Total waste of time and energy!!!

Hi everybody. I just wanted to tell everybody how my hospital visit went. So, I go into the er sunday nite, after talking to my therapist and my psych's assistant, and tell them whats going on. First I talk to the security guard, the the registering nurse, that all went good. Then the licensed practical social worker comes in, and it was over. I tell her about my break up that messed up my head so bad and that ever since i been taking lots of different drugs to feel better, and I been trying to quit for 3 days and all the while my emotional state is plunging. Im crying Im desperate, scared Im gonna od, and all I want is a little help. She tells me that its no reason to keep me, I need rehab. I tell her I called around and no one has beds, and that Im ok for a couple days then I go crazy and take anything I can get my hands on. Shes got this attitude and sarcasm thats just pi$$ing me off completely. I tell her I want to speak to my psych. She says she called him and he doesnt think I need to stay either. So I tell her I do, and if she doesnt keep me, she'll see me in an hour to pump my stomach. She says, well, thats not gonna get you admitted either.
So I go home, take like 12 zanex, muscle relaxers and pain pills, and go back to the er.She's pi$$ed. She doesnt believe me. They waited like an hour before giving me the charcoal. Then the doctor tells me that my psych had already called her earlier in the evening and to expect me. So then they admit me.
The next morning, I see my doc. He says that he agrees I need rehab, but he will keep me and detox me and get me on some meds, it should take 3 or 4 days, but I have to go to groups and participate. I was ok with that. I ask about caffeine. He says I can have it. So he put me on clonodin and ultram and something for my stomach. Im feeling a little better, but still like ****, achy, diarreah (diarrhea), cramps, headache, hotflashes, you know. But I go to groups and make the best of a bad situation, oh and on 4 hours sleep. So I was glad to get caffeine, but the coffee gave more stomach aches. After askng about 20 times, one of the night nurses  went to get me a pepsi. So Im thinking, ok I can do this. I'll talk to the doc in the morning about getting me a pop or something.
So here comes the doc, I tell him how Im feeling, I tell him about the coffee. He says he'll see what he can do. I go to lay down (fighting a caffeine headache) and its time for group. I tell them Im not coming out til I get some caffeine. So my doc comes in and tells me that if I dont go to group I have to leave. I tell him I shouldnt have to detox from caffeine, I already feel sh!tty enough. He says its my choice. So I told him to discharge me then. He left and the nurse wrote up the papers. Then I remembered the clonidin and asked her to call him because I really wanted to do this, even if I had to at home. This doc refused to give me anything. So now Im back to the same ol sh!t.

[newmanagment]

readin your post makes me wanna snap!! for real, they did the same thing to me, no soda?!?! wtf?! i drink 8 pepsi a day, and i know the caffiene headache thing. they suk. i hope ya find the strength to do it on your own, i know how bad ya want this. keep ya chin up, and good luck!

[coconuts27]

Yeah, Im going to see him tomorrow, and Im gonna snap. He'll wish I was on meds by the time I leave his office.

[newmanagment]

so your personal doctor was at the hospital? or is it a rehab, im unclear... but if your personal doctor treated you like that, then do like any good employer,and fire his a$$!! plenty of doctors out there, i think the only thing we have more of is lawyers... let me know, im curious now?

[Mikeinthesouth]

Sorry to hear you had such a rough go and left there. It is not over until it is over though.

[confused456]

Wow, that really sucks. The Dr.'s can pass out pain pills like candy but don't want to help someone who wants to get off the $hit....I hate that ****!!!

[worried878]

Well........be sure you think about what u r gonna say clearly before you go talk to him....sleep on it....you need to be prepared to talk to him in a way that will benefit you the most and help you the most with detox...u know him...do angry tactics work with him?  My pain mgt doc would tell me off and out into the parking lot i would go...without what i needed...the doctors have the control in this situation....think about the best way to approach it...perhaps this way works with him...every doc is different...most think they sit on a very high pedestal in relation to the rest of the world...but not all

[coconuts27]

It was my personal psych that did me like that. I wish I could go someplace else. This is the same doc that wanted me on methedone. He got me into rehab but not until May 22. Theres only one other place in town that will take my insurance, and they wont see me til Im clean.

[Mikeinthesouth]

OOOOHHHH I hate arrogence.

[Shotrock]

Please Stop! Read your own post , you need help, take it... if it means no coffee oh Well! Read your post, your scaring me Dude!....

[coconuts27]

Yeah, youre right, I really do need to think about what Im going to say. Because I will SNAP on his a$$. I am just so mad at him. Maybe I'll write a letter.

