Super HARD day!!!

[sodonemom]

I'm only at the 48 hour mark and feel REALLY horrible! Can't really describe one thing it's just everything! I am not going to cave. Not this time ok? This time I'm gonna make it right? I can't do meetings. I live in a small town (Canadian not that it matters) where everyone knows everyone, almost.

Good luck to all of us fighting tonight! Hope tomorrow is a better, clean day!

[4kieran]

I am trying to taper off of both suboxone and 2mg benzos and I find
that reading these posts, and others, not only gives you ideas but also
takes your mind off of W/D symptoms.  I also read the forum where people cannot get suboxone due to cost or insurance and that gives me plenty of reasons to get off this junk.  God bless.

[lulu747]

Hope you are sleeping sweet thing or at least resting...
After tomorrow you will begin to feel MILES better.  This I can promise you.  Stay hydrated, stay busy, and be kind and gentle with yourself.  Remember you didn't get into this mess over night and you won't get out over night.  It SU#KS I know- but patience really is the name of the game.  Once you go from feeling like a 90 year old woman with arthritis to a 75 year old with creaky knees, start getting out and about for some walks in the sunshine.  The more fresh air and Vit D the better.
You got this girl.
xo
Lu

[pinkgirl73]

wow...awesome job, girl!!!  you will start to feel better soon.  I know its hard but get mad at the pills.  they did this to you.  just think how strong you are that you made the decision to get your life back.  when you feel a little better just try to do small things.  go for a walk in the yard, laugh at how comical your kids are....whatever makes you feel happy. I cant tell you how impressed I am because I know your mind and body are screaming for you to just take the pills to make it go away.  don't cave.  your almost on the other side.  you don't want to have to start all over.  I quit a few times and then I would always start again, saying to myself that I would control it this time, that I deserved it cuz I had a bad day, that I had pain, that I couldn't sleep...but don't listen to the pills telling you all that stuff.  the real you is fighting hard now and you will come out of this very soon.  just keep thinking about that.

[beastmowed]

Keep pushing. You are almost out of the worst of it. Beast Mowed. GodSpeed.

[Bigdaddy1313]

I know time moves at a snails pace when your on day three. Reading your posts brings my day 1,2,3,4 and so on back when going through WD's. No doubt they stink but you will begin to feel better soon. I would bet you start to feel noticeably better by day 5 and 6. You've gone through hell so the best thing to do is keep going forward. I only read your posts so I'm not sure if anyone has suggested a simple walk or even go sit outside and let the sun do its thing. You definitely have a lot of people rooting for you. It won't be long until you are rooting on some other person who is on day 2 of detox and feels like crap. God bless and good luck.

[eekh64]

I am getting goose bumps from reading all of responses from everyone in the cheerleeder section. You are in good hands on this site that's all I can say right now.  Prayers are with you. GOD speed.

[sodonemom]

I'm super super sick. Can hardly type. I just want to go to bed. But I can't sleep. I have nothing to help. I think I'm too sick to find pills if I wanted to.

I am stunned at the amount of support pouring in by everyone. I don't feel like I deserve it cause I wanna cave, bad.

Day three done. Yay. Good night. Please pray for me. I will pray for you too.

[EvolverU]

Hi there & Congrats on your approach to 72 hrs.!!

AWESOME work!! You're gonna' be the hump pretty soon. I know that time is crawling for you right now but try not to look down that tunnel & psych yourself out. Try not to think of things in terms of hours or days or weeks. All you have to get through is just this present moment. Take deep breaths & redirect when you're feeling physically & emotionally overwhelmed.

I promise you that your symptoms will abate & that if you stick with it, when you look back, your acute w/d's will seem like the twinkling of an eye. You & your loved ones deserve this!! So, my friend, keep your eye on the prize. Stay with us! We're here & we're pulling for you :))

[pinkgirl73]

WOW!!!  SO proud of you!  The others are right, This is where its the worst and soon you will start to feel much better.  Just hang in there!  I know its torture but just keep telling yourself that you are already halfway there.  If you cave now you will have to start all over from the beginning.  So just hang in there.  Just baby yourself right now.  You are doing a very hard thing.  You are going to have to do some kind of aftercare but I wont even get into that right now because the thought of that can be pretty overwhelming when your in withdrawals and the last thing you need is more anxiety.  So when you're feeling better you can think about that.  I'm so proud of you!  Now your kids will have their REAL mom back.  Not just a shell with pills living inside.  Keep going!!!  Your doing great!!!

