Vicoden Addiction Im off and on day 7

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Im on day 7 but only day one without any. Im addicted to vicoden. Not for the pain but for the high. I have no energy, my life feels like it's falling apart and I have two boys who I feel like I can't do right by because of my addiction. My anger mainly. So i got off them. About 10 a day 1000mg. Tapered off but im so unhappy. I need someone to tell me when my energy will be back. I don't even want to take a shower, my lifes falling apart. I don't have anyone to lean on. My boyfriend has his own problems and suffers from depression so I can't lean on him. He knows what's happening to me but I don't think he knows the extent of what Im feeling. Im so scared. Theres this feeling in my gut of pure sickness. pure depression. When will it go away?

cathy5841 · Answer

i really dont think sub would be right for you.  you were only on the hydros for 4 months....you are gonna be okay and sub would be much harder to w/d from when the time comes.  it is a great tool for some that have been addicted for longer times and to more hydros.  i am not a dr but i think you will do fine.  now get to walkin....

Jenaquariah · Answer

OMG thanks so much for what you said. You are right. It seems all of you are saying one thing in common...excercise. I hate it but if that brings what you called "like it energizes you"...that clicks for me...thanks you may have made my day of hell my last one. If I go walk to track I can get back on track......and JN170...thanks I as hoping  someone would tell me its sooner than later.......and I take bath after bath.....

JNT70 · Answer

I was on 75mg a day for two years and quit 16 days ago and feel great!!  The first 3-4 days were bad and then I rapidly got better.  Try to stay busy, go on walks, take HOT showers anything to make time pass.  Your almost there, keep it up your doing great!!!

Sunnyd210 · Answer

I used a low dose oh methadone to get off the norco so my w/d's were spread out over a month, the worst thing that I dealt with was the anxiety I had that really bad for about a week before I stopped and I would say 2 weeks after. The worst for me was the 1st 2 weeks but by a month a felt much much better. I also went on Cymbalta and that really helped me with the depression.

me1972 · Answer

have you thought about going on Suboxone?  I was addicted to Lortabs/Hydros  for 5 yrs ( 3 yrs heavily)   I was taking 10-14 pills a day ( of the 10 mgs)   It was Awful at the end, I finally got sick of it & wanted to be a better Mom to my 4 kids here... Plus the money I was spending was enormous!!!!!
I tried quiting cold turkey & it was hard.... And with kids & a house & a husband, I wasnt able to do it very well.... I've been on the Sub for 3 weeks now & I'm doing good.  LOOK INTO IT at least- Explore ALL of your options at least & BEST OF LUCK TO YOU SWEETIE!!!!!!

broknbck · Answer

Hey, you said you were only taking them daily for like 4 months?

it is not going to be 3 weeks of hell. it should go much faster than that. plus you even tappered a little and that helps.

so i know it's gonna sound impossible, but try to do some cardio exersize. something that will get you totally out of breath. i started on a stairmaster and could only do like 5 or 6 minutes- hah but it really makes you feel better after. like it energizes you.
hiking in the mountains here has been a good one too. it is very beautiful surroundings while you are hiking and helps to release endorphins.
hell, have some steamy sex even
anything to get everything moving in you, blood circulating real good, ect.......

it is hard to get motivated. you just have to really push it and afterwards you will be glad that you did. this will also help you to sleep better at nite.
hope you are feeling great real soon!!

Jenaquariah · Answer

The aweful depression? Does that last a month? The gloom in your gut? That too?

Jenaquariah · Answer

I don't know if I can do this for another three weeks...OMG!!!!!!!!!!!

cathy5841 · Answer

click on my name and go to my profile, on the lef bottom of the page you see my journals click see all and it is on the third page.  you change pages on the top right of the journal screen.

Sunnyd210 · Answer

Im sorry you are having such a hard time, there is a light at the end of the tunnel though I promise you that. That 1 pill is too much and 1000 would never be enough is all I said to myself for about 3 weeks.  I would say I felt normal again after about a month.