[worried878]

I agree with shotrock....gotta do what u gotta do to get clean...think about it and what you want to say tomorrow...it is important to your recovery

[coconuts27]

The first day, nobody came to groups, but two other patients. They didnt get kicked out! I asked a nurse if group was mandatory and she said it was highly encouraged. He was just being a D!@K! It was onr group, and in the morning. I was already suffering enough, no drugs and no cigarettes. Caffene was just a little too much to give up.

[NautyOne]

Holy Cow !!!   Un-freakin-believable..........

[coconuts27]

I almost feel like f@&k it. I only take two pills a day, if he's not going to help me, maybe its not time for me to quit. I'll do my best with the coke, but Im not gonna go thru that s&%t for 2 a day.

[usarmymedic1]

just a quick comment it was wrong what they did to you you should hae been able to drink caffine..

now If you go in to that office tomorrow with an aditude you are not going to get anywere with that Dr. you need to be the responsible on and show some tact. not saying don't tell him what you think but do it tactfully it is going to be much better for you and he will  be more inclined to listen. It sucks thatyou have to bit your tounge but you are asking for him to help you so be tactfull be thankfull for any help he gives even if it is a little bit.

Trust me you are not going to get anywere with him yelling and screaming. IF you want an example I can give you many since I was the patient rep. for all the clinics I have worked in I have had patients yell and scream at me and it makes my ears close and pisses me off beouse I am there trying to help them with there problem with my clinic. Once they start yelling and or curseing I excort them out of the clinic and say you can go to the hospital patient rep and leave them. So think about what you want to say even try and practice it. so he will hear you and not just let go into one ear and out the other.

If that does not work there is a thing call Patients bill of right you are intitlled to proper care so go see the patient rep at the hospital and complain there. that is your best acttion to take. If that does not work look up the Joint Commision complaint line and make a complaint there and that will get the set a little hot for them

medic

[newmanagment]

while shotrock puts out good advice, i feel the same way as you. lets kill one evil at a time! to take the nicotine, and caffiene , and pills away all at once will really make ya rethink stayin in NE rehab.  alot of doctors like holdin the cards, and makin ya put them up on  a pedestal to make them feel superior. your doc sounds like one of those!! im not saying you dont need rehab, but im sayin that i dont blame ya for gettin discharged.. and yeah, if it was me i would have to write a letter to read, else i mite put a brick thru his bmw's windshield on the way out the door....

[coconuts27]

Yeah, I think Im gonna write a letter while Im calm. Cuz once I get in there I already know what Im gonna wanna say.

[worried878]

Yes...write down the best approach and take it with you....you can say....I need your help...let me know what i need to do...my goal is to be clean, I am ready and i need your help right now...corny i guess

[mr.lucky66]

I've been in that situation before and you probably should have tried to stay. It sux but maybe better than using pills and street drugs. You have to just want to do it with no resrvations or conditions. How bad to you want to quit or is using just a drag.? I was in and out of detoxes for without much luckyears  but sometimes they work. You have to really be ready. all the best

[Shotrock]

Reality (yours) you took 12 xanax, muscle relaxers and pain pills, to prove your point ? No. To kill yourself?  Maybe. If your being honest with us, then you need Help.. Please get Help Now!!   I'm here for ya..... But you need to help yourself...

[coconuts27]

I really took all those pills to prove my point. They wouldnt admit me and I knew I needed help. I wasnt feeling suicidal, just hopeless and scared. I had been trying to quit for 3 days and wasnt getting anywhere but more and more depressed. I was crying all the time and couldnt even be around my kids. I worry about overdosing because I have the tendancy to take lots of different kinds of pills one after another when I get really down. My drug use wasnt really that bad until recently, and its come on so quick, like the last two months. I use this sh!t because their antidepressants take so long to work and I just want releif. I been keeping all my therapy appts and thought I was taking a big step by asking for help. I didnt think he'd give up on me so quick. I wrote a letter to him, Im gonna try to reason with him. There are no beds in rehab til May. I dont have any options and I dont feel like I can do it on my own, especially with depression worsening.

[worried878]

hopefull your doc will help after u plead your case and can help u until the rehab bed becomes available,,,an anti-dpressen my help tremendoulsy...2 lorabs a day is doable to quit...but if you feel u need help then get all u can...ask for the clonidene and a few valium to help...ask him to give u some b-12 injections...i give them to myself at home...get prepared,,hunker down and post..u will make  it

[coconuts27]

Yeah, hopefully. I wrote and rewrote the letter for tomorrow. Hopefully I dont go off on him because Im pretty emotional right now and really mad at him. I will ask him though because I really want to be free from this. We'll see.