[VICourageous]

Just keep moving forward and do all the right things in a Healthy way for your Brain & Body.
I too live in a very small town and I do not see anybody outside these meetings and I go to both AA/NA. Even if I had not had a drink in over 9-10 years..Just sub one for the other. Those meetings are suppose to be confidential and what is said there is to stay there..WE have to have support..This is a WE thing not a ME thing because the ME thing gets us trouble all the time..Just hang on tight and this all will pass as each day goes by. Surrender to this process..Soon you will balance out.
Bless

[beastmowed]

Good job making it to 48 hours. I hit rock bottom last week. I am only on day 5. You can do it if I can. There is no point in turning back now. I just found this website and it seems like everyone is going through alot of the same issues. It helps me so much to know other people have made it through. I had everyone pretty much fooled, then I relapsed and almost overdosed. You are alive, even if you feel bad, at least you CAN change and get better. I have a 6 year old who's mom is in jail for manufacturing of meth. I'm all the lil dude has. Keep pushing, find faith, and keep your mind busy. All smooth from here.

[LadySailor86]

Oh yes you can do this. If u are tired just sleep. Lay down be lazy. Follow that Thomas recipe. But meetings are so so important. I went while I was detoxing and it have me such hope. I'm on day 17 and last nite I slept. Finally. Up until this morning I had to force myself to function, today I actually want to function. You are almost past the nasty part.  You may not have an appetite for a while but force yourself to eat. Your body needs fuel.

[Gettingalifeagain]

Wow! Congratulations fellow Canadian on 48+ hours!!!!  
Blessings on your day to come, may it be peaceful in your heart...

[spider6]

Canadian shout out!   You got this sista!  Def should be getting better soon.
Prayers, strength and peace out!  

[lulu747]

Hey you got this girl.  Just hang in there- another 24-48 hours and you will feel MUCH better.  Trust me on this one.
If you're feeling scared and alone just come on here and post.  God, I think when I was detoxing I posted about my every symptom.  The lovely folks on here (Vicki especially) walked me through it.  I was a bit of a whiner (:  We all are when we go through this.  But the only way out is through and it is SO worth it!!!
You're totally doing this.
Rock on sister.
xo
Lu

[Pat1956100]

I agree with everyone and I do remember that lead weight feeling in my body.  It was pretty shocking but it will all get better.  I am Canadian too.  I wish we had more meetings here and don't know why we don't.  
Stay strong and keep posting here for support.

[Merri123]

Hey there. Yes you are doing it. 36-72 hours is supposed to be the worst (depending g on your doc). So you are so doing great. Hang I. There for a couple more days and each will get a little better. Stay positive. You can do it!!!

[ChasingFreedom]

YOU are the only one in control of YOUR success.  Just remember this...It gets easier and easier every day.  We CAN do this!!!  :)

[sodonemom]

Thanks I hope it doesn't get much worse. I am so tired.

[sodonemom]

Hey to you! I am doing this. Will my arms always feel like they are 100 pounds each???? Omfg! Actually my whole body feels really heavy. I can't even stand myself right now. Stop complaining! Sorry just not making sense.

[Amandag78]

Congratulations on 48 hours !!!
Well done, hang in there : )

[sodonemom]

I will really try to consider meetings once I can feel up to it.

[lulu747]

Hey My Canadian Sister!!!

You are at the worst point- it will get better from here.  Just hunker down and ride the waves.  In 3 days you will feel miles better.  
You need support babes!  Time to think about aftercare as Jifmoc said okay?
I'm here if you need to chat.  Pm me anytime.

YOU ARE DOING THIS
xo
Lu

[jifmoc]

Hey, you are now in the acute phase. You are IN it. The "thing" that everyone fears...you are now in it. Soon to be on the other side. Just let time pass by, kay?

I hate to say this, but we don't make it w/o meetings/support. Trust me, I tried for so long to just take the pills away and always relapsed. If you go into a meeting, guess what? The other people in there are addicts, too! And everything said is kept in the room.