Good on you for making the jump. 32 days here. I fully agree with gnarly. In my head the idea of quitting was scarier than the actual quitting. Listen to everyone's advice. The first 3 days were the worst for me. I made it worse by not listening to everyone when they said to stay hydrated and make yourself eat. Not doing that made the fatigue so much worse for me. Expect to have aches. My knees and hip joints were what bothered me. I had RLS at night. Even at my worst though, it wasn't nearly as bad as what I had built it up to be in my mind. The walking that gnarly suggested is what actually helped with my aches and pains. As much as it felt like walking thru quicksand in the beginning, getting up and getting moving would completely change the type of day I had. I read a lot of the posts in here to see what others had gone thru. Knowing what to expect helped me prepare mentally.
Sorry bout the copy and past but I wanted you to get this I will respond more as you go threw this but tonight im short on time I will check back later on to see how your doing,,,,,,,,,,Gnarly
Hey Dude.....well lets do this ....congrats on starting to take your life back for the next few days it is all about attitude...a positive attitude is the single best thing you can bring to the table it makes the difference between being uncomfortable and suffering....suffering is a choice keep in mind this is 1/3 phyical and 2/3 mental be ready to fight it out on both fronts I have said this a million times but ''you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile'' this to shall pass...the one thing that helps the most is a nice hot soak in a epsom salt bath it will help with the restlessness anxiety and the aches and pains you may need several a day....rent a bunch of funny movies lafter goes a long way it will also give you something to do wile your up all night try to get out and walk start out with a few blocks and work your way up the fresh air and exorcise will help try not to be afraid of what is to come it is alway worst in our minds then it turns out to be just take it one day at a time if its bad take it a hour at a time....just know that this is going to be one of the best decisions of your life you wont be chained to a pill bottle any more just know where all here for you and many of us myself included no exactly how this feels so share what your going threw it helps post post and post some more ...I don't know if you believe in God or not but if you do prayer helps I will check back later im in phoenix az so I am up late...may God be with you.......Gnarly
Hey Kieth congrats on a week and 2 days clean!!!! as for staying the course most of us with clean time use aftercare....I always recamend the N/A program it is free the meetings are only a hour long and it will give you some place to share whats going on inside you with people that understand long after the pills stop your still stuck with the addict in your head....it is what drives most back to using....please dont skip this critical step google a N/A meeting near you and go keep us posted on how this goes for you..........Gnarly
1 week 2 days babyyy :)))
Welcome Back!!! So sorry you fell down. Just like a bad cut it will heal in time. I bet you did not get that aftercare back when you first posted. Not only is it the aftercare, but NOT being around others that use. It takes just that ONE pill to open back up that pleasure part of the brain called survival. One lousy pill and the mind remembers all the pleasure and wants more & more. It is SO true and just baffles me..However, I have that addictive gene, personality or so much more, if you look at it in a more scientific way, or even all the things they say at those Meetings. This is a real true Disease.
It will take some time, after the physical, for the mental to find a balance. Just hang on to that patience and give this time.
Glad your Back..Congrats on your days too! NOW lets kick some butttt and put this all behind you and start working your Recovery!!
Bless
Vickie
Hey guys well 3 months or so later and I fell even further down than I ever was after trying to quit. Although I can proudly say, I am now waking up on this beautiful Sunday morning on day 5 of no Vicodin! It's been hell but today I wake up feeling as if I've turned a corner. Sorry to all the supporters I ignored but I am back on board and hoping I can continue to stay clean forever. Physical w.d symptoms are getting better but still there, how much longer will they continue?
Hey Dude you still with us please post to let us know how your doing??..........................gnarly.............................
Hey dude how goes it.....please post to let us know posting will also help you your no one in this where all here to help
......................................Gnarly........................................
Good luck, I'm cutting back trying 2 wean, we all know how well that works. The way u r doing it is the only way. I admire ur strength, keep going!
One day you are going to look back on this time, and it will be just a blip. You will be in the midst of having your life, clean, and learning to live w/o numbing yourself. That's the real work. It does get easier the more time that goes by. As soon as you are can, go to a meeting. You'll be surrounded in person by so much support.
