Third time lucky?

This is really a question, more an introduction and a release.
I have been taking N+ (and its cheaper equivalents) for longer than I can remember, probably about six years.
I have had a couple of attempts at going CT, each time getting to about the 2 month mark before relapsing.
I realise that I had already passed the toughest part of withdrawl (withdrawal) and stupidly thought I could just have a night or two on the pills without any consequences.
That last time was just over six months ago.
I have just recently been caught out by a number of pharmacists which shocked me into the realisation that this just can’t keep going on.
It is not so much that I enjoy the effects of codeine (I mean I do like it) but it is more the fear of going through withdrawls has kept me on the dreaded chemist-merry-go-round.
I feel sort of ready to tackle it for what will be the last time, I have my Imodium (immodium), paracetamol, Valerian and a few books that I am looking forward to reading (as opposed to  reading one page and then falling into a drug induced sleep).
Any way, I know I can get through the initial stages, I just have to be aware that I will always be a codeine addict.

[SLadylani]

It sounds like you already know a lot about yourself and your addiction :). My name is Sara, and I'm a recovering drug addict, for over 4 years now. For me, Narcotics Anonymous worked, but everyone is different. I remember thinking your same thoughts. I've be clean for a while, one drink won't do any harm. Today I get that one is too many, and a thouosand never enough. When I first came to NA and looked at everyone else. I was younger and therefore different. I just had to stay away from meth, but I could still drink and shoot up heroine. That obviously didn't work out as I found a drug is a drug is a drug-I have to stay away from all mind/mood altering substances. I remember once too I thought I would quit everything at once, cold turkey, that included sex/boyfriend, heroine/alcohol, cigarettes, caffeine, and give up my eating disorder and enroll in college at the same. Oh, and without support. That turned out to be a mess. What I do know is I could have never done this without other recovering addict's help, isolation was my downfall. It'
s great that you recognize this much about your addiction this early. I can tell you, I've been through withdrawls off of many things. For me I just had to knuckle down and get it over with, it only lasted a few days. If you've gotten the hard detox over with and have been on a six month run, hopefully this one won't be so bad. I wish you the best of luck, and keep us posted!

Sara RN

[lovekill661]

Try suboxone its amazing it really is

[bmdad]

Hopefully you realized the getting through the first few weeks of withdrawals is not the toughest part. It is actually the easy part. Many on here say it time and time again, "getting clean is the easy part, it's the staying clean that is hard". Like mentioned above you can't go at this alone. You have to get into some form of aftercare. Our way doesn't work. You can't just get through the physical withdrawals and think you are in the clear. The more we work our recovery the higher our chances are of not relapsing. Have you considered attending NA meetings or seeing an addiction therapist or both?