Today is Day 6 of Being off Oxy/Perc and I feel great

[wantmylifeback335]

********So the following is a copy and paste of my first post which I believe I posted on Wednesday April 2nd, 2007..With my update at the bottom.*************************************************

2 Oxy free and I feel Great!
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, Apr 02, 2008 07:54PM
Tags: oxys, oxy, pain, years
Hi,

I have been trolling various opiate forums for months now, trying to get up the nerve to quit.

I started back in May of 2005 with Vics/Norco 10mg. I would buy 50 at a clip and maybe take 3 a day, just to get high and get that confident feeling that is necessary in my profession. I'd say 50% of my office was on some drug on a daily basis.

Well 3 a day became 5 a day and here I am almost 3 years later I have 2 docs writing me scripts for 90 10/325 percs and 90 10mg Oxy. If I am lucky both scripts will last me about 10 days and then I am back on the phone trying to score more meds...usually Oxy 80 or Roxy 30..Usually would take 3 80's a day or 8 30's a day.

So I have noticed that my relationship with my wife has been falling apart (she does not know of my addiction) and they no longer served their original purpose ( help me gain confidence at work and to get high) they have actually had the opposite effect on me and I have been lazy at work and spending most of my week worrying about not running out of meds. I came to the realization the other day that I have had enough I am done with these pills, I am sick and tired of these pills ruining my life. I have been spending on average $2500 a month on these things sometimes more..

A friend of mine has been clean now for about two months and has been taking Suboxone 3xdaily 8mg. And he said it has been an absolute life saver. Now he was taking 40 80mg Oxy's per day (No lie I have seen it he is lucky to still be alive) so I figure if he can do it then I definetly can.

So March 31st 2008 at 7pm I took my last 40mg Oxy. The next morning my friend gave me 10 8mg Suboxone and told me to take one in the morning and one at night.  So yesterday was my first day with no oxy and I felt better then ever I seriously felt like a million bucks. Today is day two and I have had a great day as well (taking 2 8mg Suboxone/day 1 when I wake up and another around 9pm) I have experienced slight back pain and body aches but nothing substantial.

Also yesterday because I had expected to experience fatigue and lack of motivation I took 1 10mg adderrall just to give me some energy and I did the same today. To go to sleep I have just been taking Melatonin (which I normally take I have had sleeping issues my whole life).


I really think that this time once and for all I am going to be clean and stay clean for the rest of my life. Amazingly 2 days opiate free I feel absolutly great. I am looking forward to rebuilding my relationship with my wife (one day I plan on telling he about my "former" addiction but for now I want to kick this on my own) .

I know that alot of people will say that family and friends should know of your addictions and it will greatly help the recovery process but I have all the help I need from my buddy who is staying clean himself. We work together and know each other all too well and are 110% determined not to let each other fall off the wagon.

BTW: Tomorrow I have a "doctor" appointment for my percocet refill and I already have it set up so someone else will be trading me a months supply of Subs for my percs.

Wish me luck...I am planning on taking the Subs for 4 weeks 2x daily and then one month of tapering down from 16mg daily to 12mg to 8mg to 4mg to 4mg every two days and so on...till I hit 0 I have it all written out the exact doses etc.

Normally I am a very regimented person and when I put my mind to something I always follow through. While I have tried in the past to quit Oxy's I have never REALLY tried. I would stop for a couple of days and take subs or I would stop for a week if I had no $ etc. But this time I am stopping for me and most importantly for my wife (although she doesn't know it)

At any rate I am still at my office and I am going to go home and give my wife a kiss (something I haven't done in about 2 weeks because the oxy's had me completely dis-interested in everything but the meds.)

Thanks for listening to my ramblings. And I will be in touch with my progress.

God Bless and Stay Strong.  

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So today is day 6.

This week has been great!! I am dead set on never taking another Perc or OXY again in my life.

I have been taking Suboxone all week to help witht he withdrawals etc. And I have had such an amazing week. I have been super productive, in a great mood, energetic (maybe the adderall helped with that I took 10mg 1x daily tuesday thru friday) and best of all...the time that I have been spending with my wife has been great!!. We actually get along again.

I can't really describe it but I'll try....when I was popping pills for 3 years I felt our relationship fallig apart. Now I attributed it to my work, and that we were just growing apart. I often found myself spending an entire day with her, and I would try so hard just to think of things to say or talk about...but it never worked...And when I really think about it...I think deep down in side I was so angry with myself about my drug use...Because my wife is a perfect angel no drugs, alcohol, smokes etc NOTHING!! And since the pills had become such a huge part of my life that I had to hide from her...I felt as if I had 2 lives and when I was with her in the straight life...I couldn't wait till she would go to bed so I could go out and be ME the pill popping junkie who doesn't have to hide his pills or do things he doesn't want to..

I dunno if this made any sense..I am just typing away...

But the bottom line is...today is day 6 without abusing pain meds and I feel as if I have my life back. I feel like I did 4 years ago (prior to my addiction) I look forward to waking up and spending the day with my wife.

I am slowly getting my life back and I feel as if my marriage is stronger than it has ever been...(I started abusing pain meds 9 mos. before my wedding....(so even before I got married my relationship with her was falling apart because of my drugs).

Anyway I am going to take a shower...my wife and I are going to take our pup to the dog run....been a lazy day for the two of us so far we just stayed in bed and enjoyed each others company...


Thanks for listening...Stay strong and have a great day.

[Army220]

Congrats and keep moving forward.  You are doing great!!!!!!

Army

[wantmylifeback335]

I am taking 16mg Sub. (8mg in the morning and 8mg around 7pm)

As far as the adderall is concerned I have had Add my whole life I was a ritalin kid...I have only been taking small amounts of adderall monday through friday to help me focus at work. I have only been taking 10mg Adderall in the morning right after my Sub and thats it. I am prescribed 20mg 4x daily.

[Shotrock]

How much Sub? ( 16mg ) And Adderall?

[confused456]

Congrats to you!!

[wantmylifeback335]

Thanks!!!! I feel great...
I hope everyone has a great day... and TrayCee I hope you feel better.

[TrayCee]

Youre a ROCK STAR! Keep up the good work!