Update on my Percocet Progress...

I wanted to keep everyone posted on what's been going on.. Just to fill some of you all in that may be new to my inquiries and concerns:  I've been unwillingly dependant on Percocet for a little over a year now, and I called to get a refill to taper off with [because I just don't want to be this way anymore, basically] and my PCP cut me off completely. I had 10 Percocet left and 12 Vicodin ES left to taper off with and I was deathly freightened of the withdrawls I'd endure of just doing this cold turkey. I'm also one of these people who will not take any other drug to come off of another. That just isn't me.

Lastnight I ended up in the ER due to great amounts of severe pain, even though I had Percocet and Vicodin here at the apartment. When the ER doctor came in to ***** me and what was going on, I was very honest with her and told her that I was there to seek an alternative to easing the pain because I felt that I'd unwillingly become dependant on this medicine. She was very understanding, and for the first time in my entire life I had an ER doctor sit in the room with me for well over 45 minutes listening to my every word, as she'd asked me to start from the very begining. I also was sure to notify her that my PCP has been well aware of the fact that I was concerned that I was starting to get dependant on these pills over two months ago when I went to go and see him for my check up.

When I told her my concerns of going to my PCP with this information and asking for more pills just to taper off with, she agreed that a lot of the PCPs out here where we live [in Virginia] were more than likely not as open minded as some in other states. However, she DID feel that the best option for me at this point was to continue to taper as I had planned. She also said that the amount I had [which has obviously lessened since my first post here in the forums] was not going to do it for me. She wrote me for 12 more Percocets to take home with me and she wants me to taper off with that amount plus the 12 Vicodin ES that I have here in my home.

So, now I have 12 Percocet and 12 Vicodin ES. I AM going to do this! Going to the ER lastnight was NOT about getting more pills to take the edge off. My initial plan was to go there to see if there was any other alternative for me with this. Unfortunately, I'm allergic to a LOT of medications, so this was my only choice as far as she was concerned. I've made a promise to you all here... But most importantly, I've made a promise to myself and the people around me who love me. Especially my fiance, but mostly myself!