I am literally on the verge of tears as I write this, and that is very unusual for me.
Over the past few years, which started while in the restaurant industry, I became dependent on pain pills.
This is the first time I have ever posted on any website about this, and I don't even know where to start.
Three years ago I started a company that deals with medical equipment. I love what I do, and am so thankful to have a good job that I love during this economy.
But, as I have tried to quit pain pills, it has been inexplicably rough. I literally don't want to get out of bed. It has been three days now, and I have not wanted to talk to anyone or do anything.
When I read stories from others about how it has been so long and yet they still don't have any energy I wonder how I can run a company, maintain friendships, etc. when I literally don't want to get off the couch.
Am I just being a baby? Should I get over myself and just force myself to get up and walk around. I just don't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Over the past few years, which started while in the restaurant industry, I became dependent on pain pills.
This is the first time I have ever posted on any website about this, and I don't even know where to start.
Three years ago I started a company that deals with medical equipment. I love what I do, and am so thankful to have a good job that I love during this economy.
But, as I have tried to quit pain pills, it has been inexplicably rough. I literally don't want to get out of bed. It has been three days now, and I have not wanted to talk to anyone or do anything.
When I read stories from others about how it has been so long and yet they still don't have any energy I wonder how I can run a company, maintain friendships, etc. when I literally don't want to get off the couch.
Am I just being a baby? Should I get over myself and just force myself to get up and walk around. I just don't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Hi Noname---
This is an old post and may get overlooked. It would be best if you started your own post and copied and pasted what you wrote here. Go to the top of this page and hit the orange post a question button. Follow the instructions. If you need help give a yell.
There is a lot of good support here. Hope to see you in the forum.
This is an old post and may get overlooked. It would be best if you started your own post and copied and pasted what you wrote here. Go to the top of this page and hit the orange post a question button. Follow the instructions. If you need help give a yell.
There is a lot of good support here. Hope to see you in the forum.
So I was doing oxycodin I weend down to three a day, last Sunday I only took one then the got the cold I felt really bad I have some norcos left so I took one on mon, two on Tues and one Thurs (4 all totall). Since I took one norco on thurs dose that mean I'm going to start all over with my detox, I meen I was doing good for two days didn't do it till late night to try to get some sleep (witch didn't help) . I feel good right now just don't know if it going to get worse later.
I'm sick of thees pills I need to stop for my daughter and my wife they don't know I've been doing this for two years. in the army so I get tested alot I have been vary lucky that I managed to get out of the tests. I need to quit now I could get kicked out if army finds out please need advice.
I'm sick of thees pills I need to stop for my daughter and my wife they don't know I've been doing this for two years. in the army so I get tested alot I have been vary lucky that I managed to get out of the tests. I need to quit now I could get kicked out if army finds out please need advice.
Omg I don't think you need to apologize for "the long rambling post" - that's one of the best things I have ever read here. Really well said and SO inspiring. Just a thanks from me sorry for the interruption wheels2011.
Hey,
I've withdrawaled several times from oxycontin and like you, my withdrawals completely take me out. I can barely move from my bed to the couch and I get terrible depression and am soooo lethargic. Although it is so painful it is the process that our bodies must do to detox the opiates out. You said you are on day three, that is the worst of the days in my opinion. Day 3 maybe day 4 your symptoms will peak and from there on each day you will notice yourself getting a little better. Also, three days is amazing. Don't discredit what you've already accomplished. You have gotten through some of the worst of the WD's and you're not being a baby. This is the toughest thing most people ever go through in their lives, so don't be so hard on yourself.
In response to your post though, I do think there are ways to ease what you're going through. In terms of physical withdrawal, drink lots of water, take hot or cold showers, wrap your legs in heating pads if they're restless and hurting, try to get up and walk if you can, even if its really short distance, it will tire your legs out and body out so you aren't so restless and cramped feeling. I always think dark chocolate helps with opiate cravings and depression, so eat some of that! In terms of mental withdrawal, I always get depressed when coming off the oxycontin because it takes time for your brain to start producing endorphins again, so you can get stuff from the vitamin store that is natural like 5-HTP and it helps with depression in my opinion. Valerian Root and melatonin help with sleep. I also usually take some xanax to help with anxiety and sleep during the first few days of WD. I know some people don't agree with this, so it's a personal choice. I think it helps to watch TV and just try to distract your mind. The worst is just sitting there in WD watching the seconds go by so anything to avoid that will help. Read through this website if you have spare time, there are a lot of interesting stories on here. Also posting to others and trying to offer support or help to others gets you out of your own head and makes you feel good.
To address what you said about how you're supposed to manage a company, friendships, etc. Can you at least take a few days off work to get through the worst of the physical WD's? Don't expect so much all at once. What you're feeling right now is not "sobriety" but more so the final effects of what this addiction has done to you, it's the drug doing everything it can to get you to cave and go back to it. Don't attribute these bad feelings with what it's like to be sober. It will get so much better, but you have to really want it. It's a tough battle but you're trying to get your life back. Have you lost anything due to your addiction or had any major consequences? Try to think of things that motivate you to want to be off the drugs.
