This forum may have saved my life

I, like so many people here, struggle with this addiction also.  Started out as fun, getting some Lortabs here and there from a client of mine who sells thems for a living, but I got tired of paying 100 dollars for 20 lousy tabs and decided I needed my own prescription.  Mistake. So I have been doing that about 5 months now, I get 120 lortab 10 a month.  I usually take 2 tabs broken in half each day just to keep withdrawals away (5mg q4hrs) but thats just so I can hoard for days I really want to clean house, party down, take the kids to the amuesment park, whatever takes extra energy.  But I started noticing the 5mg are starting to leave me edgy and even when I take two 10's for special effect there hardly is any.  Last month my doc said: "You have been on these a while are they still working?"  So... I was thinking this month I would tell him I would like to switch to percocet.  After reading this forum I believe that would probably be the biggest mistake of my life.  Percocet is the "Oxy" everyone here is talking about isn's it?  I know it isnt oxycontin, that is the pure drug with no ASA or APAP in it that is time released.  But percocet is oxycodone and that is the same form of the opiate that is in oxycontin.   I know now that making that switch would be the expressway to hell.  I read so many posts yesterday my head was swimming, my heart was pounding.  I dont want to be sick like that!!   So this is it.  This is where I draw the line in the sand.  Lortab was great...lortab isnt great anymore.  Percocet would start out great...then it would not be great anymore...   I havent taken a 5 since I read the posts yesterday and I am waiting for the withdrawals.   I dont know what I am gonna do about anything else...I just wanted to thank you guys for opening that door and shining a big flash light on that monster in the closet.  Right now I have a baby monster in there, but I think I can put that baby to bed....Switching to percs would turn that baby into a teenager that will grow into a full grown adult monster that may very well destroy me.

[PipPip1234]

Hey there, great that you are going to quit, Im guessing you will feel pretty anxious but once the rough time has passed, you will feel so much clearer. Drugs are rubbish, I really mean that, who wants a sad life slumped in some timewarp? Try to stay positive & just think of the day you wake up after a good night sleep & no you no longer have withdrawals because all the crap is rinsed from your body & you can feel like "you" again, whatever that may be, all your quirky traits that get lost in the drugs, I really know you can do this & wish you all the best!

[Dav125]

Your a lucky person being you found out the truth about these meds "before" they had deeply ingrained themselves..Most who come to this site are doing so to find out why it is they have been having headaches, lack of energy, foul moods all the time only to find out it is because of all the information "that wasn't" included with the warnings (other than these drugs "might" cause a problem)..By the time most get here, the drug has already ingrained itself into a person's system to the point that "H*ll Week" is waiting for them as soon as they stop using the pills.

If your down to two 10 lortabs a day, then get that down to one and then jump ship. It would be one of the wisest and most important decisions you ever make for yourself...It sounds like your already partially in the throngs of the wd's but nothing like what could be waiting for you should you have gone up the ladder as one's tolerance rose. Go cold turkey from precocets or oxycontin one time and all that goes thru one's head is "my god, how did this happen?".

When I first started taking pain meds, never in my life did I imagine that I would have a problem getting away from them or even have the slightest clue as to what type of wd's were waiting for me..

Surprise ,surprise was definitely what I was introduced to..And its a mess...

The last thing you want to do is go to stronger meds..Don't allow your mind to fool you as believe me, its working overtime trying to find that justification by minimizing the consequences by plugging in that thought of "it will be ok" or "I'll deal with it later"..You've got a chance to get away now..I'd go for it. Save yourself from the torture that awaits you..

[throwindatowl]

haha. A baby monster! Dont get another script. You are so right about everything. Yes percocet is taking a step in the WRONG direction. Building a tolerance is a huge problem. Once you take pain killers your body gets used to them. Even if you quit and start again it doesnt take long to build a tolerance. We think oh no biggie one maybe two pills keep me going all day. That dont last long though. Think about it. Youve been taking 120 pills every month. Thats alot of pills. Think about your stomach and liver. You drew the line in the sand. I had to do the same thing. I can do whatever I want. Just no opiate based pills. If you take um for two days you wd all over again. They are just bad news all the way around. Good job for doing the right thing. Please dont go get the percocets...