I was prescribed Tramadol and Norco for back pain, subsequently, I have become seriously addicted to the feel good aspects. I'm a 51 year old man and have never had drug issues in the past however, this has been going going on for a few years now and I'm on my FOURTH "giving up" cycle. Needless to say, I'm wrapped around the axle so to speak and find it hard to believe that my extremely fit self has let go, given in and become a drug addict. Not an excuse but I can say with certainty that I attribute most of it to my taking care of my terminally ill mother and father at the same time for 5 years. I loved both of them very much and I was their one and only.I'm surprised that I went down this path but I did and I can't erase the past. It has been 2&1/2 years since they have been gone and I believe I'm ready to end it but with the four other attempts I did not feel like this. I'm quite aware of the subsequent high one can feel from quitting, in other words, just another high. This not the case, rather my desire in gaining back some of the most important things I value have taken precedent. So, my greatest fear is the horrible and downright frightening depression I'm going to feel during the withdraw. The physical is uncomfortable but doable. I started yesterday and felt the typical physical WD symptoms but amazingly, my mental state was really euphoric! WTF??? Very similar to the feelings a creative person like myself would experience after a night of an Epic dream. Incredible! If you're wondering what an epic dream is, look it up...not made up. I have never felt this before and decided I should ask and just slowly taper off instead. Any feedback on this feeling and the safest yet quickest way to taper off?
Thank you and good luck to all of you.