Want of Methadone ASAP - less problems the better!

[ChasingGreatHealth]

Been on every Narcotic and non-narcotic for almost 25 yrs. BEEN ON METHADONE 6 MOS TOPS - WENT FROM 120MGS TO 80MGS (STARTING 60 MGS TOMORROW). Chronic paint patient with enough spinal, fibromyalgia, etc. DX's to take up another 2 lines).  

Saw my Pain Doc when I went in to get my monthly Opana and Opana ER refills and I said NO MORE!  I'm stopping this.  Tired of the changes, the ups and downs - 30 days of hell every time I try a new drug after the efficacy wears off.  Still have hell for 30 days regardless whether it's stronger or not as strong.  I CHOSE METHADONE because Suboxone was 4 months just for titrating to the right dosage then eventually off - AND it's counter-indicated for my med conditions-Methadone was not and I feel ok - just tired of taking drugs that will eventually stop working and I'm not going up - or changing back to a Narc !

I went from 360mgs Opana's to 280mgs in 30 days 1 yr ago. Then about 6 mos. ago I went from 280mgs Opana's to 120mgs METHADONE (equal to 60mgs Opana).. I WANT OFF METHADONE QUICKEST WAY YOU KNOW HOW! (Can't find a Doc to help!) Have Clonzapam (generic for Klonopin) - take 2 mgs every 6 hrs. and I've been going down 20 mgs Methadone every 2-3 weeks. Am at 8/day from 12/day.  Ready to drop another 20 mgs (2 pills) starting tomorrow. I'd be taking 1-10 mg. every 4 hours. I'd be at 6/day from 8/day.  Know I can go down 1-10 mg every 2 wks OR break them in half. - but that's later. If there's a BIG DIFFERENCE, I'd go down 10 every 2 weeks - but I'm RRRrrreeeaallllyyyy tired of all this and want to get out of this house and can't go anywhere when I'm on methadone - people think you're an addict even though my RX does say TAKE EVERY X HRS FOR PAIN..

MY PERSONAL  LIFE IS HELL-But not because of drugs-Personal Stress, My 20+ yr. Marriage DOWN THE HILL, Housing, $, my husband sold my car - you name it-CRAP!  I NEED TO GET OFF THIS ASAP and OUT OF HERE so I can have a DRUG FREE LIFE with LESS STRESS - and Live the Life I was Born to Live.  And it wasn't a Life on Drugs...

Insurance doesn't cover "Good Patients" and I've waited over 6 mos to see 'the" Doc who was supposed to oversee this withdrawal for me, but she's canceled 3 times so I have no one.  Docs don't get paid if you get off drugs so I have no idea what kind of Doc would help me. I have never "lost" pills, gone in early, had any problems, yada yada - so not a problem patient - so no public help w/a perfect record that goes back the entire time; doc same for over 10 yrs and is highly accredited - and very strict about meds.

So has ANYONE GOTTEN OFF METHADONE FAST??  Going down to 6 -10 mgs tomorrow from 8.  (i mean this stuff was so strong in the beginning I was missing my doses by 8 hours or more - I'd forget to take them and didn't feel a thing...

ANYONE GOTTEN OFF OR HAD A SIMILAR SITUATION LIKE THIS - OR HAVE ANY RECOMMENDATIONS?  I know that if I start to feel bad I can go back up a little - but the Clonzapam makes me tired and keeps me pretty level though I do get very angry-but only at the man I married interestingly enough - so not sure if it's the meds or him-but I'd guess him...Doesn't matter-just don't know if I can last living here and getting off methadone at the "normal" rate - 1 Doc said go down 10, wait 1 month, then go down 10 - I'D NEVER SURVIVE ANOTHER YEAR IN THIS HOUSE!  I can't take it now!  I just sit alone in a room all day ALONE and try to meditate and pray - that's all I do.  Lost 55 pounds since this started in JANUARY of this year too.....

