TY, thank goodness

[ToManyToLate]

My daughter's home and the only time I can think straight, cause I know I have to keep it in 1 pile when she's around. TY all for your words of encouragement!!! I almost didn't come back because I felt guilty, but realized I didn't have anywhere to go. I guess I can kinda see where Dr is coming from. Everything I read said to taper with easier WD downgrade 20-25% every few days. He knows I have to be here for my girl and don't think he wants me cracking up. He also knows med condition and some days are unbearably painful. BUT just because I have them doesn't mean I have to take them. I could of taken more the past days, but didn't. He probably saw I was cracking up and I have been afraid to leave my home, crying all the time, not going outside or eating. That just tells me I have to get my head around it and get myself in check more than just when my daughters home. Then in 2 wks I can go back with bottle and show him I didn't lose it and have x amount left over. Nobody took me off this is what I want to do. With thàt, comes learning everything over and learning to change my behavior. Thank you all and sorry I snapped. Its been à tough 11 days. I've found emotions I forgot I had.

[NeverAgain127]

You don't need to apologize; you did nothing wrong.  This is hard work!  

Whatever you decide to do is up to you; we're here to support you.  I'm glad you're feeling better.  

[Shawnee1988]

I wrote you through private message pepper!