The High

I'm thinking I can get off the pain meds and handle my pain thru natural methods..but to get there I still have to be off everything..But as someone here noted..I like the high..or should say liked because they never do that anymore..just help me feel normal.. I like the relaxation they give me..even though the High's been long gone. I suffer from severe depression and high anxiety..and have been treated for both of those for 20 years..

The physical cravings won't bother me..it the psychological ones that are going to get me..You see, even if I don't get that high euphoric feeling any mnre..they still relax me..I have 5 kids and all the bickering and screaming and fighting every morning sends me thru the roof. The pills just make me feel OK, and that I can cope.(Don't get me wrong, I'm on these for a serious back injury after being hit by a drunk driver, but I would like to know where my pain level is truly at and go from there. I don't want to have the pills ruling my life..plus I was a competitive athlete and I can't do that anymore if I'm on pain meds..That's why I want off..So I can get back to what I love doing and not have the drugs interfering).

Is it better to just jump CT or to taper? I've been tapering, but all that does is make me clock watch and it's hard. But I'm so afraid of falling into a depression.

Truly...How long did it take for those who did taper to feel  OK again...not even normal...but just OK..

And does anyone ever feel uneasy in their own skinl while awake trying to get thru your day? I sure do!

Are the meds making my depression worse? They feel like they make it better..but I could be wrong. Thank you ahead of time.

I really need help..And support

[justsaynotodrugs]

    The meds kill the pain of depression, until they wear off then it gets worse you have be come addicted to these meds and when this happens its very hard to quit its just a easy way out of all the pain of life.  You can get some more advice from other post it will help and you might want to see your Dr and explain whats going on he or she may be able to help there is substance meetings and counselors that can help also.   5 kids will send most people through the roof.   We got 2 and thats plenty.  Try praying it can help.

[Innerstrength67]

Hi there, you can get off the pain meds. I too liked the high but would have to take more and more. Pills only make everything worse even though we "think" they make our life more manageable. That is the addict mind rationalizing using.
5 kids is a lot but your kids deserve to have a clean mom. Your justifying your using by saying it gives you energy and motivation. Believe me, I did it for 2 years.
Personally I think the pills make our depression worse.
There us no wast way around this my friend but I swear to you, if I could do this and everyone else here can than you can too!