Thank you for ur help......

[rooney83]

Thank u for basically telling me what i already knew but was hoping someone would say otherwise. As far as who told me 2 take oxycodone cuz im hurting and everything going on.... Honestly if i had them i'd probably would've already taken it, sadly. but my dr dropped me after missing an appt and thats how i ended up in detox cuz i couldnt stand it on my own. but i have realized im not in as nearly as much pain in my kidney in my back as i used to feel being on all those meds, its like they were suppose to help but made the pain seem 1,000 times worse. I used to feel safe at the hospital, almost like a baby's blanky but now it horrifies me cuz i kno there gonna ask if im in pain and cuz of my history, i'd have a morphine I.V. within an hour or 2 and i know i'm not at a point where i could say no,yet!

[Calamity2]

Goodmorning !  It's a beautiful day to be sober !  I know what you're saying about the pain level being less OFF the pain meds. I have real pain also and I am in less pain today than I was on 100 mgs of oxy or vics or whatever narc painkiller I could get. Thank God I dont have to live in the opiate haze I lived in for 8 years !!  I have a hard time sleeping sometimes too. Last night I didnt though because I'm 57 and I took a hike up rattlesnake mountain yesterday. I thought I saw a griz and came quite a distance back down before I realized it was a boulder shadow lol

[vicki595]

Hey~ Are you getting any after care/recovery care? Like AA/NA?  Any support at home?
I think you're doing great so far but not out of the woods...glad your pain has lessened,though. We often notice that our pain decreases after being off the pills. I know,for me,my horrible headaches were actually being caused by the drug I took!!  It was a rebound effect that I kept chasing to fix and just couldn't.  When I finally stopped the pills the headaches stopped.  :)
Vicki

[rooney83]

I also have a huge issue with sleeping, bad night or good... i can be up for 2 days or more with 2-3hrs of sleep if any. I have pretty bad P.T.S.D from a 7yr long severely abusive relationship, so sleepin with tv off and stuff isnt really an option. im on effexor xr 150mg every morning for months now but i see no difference.