To Flush or Not to Flush

Okay .. on day 10 of no Oxycontin ... I know that I will NEVER go back on that drug again as I never want to experience these feelings again.   So, why cant I get myself to flush my Oxy supply down the toilet?

[FLaddict]

Well you know we are all gonna say to flush... can you have someone do it for ya??? If you can't bring yourself to.. I know its hard to do... but you can do it.. and the feeling afterward will be rewarding..

[liscamdave]

Please honey, go ahead and flush em. I am on day 67, beating a three year 1000mg a day, Oxy COntin habit. It was torture and swore I would never take them ever again. I stumbled across one and flushed it immediately, after about three weeks into my quitting. About one month ago, I was feeling back to normal. Had no w/d at all, had energy, was happy. And seemingly forgot about my previous nightmare that lasted almost 1 month...so I called my dealer thinking I was no longer addicted and that I could take a quarter of an 80. After being addicted to about 12-14 80's a day, I knew my tolerance had dropped significantly. Well, I called him and got the 80 and cut it into 4 peices,and took a quarter. I was in deed correct about my tolerance, but also could feel the demon that had been lying dormant, start to be reborn. I knew I had to flush the rest, and I did. So, my point, is this....if you keep them within reach, after you are clean and w/d is just a memory...you will feel normal and the desire will be present....no matter what....Good Luck and I hope all is well with you...

xoxo, Lisa

[oxydog]

Thank you so much for your support.  I flushed them away this afternoon.  I think having them around and not taking them was making me feel that I am strong and can beat this thing but just the last few days I have been thinking that maybe taking a 1/4 of one might make me feel better now that I am over the real bad w/d and just dealing with feeling like **** in the afternoons and evenings.  So I guess I would probably have broken down at some point, thinking I was over it and could take a small amount (right!!!).  I'm glad they're gone.

Thanks again Lisa - it is great to know that at some point your energy and happiness did return.  Stay clean and enjoy life -- it really is a gift.

Lori

[wickedwanderer]

congrats on getting rid of them!!! it's very hard...and you made it past that part!!

[marcatj]

...good for you!!!  congrats on your strength to do that.  not easy... i hope you feel good about it - about yourself - for doing it!!

:-)
mj

[beachtowel]

would you leave a good friend.........

would you flush something that makes you feel so good........

If you keep them you will take them..........