I know you are feeling horrible now, but the longer you push through this, the better you will start to feel. Whereas, if you go back to using, you might feel better in the moment, but it will eventually take you down a path of darkness, pain, self destruction, and hatred, most likely destroying any job or relationships you once valued. It is sad the control these drugs have over us. Try to think back to a time in your life when you weren't on painkillers. You could wake up in the morning feeling refreshed rather than sick in WD. You could go about your day without worrying if you had enough to maintain feeling okay and not going into WD. Your days werent spent obsessing over getting and doing more painkillers and most importantly you weren't dependent on them to do every little thing. It always shocks me how, when I am in my addiction, and actively using, I feel like I NEED oxycontin to go to work, school, maintain friendships, social outings, or whatever else. But that's just the trick of the drugs. Once you get past this withdrawal, you will feel better. There is such a better life out there for you, and you deserve it. You are a strong person and you don't need to be on drugs to make it through life. Congrats on three days, keep going forward and post on here as much as possible, it will get better.
And sorry for the long rambling post...
I've withdrawaled several times from oxycontin and like you, my withdrawals completely take me out. I can barely move from my bed to the couch and I get terrible depression and am soooo lethargic. Although it is so painful it is the process that our bodies must do to detox the opiates out. You said you are on day three, that is the worst of the days in my opinion. Day 3 maybe day 4 your symptoms will peak and from there on each day you will notice yourself getting a little better. Also, three days is amazing. Don't discredit what you've already accomplished. You have gotten through some of the worst of the WD's and you're not being a baby. This is the toughest thing most people ever go through in their lives, so don't be so hard on yourself.
In response to your post though, I do think there are ways to ease what you're going through. In terms of physical withdrawal, drink lots of water, take hot or cold showers, wrap your legs in heating pads if they're restless and hurting, try to get up and walk if you can, even if its really short distance, it will tire your legs out and body out so you aren't so restless and cramped feeling. I always think dark chocolate helps with opiate cravings and depression, so eat some of that! In terms of mental withdrawal, I always get depressed when coming off the oxycontin because it takes time for your brain to start producing endorphins again, so you can get stuff from the vitamin store that is natural like 5-HTP and it helps with depression in my opinion. Valerian Root and melatonin help with sleep. I also usually take some xanax to help with anxiety and sleep during the first few days of WD. I know some people don't agree with this, so it's a personal choice. I think it helps to watch TV and just try to distract your mind. The worst is just sitting there in WD watching the seconds go by so anything to avoid that will help. Read through this website if you have spare time, there are a lot of interesting stories on here. Also posting to others and trying to offer support or help to others gets you out of your own head and makes you feel good.
To address what you said about how you're supposed to manage a company, friendships, etc. Can you at least take a few days off work to get through the worst of the physical WD's? Don't expect so much all at once. What you're feeling right now is not "sobriety" but more so the final effects of what this addiction has done to you, it's the drug doing everything it can to get you to cave and go back to it. Don't attribute these bad feelings with what it's like to be sober. It will get so much better, but you have to really want it. It's a tough battle but you're trying to get your life back. Have you lost anything due to your addiction or had any major consequences? Try to think of things that motivate you to want to be off the drugs.
I know you are feeling horrible now, but the longer you push through this, the better you will start to feel. Whereas, if you go back to using, you might feel better in the moment, but it will eventually take you down a path of darkness, pain, self destruction, and hatred, most likely destroying any job or relationships you once valued. It is sad the control these drugs have over us. Try to think back to a time in your life when you weren't on painkillers. You could wake up in the morning feeling refreshed rather than sick in WD. You could go about your day without worrying if you had enough to maintain feeling okay and not going into WD. Your days werent spent obsessing over getting and doing more painkillers and most importantly you weren't dependent on them to do every little thing. It always shocks me how, when I am in my addiction, and actively using, I feel like I NEED oxycontin to go to work, school, maintain friendships, social outings, or whatever else. But that's just the trick of the drugs. Once you get past this withdrawal, you will feel better. There is such a better life out there for you, and you deserve it. You are a strong person and you don't need to be on drugs to make it through life. Congrats on three days, keep going forward and post on here as much as possible, it will get better.
And sorry for the long rambling post...
Definitly not being a baby, I think it takes a really strong person to get through the withdrawals...With me I was down for about 3 days and couldn't get out of the bathroom, but after that I did have to force myself up and go to work and take care of kids. I would then have a few good days and then a BAD day. I eventually quit a job that I loved,but everything happens for a reason...and just as Cathy said better days are ahead, even if u don't see it yet it is coming :)
You are not being a baby. You will feel better soon. Its the 'Nature of the Beast'. Its been 1 1/2 week for me, and today I'm going to the doctor to see if I can't get my anti deppressants changed. They seem to have lost their lusture. I know only too well about NO energy. Stick around and these people that have been around will assure you your energy will come back. I'm just not sure when. Chin up, better days ahead.
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