Turned 40 yesterday!

[Clm1974]

So yesterday was my 40 th  birthday and I decided it's time to grow up and out of the grip of this addiction. I'm on day 6 again and really struggling to regain the passion I felt about quitting when I joined the forum almost a month ago! Every since I relapsed after 19 days I just feel flat. I'm still going to my meetings but a little more reluctantly. Part of the problem is I've yet to find a sponsor and start working my steps. I do have a prospect so that's good news! I'm just longing for some enthusiasm again. I do know this much. I don't intend to spend my 40 th year in the same place I spent this last year. What a waste it was! I have a bright future ahead of me if I can only hang on. I just want this to be a year filled with growth on all levels. What to do about my apathy, that is the question! Any suggestions?

[SunnyBuns]

Coming to this site can be a good sponsor place holder, until you secure a sponsor.  Are you getting clean on your own, or with the support of a doctor?  There are so many things a doctor can prescribe to help you.
Happy Birthday and stay strong!  You CAN DO THIS!!

[meegWpaw]

Happy birthday Clm!  don't give up!

[Clm1974]

Thanks so much for the kind words and support! You all make my recovery feel so much more doable. I know if I stay focused I'll get through this! I listen to the stories in my meetings of all those who have gone before me and I want what they have which is peace and happiness in sobriety. I know everyone struggles from time to time but it's no reason to pick up. That's what I have to remember. It's a choice and I don't have to use. Hopefully this sponsor will work out and I can really start working the steps. I think that will make a huge difference. Thanks again!

[ROSYouralright]

Happy birthday! Congrats on day 6! Keep busy &push forward..

[Makani_svr]

Happy Birthday!  How wonderful to spend it with those you love and I am happy to hear you have support.  


Also, glad to hear there may be a potential sponsor.  When I had my eyes on the sponsor I have now, I started going to meetings that she went to just to hear what she would say. I was watching two women very closely...and one jusr said something that I related to so well, that I knew she was for me. I was feeling very blah at the time as well, but after I asked her to sponsor me, I started feeling a little more enthusiastic about what I was doing... and had soneone to help guide me and give me direction from there....

I wish you best of luck :) and congratulations on the the 6 days sober....welcome back

Makani

[Amandag78]

A big Happy Birthday to you and well done on day 6 !!!

[jugglin]

Happy 40th!  U r on day 6...going to meetings.  You are doing all the right things.  It will take awhile for the pieces to come together and make sense.  I never knew patience until I quit vicodin. I had to learn it quickly or go crazy.  My answer to apathy? Keep ur mind busy.  Exercise if u can, listen to music, dance around the house. watch some funny movie or tv. Keep fighting - u r worth it!

[Whollymolythathurt]

Happy B-day CLM.  Keep up the good work.

[Clm1974]

Thanks so much! It was a happy day spent with my husband and kids. They have showered me with love and support and I feel so blessed! It's great to be present in their lives again instead of high then constantly crashing. I may be feeling blah but I have so much to be thankful for.

[ActingBrandNew]

Just wanted to wish you a happy birthday!