Jenaquariah · Answer

I couldn't find the time entry...

cathy5841 · Answer

i think it was about 2 months before i felt like i was alive. but i had some good days during that time and was progressively getting better. i have a journal entry about time if you get a chance read it. it may help you. you have to be determined to fight and not give up.

Jenaquariah · Answer

How long did it take you to wake up and be ok with life? It is the mental that im struggling with. Yes i have serious RLS but mentally I'm tearing myself apart....

cathy5841 · Answer

thats is exactly how everyone of has felt during recovery.  it does get better....dont give up...you are not alone.

Jenaquariah · Answer

Thanks for being supportive. The One is too many and a Thousand isn't enough, really hit home....wish me luck...I just want to feel like everything is going to be ok..I can't sleep or eat or smile...nothing...im so sad inside

Jenaquariah · Answer

I read the Thomas recipe. I dont have the funds to go get the prescriptions. I take bath after bath though. After ready the Thomas Recipe, I now know why I've been stuck in the bathroom. :-) I have insurance but after my boyfriends trip to the mental hospital, there's nothing left for me. Bad time for me to quit. But I couldn't stand how angry and irritable I was getting not to mention money was getting tighter and tighter now it's too tight to even get pills. I have been on them only about four months. I have always taken them here and there years in between. But as far as daily, only about four months and it increased from 2  a day to sometimes 12 ...the 1000 mg ones only...I'm trying to beleive in myself, but I cant even function. Dread comes over me when I go home and I just want to sit in one spot and do nothing but think of the negative things.

Cupp78 · Answer

You can do this...and even though a pill may make you feel better, you will be right back where you were before you stopped and you obviously had a good reason to stop.  Remember ONE is too many and a THOUSAND never enough.  You can do this.  I have been clean 28 days now and I am feeling much better.  I came off a very high dose c/t.  I used the amino acids 3 times a day and try to get out and take walks whenever I can.  Most of all, try to get some support.  PLEASE try and get out and go to an NA meeting.  You will find SOOO much support and love there...it is really empowering.  You will also see that you can recover and feel better, and enjoy life without drugs.  Please try not to use the problems in your life as an excuse to use...that will only throw more fuel on the fire.  Work on getting you straight first and I bet you will be suprised how much easier it is to fix the other problems in your life.

Good luck and keep coming back here...we will all help you through this.

cathy5841 · Answer

hey, have you taken a look at the thomas recipe and the amino protocols?  they are in the healthpages to the right of this page.  they offer great tips and things to make recovery more bearable.  it does take some time to get the energy and things back.  exercise is the best medicine in this case.  it helps the brain to produce endorphins which have been supplied by the opiates.  remember this is going to lead you to a life without opiates so it is well worth the struggle now.

HelpinUtah · Answer

Jena:
Can you go to a therapist to help you deal with all the emotions you are having to deal with.  I know this will be difficult, but you CAN DO IT!  I wishI could tell you for sure when you will start to feel normal again, but I can't.  It is a long proess it seems, but in the grand scheme of things it really isn't.  Most people don't start feeling better for about 4 to 6 weeks - I guess it depends on how long you used.  

Please believe in yourself!  Stay strong!  And, come here for support and find someone you can talk to, even NA or AA.

You're in my prayers!

Jenaquariah · Answer

Thanks for the kind words. I just feel so alone and it seems like it's just easier to go get some pills and instantly feel better. I just wish I knew how long my life is going to feel like it's falling apart. Bills are so tight, cant make them so that on top of it...Boyfriend hasn't worked in three weeks. He tried to kill himself, so he was admitted into a mental place for a week. That hurt us financially and he lost his job. Luckily I make good money, but it's not enough to pay for everything. We have become behind and there's got to be an end and a start to something good around some corner somewhere./...looking for something to make my mind make me move....,

ochooked · Answer

Hey girl -- reach down deep   remember the good reasons you want to be clean ---- You can do this ----and it won't last too long and you will be on this site to encourage others who are on this same journey.  Your energy will return --- your emotions will get better and you will feel good again -- I promise you -- it is worth it.  You have come so far --- please don't turn back now.  All the best -- I'll be praying for you.