God at 19 days that would be hard for anyone and I agree with you he is a xick
but temptation is everywhere and if we want to score each of us know where or how the key here is to get rid of the desire only threw aftercare can that be accomplished as often as not we tend to detox and do nothing we are no moe the dry alcoholics just with pills you must treat the disease and thats aftercare booth N/A and A/A are free and everywhere just google them but you got to get dow to the root of wht drive you to want to use in the first place .....strong will will only get you so fare it is treatment weather it be a counselor therapist that specialize in addiction or n/a or a/a for free with the 12 step program
you will loose the desire to use its worked for me for 6yr7mo on weed alcohol and eveything recreational and 2yr 2mo on methadone I used na at first then a substance abuse counselor take the time to treat it your right there where its time to treat itI wish you the best of luck in your recovery God bless......Gnarly
~The intellect has little to do on the road to discovery,,There comes a leap in consciousness, call it intuition or what you will,,and the solution comes to you and you dont know how or why.~Bkitty
You did it!! ;)
Thats jacked a$$ed up! Tread carefully my friend,,landmines and boobie traps are among us as we head in to clear waters. Ive dodged a few myself. We got each others back in this! Ill be here and try and let ya know whats ahead,,so far sunny skies ;)
Mind f*ck is the perfect word for it too. My head thought 100 different thoughts all at once, just total overload of good and bad all at the same time. All those things you said Bkitty and more at once. It was all I could do to just get it down to a simple 7 words that felt good yet SO serious. Those little slogans always saved my xss in years past when I worked my program so well. I HAVE to remember that, silly xss slogans worked every time. It kills me that they are so dumb yet SO real and LIFE saving. I'm ok about it now I just needed to share it with someone before I bursted inside. That's how he makes his money, no job just his pills to peddle, we all have bills. But My God...how jacked up was that?
Thats a total mind f*ck !! But boy did you handle it. Always always keep that guard up,,,and you did just that my friend. Well done. Remeber,,one day at a time. Think of all the things about the drugs that you DONT miss,,,the money,,where ya gonna get your next fix,,the lying,,feeling like a piece of dung,,etc. Think about what you have. Your beautiful daughters a good buisness,,you get it. Im not too far ahead,,everyday gets better,,the fog slowly lifts,,I promise. Hang in there.
Congrats mate u did the right thing I'm 7 days clean today still got a long way to go but I'm doing it like u told everyone don't call me I don't wanna know and they ain't but they not real mates anyway pat on the back your inner strength shone thru ya kickin arse mate keep up the wicked work mwah from oz
I'm sure that was a very difficult situation but friend: YOU ROCK!!