I just wanted to say thank you to all who responded to all my craziness. I can't believe this he'll i am going through. I was curious if it's normal even at 90 days clean to have emotions all over the place. The reason i am asking is because now I have convinced myself i am bipolar. I never had any of the symptoms before and no one has ever told me I was. I guess I,am trying to,attach something to all of this. I mean when all this first started I had horrible headaches and have had them for 3 months, and it really seemed to,happen overnight while i was still taking the pills. i still suffer insomina really bad and have to take an otc sleep aid. With the sudden anxiety and other issues, that's why I thought i got menigitis. I,jump everyday from thinking I had that to bring scared I am,bipolar. I,don't have those maniac episodes. I guess i am just trying to,attach anything to this. Other people that know me say I,am not. God please take the running thoughts out of,mybhead. I wish i,had not abusing when all this happend, then at least I could have ruled out the lope. I know some people think it doesn't cross the blood brain barrier, but when you take 20 or more a day, it has to do,something. I have a shrink appointment, but the earliest I can get in is not til mid December. I am on a cancellation list. Sorry to always take up space, I know this isn't the right forum for this, but I am,so,scarred will never be the same. I miss the old me, and it's like it switches overnight. That is what bothers me.