Unhealthy fear

[DoubleInTrouble]

My heart is filled with fear and all I feel is scared all day, how do I get thru this ? I live in fear, why is this?

[DoubleInTrouble]

I have like paranoid scared feelings about doing anything, when does this feeling go away. I think it has to do with having alot of pressure financially right now, bcuz I work at a club and am so scared to go to work bcuz there are to many triggers there and I know to many ppl who I drank with, and I have to ask for help this coming month for rent bcuz I relapsed last wed, drove home super drunk, blackedout don't know how I got home. I thought I lost all my belongings bcuz when I woke up the next day my man hid everything bcuz he  was pissed! He was scared for my life and others being on the road, now I'm even more scared to even drive or go anywhere. It's like I'm making things worse and difficult for myself and his , I hate this, why can't I focus? I use to be sooooo focused and motivated when I was sober. Had the right mind frame and made goals and accomplished them and now I feel like a bum, my man is so stressed and frustrated , he always tells me he will leave me or I need to go back to my mothers but he can't get thin self to do it, and that is killing me inside bcuz I was his back bone and he loves me so much and I feel like I'm taking advantage of his love , he doesn't deserve this and nor do I!

[motye51]

Not even kidding....I found the anxiety to be almost debilitating....but getting off my *** definitely seems to make it less.  Also, and I know this is going to sound weird, if I eat better, it's less????  More cooked foods, less processed foods (fast foods), more eggs, nuts, fruit, veges, red meat, etc...it does seem to make a big difference in how I feel.  Never really realized how much that would actually help until now!

[DoubleInTrouble]

Joke * , I can totally tell the mental difference , they ate tryn to kill ppl slowly

[DoubleInTrouble]

It just doesn't feel convincing , as far as staying sober, bcuz when I got sober last time I was so positive and so sure that I did not want to drink at all and didn't think twice about it, well I also  didn't take norcos them either , those FDA stuff are no j

[motye51]

Fear/ anxiety is totally normal at this stage. I feel it still, everyday in the pit of my stomach. I hate it...but it is normal. Excercising, walking, etc....does seem to help. Your just unsure of yourself right now, which in my opinion is a good thing. We don't want to become overly confident with our sobriety until we have some solid time under our belt!

[DoubleInTrouble]

My doc is alcohol , and if I'm drunk I wld be willing to take norcos. I started taking norco a year and a half ago during my 4 year alcohol sober period which caused me to relapse on my doc alcohol, I been clean from norcos since march 8 (last month)and had a  horrible alcohol relapse and situation last Wednesday and haven't drank since

[DoubleInTrouble]

I have a lot of fear bcuz I feel I will do or something bad will happen if I drink, and I just don't trust my sobriety, like I'm not sure of myself, it's a horrible feeling especially when I do not want to drink bcuz I know my  consequences, l keep thinking so negative I don't have positive feelings with my sobriety , why is this when I want sobriety and happiness so badly ?

[Merri123]

It is most likely just the wds talking. It does weird things to the mind. Makes you over think and stress.

Do you know what you are afraid of?