Update

[Davidmel]

So my methadone clinic will only deal with 5 mgs... the pharmacist uses a pump, and evidently can't regulate less than 5mg... soooo here I go tomorrow-finally going from 35 to 30 again....  put the decrease off hoping i could go in smaller increments.
On the other hand, I am going through horrible guilt thinking back on all the friends and family whose medicine cabinets I have "wiped out." At the time i thought "they cant prove anything-they would never suspect ME!" My latest victim will not talk to me anymore-hasnt said anything, but im sure she knows . Oh, how I wish I could reverse the things I have done for drugs. I have probably ruined what was a good reputation, but no one will ever accuse me, so I guess I will never know who suspects me.
I have confessed to a counselor, but it never guilted me enough to stop. Here's hoping this guilt will be my motivation, however-seems like some damage has been done. Thanks for letting me sound off

[jifmoc]

What I mean is everyone is in addict and EVERYONE has horror stories. If they didn't, they wouldn't be there.

[jifmoc]

What atthebeach said. AND, everyone in the meetings has the same issue. You can also drive to another town. Recovery has to come fist.

[Davidmel]

They do? Theft?

[jifmoc]

Yes. Or AA.

[Davidmel]

Not an option for me in my line of work and in this tiny town

[atthebeach]

Private counseling, church groups, you need support to prevent relapse.

[jifmoc]

I would STRONGLY suggest aftercare for you. The only wrong way to get clean is to do it alone.

[Davidmel]

Na?