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I can't answer your question directly, but the question of tapering has been addressed before in this forum - several times, in fact. Browse through the archives and the other postings regarding Oxycontin - especially responses by Brian. He has written about it to others and given them some possible ways to do it. But - I must tell you - don't make it hard on yourself. The very BEST way to do it is with professional help - especially since you have other medical concerns.
Please keep posting - you'll find a lot of good people and good support on this board. Many of those who post here have been through or are currently going through withdrawal from Oxycontin - they'll be here to help you all the way.
Take care, and let us know how you're doing.
Sherri
Thank God I rarely take the Xanax! I probably take it .50 four times a month. I take it to sleep. I CANNOT take it during the day because it just makes me way to groggy. Thank you for your email. After seeing all the Xanax questions on this site I thank god that I rarely take it!
Then, out of sheer desperation I went to one of the clinics that our local teaching hospital (OHSU) has in the area. When i walked in I decided to lay all my cards on the table. I went in, I explained my history....how I've never been able to take a prescription as prescribed...how I've been fired from more Dr.'s than most people ever see...etc.
He did more for my pain than anyone ever. He prescribed a pain patch for me called Duragesic (fentenyl). It's like a stop smoking patch that I apply to my skin and for 3 days it delivers a measured dose of the BEST pain medication I've ever used. I'm currently wearing a 50 mcgh (micrograms per hour) size which means that I have two more sizes before I reach the top size...then they saay I can wear more than one at a time if I get to that point.
I have my life back!!! I can have sex, go golfing, water ski, and bowl all in the same day without winding up in the hospital for 3-4 days, I did it this weekend!! I sleep at night, I have an appetite again, and the best part for me is that I don't have to worry about pills. He is still prescribing me 7.5mg Percocet for breakthrough, but I usually wind up taking my whole months supply in a few days, so next month I'm gonna' tell him no more of those.
Anyway, for those of us tired of pills and trying to manage an unmanageable situation....maybe these can help you too!!!
Good luck everyone, from one grateful addict.
Bob
I finally got in to see the pain control clinic at our teaching hospital. In meeting with the pain control doc he explained to me how mechanical my pain is. I abhore the thought of any mor invasive treatments, but when he pointed out that I wouldn't ride my motorcycle with bad brakes unless I got them fixed, it really made sense. All of this means that I'm faced with one of several invasive procedures (ie; disc heating, "nerve burn", or the ever popular multi-level fusion). He also suggested steppin up the Duragesic from 50ugh to 75ugh, or just changing to 80-100mg of Oxycontin daily. I have no desire to change the patches for pills, but I'm still taking 7.5mg Percocets @ 3 per day and I have asked them to trade those for 2 20mg Oxcontin's so maybe I can get some sleep.
As for the docs and Fentanyl, every article that I've read never mentions the patches, they all refer to IV use of the anestesia form. However, my brother (a doc, and an addict himself), he says that when docs wanna get loaded it's Dilaudid or Fentanyl.
My sponsor says whatever needs to happen will happen, and all I can do is go with it, and clean my side of the street.
Peace!
ear Lindy, Please allow me to tell you a little story.But first, let me correct you on your dosage. They don't make oxycontin in 30mg.pilHEREls. Only 10mg [white]-- 20mg [salmon color] --- 40mg --yellow].T There's even 80mg pill now.I started doing pot,cigarettes and drink heavily at the tender age of 12. I am 38y/o. No Drs.
were willing to prescribe anything. I was shooting up 40 mg @
20 mg of oxycontin [oxymorphone] And 65 mg of methadone.I flew
to the East coast to get rapid detox .I need my warskate
ear Lindy, Please allow me to tell you a little story.But first, let me correct you on your dosage. They don't make oxycontin in 30mg.pilHEREls. Only 10mg [white]-- 20mg [salmon color] --- 40mg --yellow].T There's even 80mg pill now.I started doing pot,cigarettes and drink heavily at the tender age of 12. I am 38y/o. No Drs.
were willing to prescribe anything. I was shooting up 40 mg @
20 mg of oxycontin [oxymorphone] And 65 mg of methadone.I flew
to the East coast to get rapid detox .I need my warskate
ear Lindy, Please allow me to tell you a little story.But first, let me correct you on your dosage. They don't make oxycontin in 30mg.pilHEREls. Only 10mg [white]-- 20mg [salmon color] --- 40mg --yellow].T There's even 80mg pill now.I started doing pot,cigarettes and drink heavily at the tender age of 12. I am 38y/o. No Drs.
