The sub doc

[ferretsrule]

Happy new year everyone.

I go to the sub doc on wend Jan 3rd and am going to meet with the counselor Jan 2nd.

I have been taking percs for two years 12 to 20 10mg everyday,and I am still using.(This is only until i see the doc cause I know that I cant detox alone.)
Most of the percs have been bought on the street only a few scripts have been from the doc.So if the the sub doc asks for proof of me being addicted to opiates what do I do or say?

I am tired of the this addiction and shelling out the money I do only to watch that person buy nice things and pay his bills of me. What im affraid of is the sub doc is going to turn me down and I well be left to deal with this alone.

I went to my private doc tweo weeks ago and told him of the addiction and he told me thier was no such thing as addiction and the next time I had the urge to take a perc I need to tell the Devil no. Then he gave me a script for tramadol with 2 refills. So this guy was no help.
When I heard of the sub I called a doc and said to myself that thier was hope and was very happy to know that my days of the monster was up.
Now as I sit and wait until the 3rd Im starting to feel depressed and feel once again that their is know hope.

Is this the addiction that is playing with my mind?

Thanks to all who take the time to read this and give feedback.

[matine]

Yes F. Fear is playing on your mind. You need  to  be in a state of detox before you take a Sub. A good 10 to 14 hours since you last pill, and 24 hours would not hurt. So the Doc. will see right away you are going through withdrawels. Don't worry, be happy, take a pill for now.