Keep posting:)
Congrats on staying strong and not giving into temptation. It will always be there taunting us so we just have to be the stronger one and take pride in being drug free. I'm only 40 days clean from Vicodin but I feel a lot better. I feel your pain. I tried to quit numerous times in the past 6 years but never made it this far. MH community has really helped. Keep posting and reading other people's stories. #1 thing that helped me in the first few days was water. I know u probably don't want to drink or eat but staying hydrated helped. Also I had a bedtime ritual. I read advice for insomniacs saying rituals help tell your brain and body it's time to sleep and it helped eventually. I was sleeping a full night by day 3. I would take a HOT Epsom salt bath then get a huge glass of ice water and read anything I could and lay in bed at the same time every night. Try not to use electronics or eat right before bed too. Also eliminate triggers. People places things. I even stopped watching the same TV shows I watched every day bc it reminded me of being messed up. Idk if that's weird but anything that reminded me I stayed away from. I never could travel bc I spent all my money on pills so I made an inspiration wall with beautiful pics of places I want to visit after I've been sober long enough and have money saved. It really helps when I get bad cravings. Congrats again keep posting
Hey Dude congrats on 48 hours clean....your doing the deal...I do agree with Vicki you need to delete your dealers number it is critical that you cut all access to supply's there are no safety nets or secret stashes you must not have any pills around for just in case... keep pushing the fluids eat light meals no read meats for a wile just know in a few days you will be threw the worst of it but this is not the end it is only the beginning to a new life clean and drug free....I never try to downplay just how C rapy you feel doing this but it is the mental ''mindscrew'' that drive you back to using you need to put some form of aftercare in plase for me N/A has been the majic bullet it is a simple progam that with time you will loose the very desire to use.....something I thought was impossible...google a N/A meeting near you and get to it....you will be welcome with a hug and you will have somewhere safe to share what your going threw with people that understand....will talk more about this later right now we got to get you threw the withdrawal keep posting for support YOU CAN DO THIS!!!!!....Gnarly
Yo hockeyguy? What up. Thankfully for the michigan state football game right now, giving me something to watch, I'm getting by, I cant go hang with friends, I look and feel the worse I've felt in my whole life lol don't think I'm getting any sleep tonight, besides all the crying 2 more hours and I'll be at 48hrs clean. Wow I kinda feel happy for once without a pill. Thanks for the support! Means alot, helps alot, please post
Do you have anyone with you? It made all the difference in the world for me to have someone to hang out with me, or even talk to on the phone. Kept my mind occupied
Haven't gone to my dealer, still feeling terrible but managing, thank you all for the comments, this little demon is fighting hard right now, trying my best not to give in
You're on day 2. You don't want to have to start over. That's how I got thru each day. I didn't want to start at day 1 over again. If you listen to everyones advice here, the symptoms will lessen each day.
Don't do it!!!
You must block out your Dealers number and stay away from people who use. No more playing around in them old stomping grounds!! There will always be some kind of Triggers, so this is why Support is so important. Tons of behavior changes have to be made. When we keep using it changes both Body and the Chemical Makeup of the Brain. Go hit a meeting and any one will do. We can not do this alone!!! YOU are just starting out and this is a bad trigger for YOU..Only YOU can change it!! Stick around for Support and go hit a meetings too! I wish you the best.
Hope you are still here and did not go with your dealer!! Talk to us!
Be Safe!
Vickie
Hey Keith your off to a great start if your havent already pick up a case of gatordaid and start forcing the fluids it is critical you dont get dehydrated wile doing this just know it will be worth it to break free from the pills where all here for you keep positng for support and let us know what symptoms are bothering you the most we have a lot of at home cures for thing..........Gnarly
Happy to hear I have a few passengers on this boat we have here, it sure is an ugly boat but the hope is that the boat gets bigger and nicer as we row. Just got a text from my dealer taking me up on my offer from Thursday when he said he was all out which is a reason why I've decided to get clean. He's gonna front me until I get paid this coming friday, this is the the cycle I have been in for 3 years, he will be ready for me at 530, I haven't texted back yet. Here comes my first wave and not sure I will survive it :/ sounds like such a great idea damnit..
I'm right there with you. Tired of the race of the next order, and tired of the disconnection from friends and family cause I chose a bottle of little yellow pez poppers. We can do this! Please stay strong, I will be following as a passenger in the boat. Let's pretend there is no land in sight, only water to guide us through this journey. I have no answers for you right now, just know today you are not alone as we begin to reclaim our lives. Hugs
take lots of hot baths and stay focused. If i can do it so can you. i am close to 2 months clean of oxy. this is the best thing you can do. you will not regret it and in time you will see what i am and so many are talking about. it will be a struggle, but take it day by day and stay focused and determined.
best of luck
Hey guys thanks for the support! Waking up day 2 is tough, I actually slept a little last night but it's 730 am right now and I woke up from a dream that I grabbed 10 of them and let's just say the dream didn't help at all! I feel like a train hit me and my head is pounding. All the negative aside I am ready to conquer day 2, and plan on posting as the day goes on! Thanks again for the support, 32 hours in and things couldn't be any worse :/ :)