Tramadol

[butterfly925]

I can't believe I have finally found this forum. It goes back for so long! the only way i found it was by searching on yahoo for a tramadol addiction forum. Anyways, this is really hard for me to say, but I've been using tramadol for about 3 years now. It started when I was feeling depressed, was looking for something to stop my hurting and grabbed some pills that were supposed to be non-addictive pain killers from my job. It started out just 2 or 3 at a time, a few times a day. At the end... I could easily be taking 25 pills at a time, more than once a day. I've had seizures... right in the middle of work, hit my head on a really hard floor and didn't wake up until after they called 911, after the ambulance arrived, after they brought me to the hospital, and only after about 15 minutes of being in the emergency room. One time I woke up one morning on the floor in a pile of blood with a pair of broken eyes and a broken nose that needed surgery to fix. I'd take my pills and get so nauseous that I'd throw up, but even after throwing up I was so high it didn't matter. Let's see... I took 40 pills at one time hoping to never wake up, but I did. When it all started I slowly turned away from everything that was normal in my life. I lost the love of my life, he had no idea what I was doing. I lost all ambition. I stopped going out with friends, they had no idea what was going on with me either. No one knew my secret. It hurt so much to keep this inside, but I would dull it away and I'd be safe for a while. I tried so many times to give it up, but the withdrawls were so horrible. How was I supposed to keep on doing this?
I saw a commercial for a website www.askforhelp.com. i found the name of a doctor in my area and called and scheduled an appt for last Friday and this Monday, was started on suboxone. I was able to find a dr in my area, not too close though, because I had to make sure that there wouldn't be anyone working there that I knew. It's been 3 days now. 3 days seems longer than the 3 years of the pills. It's been pretty smooth, had a pretty bad headache today with some vomitting, but my dr had me take a half dose in the middle of the day and that seemed to help. I'm so scared that I'm going to screw this up. I have lots of feelings and concerns but no one to turn to. I'm extremly embarassed that things have gotten so out of control, and there have been so many times I've wanted to tell someone close to me, but I can't.
I think i might have gotten help sooner if i had known there was options other than in-patient rehab.

[carter2005lambe]

I too am suffering a major addiction from tramadol. I was taking them for a year and in the end was taking as many as 40 a day. This is my first real day tram-free and I feel like sh*&. Instead of being in bed sleeping with my husband and son, I am awake sweating, and nauseaus. I did not suffer from grand mal seizures however, I did take so many that I would vomit. I was so desperate for them a couple months ago, I done up my own script for them and got busted(they didnt fill it, but they didn't call the police) Another time, my aunt was prescribed this for her pain and she didn;t like them so I used to pretend I was her and call in for refills at our local pharmacy. Last week I got busted for this. She thankfully didn;t call the police, she called my family and me and begged me to get help. I would like to talk to you more as it seems like we have a lot in common.

[tramhamilton]

I was just about to go to bed when i saw your post, i am so tired that i copied a post that i wrote to someone else earlier, because it is so long i hope it helps you and you can post me anytime you want. I was addicted to tramadol (ultram) for about 3 years total. I was taking anywhere from 30 to 35 per day 50mg tabs. I have been busted 2 for calling in fake RX's to pharmacies, at Walmart you can get 90 pills for $8.00 without insurance. I am in Florida and trams are not considered narcotics in florida either although they should be. I have been clean since 08/21/08, which is the 2 time busted I quit c/t. Still do not have a court date the detective has not filed the paperwork with the DA yet, he has up to 3 years to do so. When I got caught red handed at the pharmacy he did not arrest me, just took the pills and money from me $8.00. He wants me to be a CI (confidential informant) for him, polite way of saying a snitch. I have not done any work for him yet still don't know what to do. He says it will go a long way to helping me in court. The maximum I could get for what I did is 5 years in prison and a $5,000 fine. I have a 13 year old son and sure do not want to go to jail. Guess I should have thought of that before I did what i did. All i could think about was the pills not the consequences. Now every day i wait for the bomb to drop and the detective to call and either want me to snitch or tell me he is filing the papers, i only hope he waits till after xmas. If you have any advice on what i should do I would love ur input.No one knows about my previous addiction either or the fact that I have been caught obtaining them illegally which is a felony. The first time i got caught the DA dropped it to a misdemeanor, gave me 6 months probation and 20 hours community service. I do not think the fact that I got caught a year later doing the same thing that they will drop it to a misdemeanor this time. I AM SO STUPID!!!! My advice to you is quit right now c/t the first 3 days will be the worst, no sleep, diarreahea, cramps, sweating and headaches. I carried imodium ad, and advil with me every time i had to leave the house. You can get thru this just think of the stupid **** i did and be glad you are not in my shoes. Yes you are facing w/ds but i am facing prison which is my own fault. One thing I can definitely say after losing 2 jobs, and being caught 2 by the police i will never touch a pill (tramadol) again. i have learned my lesson. So learn from me before it is too late. I am 41 and have never been arrested before. That is before i met tramadol. If you happen to read the side effects of tramadol it actually says that you may perform illicit behavior to obtain the drug (lol) ain't that the truth. Sorry for the long post!!! Hope some of my rambling helped.