Ultram - Really? I am an addict, no doubt about it

I am a mother, wife, daughter, sister, niece, aunt, godmother, friend and I am an addict. I have been taking pain medication since I had back surgery at age 24. I am 30 now. No one knows. I am stealth, a functioning addict. Do you know how long it has taking me to write that. I have tried to write this down for a long time, and nothing. Even saying addict under my breath pains me. So today, at 2:25:08, I am finally telling myself I am an addict. There is no other way to put it. I take between 700 and 1000mg of ultram (better known as tramadol) a day. It use to be Vicodin and Percocet here and there, but 2+ years ago my neurologist prescribed me the addiction I have today.

Are f'n kidding me? I have been reading posts on here saying not addicting, not a real addiction, no withdrawals can happen. BS. I have had withdrawals so bad that I almost killed myself. I am 30 y/o, I have a 3.5 y/o, an amazing marriage, and I wanted to die. If that is "REAL" I don't know what is.

My doctor would rather keep pushing these pills in me then help wean me off since it is so hard for your body to come off. I have a need for pain meds, I have 4 tumors on my spine, I have herniated discs, disc degeneration disease. BUT I would rather go through life in pain then on this medication. After feeling the withdrawals I know this is no joke. Anything that can cause

I am finding a detox center tonight with my husband. I can not do this on my own because I feel like I am going to harm myself because the withdrawals gets so bad. This is a LAST RESORT effort going to detox. I have sought the help of 5 doctors form neurologists to psychopharmacologists and no one wants to take on a patient with an addiction to ultram/tramadol. That in itself is saying something.

Does anyone have any personal experience in medical detox centers coming off of this medication?

[fuzzypeach27]

Hello my names Fuzzy

Read your post.

I hope you find a good detox centre and I hope you get the help you need. Everything we are addicted to will give us withdrawals. Also It is hard for us to admit we are addicts.Especially when we have families etc.. Keep posting and let us know how you get on.

BEST OF LUCK

[mej888]

I am done with trams! I could not find a rehab that would help me. I was shocked. I got turned away and after much hell I decided to quit by weaning. As of now I am 5 days drug free, after 36 days weaning.

[GA Guy]

Do you have an aftercare plan in place? I'd hate to see the mental side of this disease destroy all you've worked for.

[vicki595]

Hi!!  Just saw your post for the first time;very sad...

So,how are you feeling now?  Please let us know.  There are so many here who have had the same trouble with tram.  It's just crazy to me that this drug is handed out as non-addicting...and many don't realize it must be tapered off.  UGH!!!

Anyway,good for you on 5 days clean!  Do you have support?

Vicki   xo

[mej888]

Hi guys....

I am doing great. I am now 11 days free from drugs. I feel good. My post-recovery plan is day by day. My husband is all over me.... not to fail sobriety. I am really doing ok. I do not want to take trams AT ALL ever again. My dr prescribed me percocets today, it is taking everything I am right now not to fill it. So I put it in an envelope, and left it on the counter.

Ugh! I should throw it out.... right?

[BoskeyFace]

Read my post and you can understand my next few works...THROW IT THE **** OUT!!!  I was actaully RXed ultram and threw them out bc they didn't help the pain one bit, i guess i'm glad i didn't keep taking them but hell i started percs which was the worst idea in my life.  again THROW IT OUT!!!

[vicki595]

Yes...you should throw it out.    11 days is great!!   You have been so strong to do that taper.  I know how hard that is.

Do any of the otc's help with your pain?  There's an otc called Percogesic that works well.

Vicki

[mej888]

I threw out .... phew ... thank you for walking me off the ledge. OXO