I can relate to this so much,especially these parts:
Once I get going its great but it needs quite the push,
I never managed to cope with the rush you get after a H detox, I'm going to go fix the world in 2 mins flat, kind of mania! I always went back to it, not thinking straight, feeling like superman
My cravings have come and gone, but its not the same as cravings for Drugs, its more a craving for good times, party's and friendships, of which I stay clear now! Not fun but a must!
I didn't know we had so much in common!
Hey Pat... I was never on Subs! Thank God I found MH and read the horror stories of it before I was ever tempted to go that route. I don't have personal experience with it but MANY people here do and you will find lots of support and encouragement.. Where are you at in the process?