were willing to prescribe anything. I was shooting up 40 mg @
20 mg of oxycontin [oxymorphone] And 65 mg of methadone.I flew
to the East coast to get rapid detox .I need my warskate
I am a 29-yr-old quadriplegic who sought pain relief Sept. 98. My pain Dr. started me off on 2-4 OxyContin 10mgs tid or 3 times daily. It is common for both Oxycontin & MS Contin(morphine) to not only be used q12h, but also q8h or every 8 hrs. Over the next 2 yrs, I unwantingly earned an honorary degree in anesthesiology. I will quickly progress thru my many stages. I took about 100mgs of Oxy daily for a year and then became tolerant. It were as if Oxys were causing more pain than they were helping (studies have confirmed this unfortunate occurrence). Possibly do to being confined to a wheelchair, the pain persisted and was absolutely agonizing. After a year of use, my tolerance soared. I was prescribed 2-4 40mg Oxys 3 times daily, and I eagerly took them. I swallowed, chewed...12 40mg tablets(4 every eight hrs), or 480mgs of Oxycontin daily.
I was soon told by my Dr, who until then said nothing, that I had no choice but to have a morphine pump, technically called an intrathecal pump, put in or he would no longer help me. Atlast his motivating factor and long-term goal surfaced. These pumps put highly concentrated morphine directly into the spinal fluid. There is 100mgs of morphine per ml of solution in my pump, and 1 MG OF MORPHINE ADMINISTERED INTO THE SPINAL FLUID EQUALS 120MGS ORALLY!!!
Anyway I had the pump put in. My Dr. started me out at 25mgs (equivalent to 2500mgs orally) intrathecally. Within 1 month the pump had become infected with MRSA, a very dangerous/resistant staph infection only treatable with 1 anti-biotic called vancomycin. My Dr refused to admit it was infected and instead of removing it, turned it up so it was administering 55mgs of intrathecal(100-120 times more powerful than oral morph) morphine daily. He kept saying more meds would help. I had now been infected with spinal menengitis (because staph bacteria was being pumped into my spine by the intrathecal pump) for 10 weeks. I was very near death, but no one wanted to clean up his mess and they kept sending me back to him. I had to have my mom put me in my wheelchair and flee the hospital against medical advice-AMA-to search for help.
I ended up at OSU main hospital where they immediately removed and cultured the pump. It was positive for MRSA and had been infecting my CSF-cerebral spinal fluid.
THIS IS WHERE THOSE OF YOU WANTING TO WEEN DOWN OFF MEDS MAY BE HELPED. AFTER THEY TURNED OFF THE PUMP, I WAS PUT ON 220MGS OF IV MORPHINE AN HOUR. I WAS ON 5280MGS MORPHINE DAILY! I AM NOT JOKING! IT WAS THE MOST THE HOSPITAL'S PAIN SERVICE HAD EVER SEEN. If you do the math 55mgs intrathecally equals 550mgs epidurally which equals 5500mgs i.v. Because of the enormous amount of morphine, they switched me to dilaudid, or hydromorphone, in my IV which is approx. 10 times more potent than morphine. This way they could use less ml with more mgs and didn't have to refill my IV pump all the time.
Now down to some better numbers. After 4 weeks of IV antibiotics and massive weening, I was released on 500mgs Oramorph 3 times a day, or 1500mgs a day. Depending on how aggressive or determined you are to quit, 10-20% every 4-5 days is appropriate and not difficult. I reduced my intake by 100mgs every 4 days. I was released Sept. 8th on 1500mg and today am on 180mg MS Contin-60mg three times a day. Keep in mind I'm a quadriplegic and had many,many,many other struggles while weening. I couldn't just get up and take a drive, go for a walk, etc. In fact I can't drive at all! I was trapped!
As for those of you on 10, 20, 40, 80 and yes now there are 160mgs Oxys or 15, 30, 60, 100 and 200MG MS Contins(Morphine Sulfate CONTINuous), just quit taking one at a time 7 days apart. The worst withdrawal is gone in 3-4 days. I promise you won't die. Also if you bite a 10mg or 20mg in half, you would only get an instant 5 or 10mgs. This is no different than taking 1 or 2 percocet. If that's what it takes to ween yourself off this poison, go for it. Just make sure you don't abuse your meds by chewing them.
If I can do it, you can too. Just set your mind to it.
Many prayers,
Chris
***@****
I am a 29-yr-old quadriplegic who sought pain relief Sept. 98. My pain Dr. started me off on 2-4 OxyContin 10mgs tid or 3 times daily. It is common for both Oxycontin & MS Contin(morphine) to not only be used q12h, but also q8h or every 8 hrs. Over the next 2 yrs, I unwantingly earned an honorary degree in anesthesiology. I will quickly progress thru my many stages. I took about 100mgs of Oxy daily for a year and then became tolerant. It were as if Oxys were no longer working and causing more pain than they were helping (studies have confirmed this unfortunate occurrence). Possibly do to being confined to a wheelchair where my interactions are limited, the pain persisted, worsened and was absolutely agonizing. After a year of use, my tolerance soared. I was prescribed 2-4 40mg Oxys 3 times daily, and I eagerly took them. I swallowed, chewed...twelve 40mg tablets(4 every eight hrs), or 480mgs of Oxycontin daily.
