I am glad this information was so helpful to you...and i sincerely appreciate the kind words....thank you, you just made MY day....XXOO
I posted that original thread question, although I am glad not to be technically an addict, I still don't like the "dependance". This is how I got "dependant" and what led up to pain management.
I have a very physically demanding job (wildland firefighter) and I had to take the pills to make it from my bed to work and back again. I spaced them out so that I would get the most relief in the afternoon when everything started to seize up. I was constantly afraid that my boss would search my company truck, but I had to work. I was out trying to help a woman fix a fence and I felt a shock from my waist to my hamstring. I jumped and asked the lady if the fence was turned on, she said it wasn't an electric fence...I looked down and pulled on the fence again and POW! I got back in my truck, drove straight home and took my meds...they couldn't touch the nerve pain. That is when my doc switched me to "Combunox" or oxy+ibuprofen. NUTS. I then said, I can't do it anymore, I have to get this problem fixed. He did the calling for me and found the surgeon. She fixed the problem, but her staff are dumber than a box of hammers. I didn't like being dependant on the pills to live through the pain. I didn't like the feeling of "missing them" when I started to taper. In other words, I feel your pain (no pun intended).
And I most hated calling in to the pharmacy to ask if a script was called in. That was humiliating. I would be trying to stretch the script past the due date and had to just take the full amount prescribed. I finally figured out that I had to "stay on top" of the pain to keep it managable, not try to play catch up. My doc closes shop on Friday (small town); but kept me "comfortable".
I really feel like I am in the short rows now. The nerves have been released in my back and although I am still on a cane, I can at least sit now. Being reassured by my doc that the Ultram wasn't the Grim Reaper and I wasn't psycho or physically addicted, helped ease my conscious. But I have to remember that the threshhold between the two can be crossed if I don't take the meds just for pain.
Since you are in chronic pain, see a doc and have it evaluated. It may be an indication of a serious illness. There may be a better med out there for you and you wouldn't need the hydros. If you are truely dependent it wouldn't be hard to switch. I mixed and matched tons of times.
For me Lyrica was the worst drug I have ever experienced. I actually had a one in a blue moon side effect...hallucinations. I thought it was an acid trip. Bizarre. Neurotin caused me to gain 25 pounds in 6 weeks. The TENS unit was a real b98078th. I hated it, I hate electricity. I grew up on a farm and hate electric fences. When one doc, not my PCP, told me to try it; I did and it got quickly sent back to the place from whence it came!
I hope this story has helped someone. I know it is far from unique. I just wanted to express that although I am "dependant" and soon hope to be out of pain and off even teh Ultram, it is not a cool place to be. My doc said staying with the low dose of Ultram for up to 3 months wouldn't really be a problem, it isn't even a controled substance...only as prescribed though. So I still have to watch myself and not take anymore than the bottle says on the bad days.
i've been trying to quit for about 5 years. i would kill to get by on even 5 5's a day. my mom would be so proud. i take on average about 8 10's a day. i would say it's more of an embryo than anything else. if you can break a 5 in half than please, i beg you, never ever take one again.