I am an alcoholic. I know the only way is to stop cold turkey. and not being able to do that really pisses me off. for that reason, I'm willing to go to rehab, something I previously refused unless being drunkenly picked up from homelessness by the people that love me. If I can't do it for myself, at the very least I can do it for them. my life is in the shithole and I'm hoping it will change.
wow.....nicely put.....thanks.
Nauty..............
ruth I have mentioned in my posts that quitting is the easy part of addiction.....I know to some its the W/Ds that are the hardest......but they last a week maybe two depending on how long you used and what your drug of choice and strength was.......
But after you stop using Ruth is when you enter recovery......even during W/Ds you will hear this little voice in your ear why go through all this? You can't do it you will get to sick.......F-it I'll do this another time I need some pills?
If you are successful and stop get through the W/Ds you might get into a fight with your girlfriend or your boy friend and get very upset that voice will say use you will feel better.......or a close family member may die of cancer or in a terrible car accident and the voice will say take some pills the pain won't be so bad......or you will get fired from your job and the voice will say screw that job take some pills then get another job...or your on probation and even though you know you may have to take a random drug test the voice will say F-it I'll use some kind of tea to hide the drugs in my system they won't know........
Cravings are a little voice Ruth that for the rest of an Addicts life will always remind the addict and try to seduce the addict to use again and even though your whole life was so screwed up and the diarrhea was horrible and the cold and hot sweats drove you crazy and the leg cramps had you tossing and turning or you were throwing up anything you tried to eat that little voice will seduce you to how beautiful it is to use your drug of choice and the insane thing is 80% of addicts who stop using will relapse.....
I hope I was able to answer your question so that you understood "cravings".......
Do you have a taper plan hun? You are going to need to schedule in order to do it properly, and you will have to adhere to it.
The idea behind tapering is that you stabilize your body with the w/d's, on the way down. You will have w/d's, but not all at once.
If you need a schedule, please ask. You can get one here. Also, like r2r said, you are best to have someone help you. It is tough to do on your own. Do you have someone who can hold and dispense the meds to you?
Craving for me is that my mind is constantly ( in that moment) thinking about a pill, and if i just had one i could accomplish so much, and that i would not go back to 15...It is not so much my body, just a thought that i cannot get out of my mind no matter what i do..
k, kind of like when i quit driniking...For some reason i found myself craving sweets, something that i never eat...Anything sweet...To the point i had to go to the store that minute and get something..i found it so odd..Then when i told my doctor he said that alcohol metabolies s/p? into sugar..And because my body was use to it, when i quit i was no longer getting the sugar, so my body craved it..I could eat 5 kit kats in one day, not counting donuts etc...
hope this helps..
i also do find that i am sick also, like sore throat, and sinus....But i know now the pills were masking everything, and i gues all that tylenol i was not feeling it , now i feel everything...
R2R
What are the cravings people talk about?? I get sick but dont know what people mean by cravings.Ruthie
I think that last statement is the best i have read today. Thank you for that. I know what I need to do now! With His help all things are possible. And don't feel guitly. You are not the only one who continues to fail. Stopping and staying stopped sems to be impossible for me.
Thanks for the info, my DOC is also Hydro's. I would like to lessen the w/d's and hopefully tapering is the way to go, I'll pray this will be the time I can do it. Who know's I'll put it in God's hands.
if you can taper, or have someone help you the w/d's are much less...i tried to go c/t at about 15 10 mg a day...i crashed on day 3..it was terrrible..i literaly thought i was going to die..
Then when i went c/t from 5 it was a lot easier...NOT great, but not bad on day 3 like what i felt from stopping at 15...
now i dont' think tapering has anything to do with the cravings...At least not for me...i think i would have craved at no matter what amount i stopped at..
so that is why i feel everyone needs a plan after, because staying clean is by far the hardest part...And there i was so worried about w/d's only to now see that was the easy part..
Good luck
R2R
my doc was hydro's