I was soon told by my Dr, who until then said nothing, that I had no choice but to have a morphine pump, technically called an intrathecal pump, put in or he would no longer help me. At last his motivating factor and long-term goal surfaced. These pumps put highly concentrated morphine directly into the spinal fluid. There is 100mgs of morphine per ml of solution in my pump, and 1 MG OF MORPHINE ADMINISTERED INTO THE SPINAL FLUID EQUALS 100+MGS ORALLY!!!
Anyway I had the pump put in. My Dr. started me out at 25mgs (equivalent to 2500mgs orally) intrathecally. Within 1 month the pump had become infected with MRSA, a very dangerous/resistant staph infection only treatable with 1 anti-biotic called vancomycin. My Dr refused to admit it was infected and instead of removing it, turned it up so it was administering 55mgs of intrathecal(100-120 times more powerful than oral morph) morphine daily. He kept saying more meds would help. I had now been infected with spinal menengitis (because staph bacteria was being pumped into my spine by the intrathecal pump) for 10 weeks. I was very near death, but no one wanted to clean up his mess and they kept sending me back to him. I had to have my mom put me in my wheelchair and flee the hospital against medical advice-AMA-to search for help.
I ended up at OSU main hospital where they immediately removed and cultured the pump. It was positive for MRSA and had been infecting my CSF-cerebral spinal fluid.
THIS IS WHERE THOSE OF YOU WANTING TO WEAN DOWN OFF MEDS MAY BE HELPED. AFTER THEY TURNED OFF THE PUMP, I WAS PUT ON 220MGS OF IV MORPHINE AN HOUR. I WAS ON 5280MGS MORPHINE DAILY! I AM NOT JOKING! IT WAS THE MOST THE HOSPITAL'S PAIN SERVICE HAD EVER SEEN. If you do the math 55mgs intrathecally equals 550mgs epidurally which equals 5500mgs i.v. Because of the enormous volume of morphine, they switched me to dilaudid, or hydromorphone, in my IV which is approx. 10 times more potent than morphine. This way they could use less ml with more mgs and didn't have to refill my IV pump all the time.
Now down to some better numbers. After 4 weeks of IV antibiotics and massive weaning, I was released on 500mgs Oramorph 3 times a day, or 1500mgs a day. Depending on how aggressive or determined you are to quit, 10-20% every 4-5 days is appropriate and not difficult. I reduced my intake by 100mgs every 4 days. I was released Sept. 8th on 1500mg and today am on 180mg MS Contin-60mg three times a day. Keep in mind I'm a quadriplegic and had many,many,many other struggles while weaning. I couldn't just get up and take a drive, go for a walk, etc. In fact I can't drive at all! I was trapped!
As for those of you on 10, 20, 40, 80 and yes now there are 160mgs Oxys or 15, 30, 60, 100 and 200MG MS Contins(Morphine Sulfate CONTINuous), just quit taking one at a time 7 days apart. The worst withdrawal is gone in 3-4 days. I promise you won't die. Also if you bite a 10mg or 20mg in half, you would only get an instant 5 or 10mgs. This is no different than taking 1 or 2 percocet. If that's what it takes to wean yourself off this poison, go for it. Just make sure you don't abuse your meds by chewing them.
If I can do it, you can too. Just set your mind to it.
Many prayers,
Chris
***@****
I am a 29-yr-old quadriplegic who sought pain relief Sept. 98. My pain Dr. started me off on 2-4 OxyContin 10mgs tid or 3 times daily. It is common for both Oxycontin & MS Contin(morphine) to not only be used q12h, but also q8h or every 8 hrs. Over the next 2 yrs, I unwantingly earned an honorary degree in anesthesiology. I will quickly progress thru my many stages. I took about 100mgs of Oxy daily for a year and then became tolerant. It were as if Oxys were no longer working and causing more pain than they were helping (studies have confirmed this unfortunate occurrence). Possibly do to being confined to a wheelchair where my interactions are limited, the pain persisted, worsened and was absolutely agonizing. After a year of use, my tolerance soared. I was prescribed 2-4 40mg Oxys 3 times daily, and I eagerly took them. I swallowed, chewed...twelve 40mg tablets(4 every eight hrs), or 480mgs of Oxycontin daily.
I was soon told by my Dr, who until then said nothing, that I had no choice but to have a morphine pump, technically called an intrathecal pump, put in or he would no longer help me. At last his motivating factor and long-term goal surfaced. These pumps put highly concentrated morphine directly into the spinal fluid. There is 100mgs of morphine per ml of solution in my pump, and 1 MG OF MORPHINE ADMINISTERED INTO THE SPINAL FLUID EQUALS 100+MGS ORALLY!!!
