1st Posting:
Dear All,
it's the first time for me here, I am 30y, I am addicted to Tramadol, in my country it called Ultradol 150 mg, I started with Tramadol since almost 4y now, of course I started with 100 mg a day till I reached 1400 mg last week!, I know it sounds crazy, but like everybody said, I used it to be in a good mood all the day and to increase my productivity at work "I.T service"., by time the dose started to increase, I found a new product 100 mg in the market, I told myself it's nice to take 3 tablets a day instead of 6 X 50 mg, after six month, I found my self back to 6 pills again instead of 3 but with 100 mg!!.
again, I repeated this with 150 mg, till I reached 1200:1400 mg a day!!, 8 months ago, I had an "epilepsy shock", I was in my office then suddenly I wake up in bed with Doctor and colleagues around, I don't know what happened, the doctor asked me if I had any medicals? I lied on him coz he's the company doctor, I was afraid that I will be fired if they know about that addiction.
Anyway, I didn't stop, and it happened again for two times in different places and when I use that High dose.
50 days ago, I decided to stop it totally, I managed to have a week vacation, I told my wife about everything, she was so helpful, it was like a hell week, 1st three days I was on the bed, trying to sleep and eat only, the fourth day was better and so on.
I went back to work, and I found 4 pills in my drawer, and I had a fight with myself till midday when I could resist it anymore and I took it !, it was awful feeling, after I stopped it for 6 days, I back again!!
anyway, last Thursday, I only took 450 mg around 1 PM, and I decided to stop "AGAIN", today is Sunday, it's three days now without a mg of Tramadol, I am tired of course, but I will tell you all why I stopped; I had a very bad dream about my son, I've seen myself in My funeral, I've seen my all my friends, parents and wife crying for me.
Anyway, Now I am writing you on my third day without Tramadol, I need some help from you all to answer some questions bearing in mind two things:
1- I cannot take any vacations.
2- I will not back after I already passed the 1st 2 days.
From my experience the first 3 days are the harder days, and then it will feel better. My questions are:
1- How many days I need to be CLEAN?! Brain electricity, Blood, liver, etc.
2- Now I feel a Pain in my back "Spinal" - I take Ketofan for this and it works fine-, diarrhea and sleeplessness - I took a soporific to sleep. The question is can I fight it alone? in the place I live, there is no Detox centers or addict centers- I did it before and on the sixth day I felt almost natural.
Last word for you all, if you are still in the beginning on Tramadol, Please Please Please stop it before it destroys your brain and life, many of you are still on 300 or 400 mg a day, you can quiet now before it becomes harder.