I'd LOVE to hear from someone who has done it before-FAST AND QUICK/like I've done the stronger ones - OPANA IS 2 TIMES AS STRONG AS THE METHADONE=AND WENT FROM 280MGS TO 120MGS IN 30 DAYS!  SO WHY DO I HAVE TO "GO SLOW" W/METHADONE??? When I stopped taking the Opana's I thought I lost my mind forever-and kept a bag packed for the hospital - but of course they wouldn't do a thing for me anyway but I was so messed up - it was a "comfort thing" because of the constant Panic Attacks which I think I'm covered w/the Clonzapam....Told my Doc 120mgs wasn't enough-I do my research and the next time I saw him the worst was over and he just smiled....I was still out of it and made no comment. For me the pain relief is there-but for how long-and I haven't noticed much difference from 120mgs to 80mgs methadone as far as efficacy. But it's not as strong and I feel totally different - compared to Opana and Opana ER - but was on them so long and wasn't about to go up again only to go down again. Now I'd be at 60mgs Opana or  80 M - but since I'm dropping to 60mgs Methadone tomorrow - I guess I'll see how I feel in a few days...UNLESS SOMEONE RESPONDS AND TELLS ME WHAT IN THE HELL TO DO!

Guess going to nothing but Clonzepam isn't the same as before since I  went to from one pain med - to another pain med - and have tried everything in the PDR. Doc would give me Narcs again - but I don't want any - I'd just be back on the Merry Go Round...

IF I HAVE TO - AND SOMEONE CAN EXPLAIN WHY THEY SAY "GO SLOW WHEN YOU TAPER OFF METHADONE - I'd listen.  But I'm not a heroin addict (and I found out a friend was and he just told me this and he has been on Methadone for 7 years and doesn't look like he's getting off it.  He thinks it's the best thing since sliced bread-yea, people still say that. LOL!)  I would take the time to go down but ONLY IF I HAVE TO - ONLY IF THERE' SOME REASON.  Of all the research everyone says - DO IT SLOW - BUT AGAIN  -WHY??? Why can't I just do it all at once - What can happen?  FYI Clonzapam is an anti-seizure med-so my BP is very low, have no panic attacks - but I'll leave it to the ones who know..... I HOPE SOMEONE ANSWERS ME AND THIS LONG DAMN NOTE-SO SORRY BUT WANTED TO GET IT ALL IN....

SORRY FOR THE LENGTH-AND ALL THE YADA YADA - BUT I REALLY AM THANKFUL AND GRATEFUL TO ANYONE AND EVERYONE WHO CAN GIVE ME SOME DIRECTION!  I JUST WANT OFF!

SOMEONE PLEASE HELP!  

[gnarly_1]

FIRST OFF PLEASE DONT POST TAPER PLANS IN THE OPEN FORUM ITS AGEIST THE GUIDELINE'S THE MODERATORS MAY PULL YOUR POST.... second mg to mg opana is not as strong as methadone ...opana is also a short acting opioid methadone is a full antagonist and has a long long 1/2 life there is no such thing as fast tapering off methadone unless you want to torcher yourself it takes 3 days to feel the drop in dose so your drop on monday will be felt on wenday it tricky to taper off the stuff ...I was on 150mg and did it in 1/2 the time the clinic wanted to go it took me 8 1/2 mo ......now if your desperate you can just jump off but the withdrawals will be horrific tapering as fast as you want to go your going ot feel it also you might get away with it at first in the higher doses but once your in the lower doses you will be forced to go slow or live in withdrawals your opana would have been a 5 to 7 day ordeal methadone can take months to get over its different for everyone but for most its a 90 day grind from your last does to feeling human again I wish I had better news fro you but I help a lot of people off this drug and there are no short cuts .....I dont suger coat it I have had members post 60 days after ther last dose asking when will they start to feel better....your best bet is to taper off slowly this is a race one by the tortuse not the hare you dident become an addict overnight you wont get better overnight ether no one would go on this drug knowing how hard the withdrawal is from it we can offer you support and encouragement but its going to take some time or expect to be real sick good luck and God bless........Gnarly      

[Tdefee]

Read my post "oh my God listen" I think that's what I wrote. But I just got off methadone a weeks ago & got on oxycontins to then begins suboxone. Well my God just be careful & do what I say!! Do not withdrawal too early & begins subs or they will throw you into the worst withdrawals you could ever wver imagine!!! My God I thought death sounded wonderful. If you haven't heard of suboxone, read up on them because they can be an excellent way off what your on! But you Have to experience heavy wd's first  my mistake.  I started the moment I felt anxiety and oh my god I went to hell & still haven't returned and it's day three. At least I am able to even write this cuz yesterday I wouldn't of been. I just think they have you on way too much methadone!!! Start taking a shorter half life med to transition to suboxone. That's the key. Check it out!!!