Anyway I had the pump put in. My Dr. started me out at 25mgs (equivalent to 2500mgs orally) intrathecally. Within 1 month the pump had become infected with MRSA, a very dangerous/resistant staph infection only treatable with 1 anti-biotic called vancomycin. My Dr refused to admit it was infected and instead of removing it, turned it up so it was administering 55mgs of intrathecal(100-120 times more powerful than oral morph) morphine daily. He kept saying more meds would help. I had now been infected with spinal menengitis (because staph bacteria was being pumped into my spine by the intrathecal pump) for 10 weeks. I was very near death, but no one wanted to clean up his mess and they kept sending me back to him. I had to have my mom put me in my wheelchair and flee the hospital against medical advice-AMA-to search for help.
I ended up at OSU main hospital where they immediately removed and cultured the pump. It was positive for MRSA and had been infecting my CSF-cerebral spinal fluid.
THIS IS WHERE THOSE OF YOU WANTING TO WEAN DOWN OFF MEDS MAY BE HELPED. AFTER THEY TURNED OFF THE PUMP, I WAS PUT ON 220MGS OF IV MORPHINE AN HOUR. I WAS ON 5280MGS MORPHINE DAILY! I AM NOT JOKING! IT WAS THE MOST THE HOSPITAL'S PAIN SERVICE HAD EVER SEEN. If you do the math 55mgs intrathecally equals 550mgs epidurally which equals 5500mgs i.v. Because of the enormous volume of morphine, they switched me to dilaudid, or hydromorphone, in my IV which is approx. 10 times more potent than morphine. This way they could use less ml with more mgs and didn't have to refill my IV pump all the time.
Now down to some better numbers. After 4 weeks of IV antibiotics and massive weaning, I was released on 500mgs Oramorph 3 times a day, or 1500mgs a day. Depending on how aggressive or determined you are to quit, 10-20% every 4-5 days is appropriate and not difficult. I reduced my intake by 100mgs every 4 days. I was released Sept. 8th on 1500mg and today am on 180mg MS Contin-60mg three times a day. Keep in mind I'm a quadriplegic and had many,many,many other struggles while weaning. I couldn't just get up and take a drive, go for a walk, etc. In fact I can't drive at all! I was trapped!
As for those of you on 10, 20, 40, 80 and yes now there are 160mgs Oxys or 15, 30, 60, 100 and 200MG MS Contins(Morphine Sulfate CONTINuous), just quit taking one at a time 7 days apart. The worst withdrawal is gone in 3-4 days. I promise you won't die. Also if you bite a 10mg or 20mg in half, you would only get an instant 5 or 10mgs. This is no different than taking 1 or 2 percocet. If that's what it takes to wean yourself off this poison, go for it. Just make sure you don't abuse your meds by chewing them.
If I can do it, you can too. Just set your mind to it.
Many prayers,
Chris
***@****
I am a 29-yr-old quadriplegic who sought pain relief Sept. 98. My pain Dr. started me off on 2-4 OxyContin 10mgs tid or 3 times daily. It is common for both Oxycontin & MS Contin(morphine) to not only be used q12h, but also q8h or every 8 hrs. Over the next 2 yrs, I unwantingly earned an honorary degree in anesthesiology. I will quickly progress thru my many stages. I took about 100mgs of Oxy daily for a year and then became tolerant. It were as if Oxys were no longer working and causing more pain than they were helping (studies have confirmed this unfortunate occurrence). Possibly do to being confined to a wheelchair where my interactions are limited, the pain persisted, worsened and was absolutely agonizing. After a year of use, my tolerance soared. I was prescribed 2-4 40mg Oxys 3 times daily, and I eagerly took them. I swallowed, chewed...twelve 40mg tablets(4 every eight hrs), or 480mgs of Oxycontin daily.
I was soon told by my Dr, who until then said nothing, that I had no choice but to have a morphine pump, technically called an intrathecal pump, put in or he would no longer help me. At last his motivating factor and long-term goal surfaced. These pumps put highly concentrated morphine directly into the spinal fluid. There is 100mgs of morphine per ml of solution in my pump, and 1 MG OF MORPHINE ADMINISTERED INTO THE SPINAL FLUID EQUALS 100+MGS ORALLY!!!
Anyway I had the pump put in. My Dr. started me out at 25mgs (equivalent to 2500mgs orally) intrathecally. Within 1 month the pump had become infected with MRSA, a very dangerous/resistant staph infection only treatable with 1 anti-biotic called vancomycin. My Dr refused to admit it was infected and instead of removing it, turned it up so it was administering 55mgs of intrathecal(100-120 times more powerful than oral morph) morphine daily. He kept saying more meds would help. I had now been infected with spinal menengitis (because staph bacteria was being pumped into my spine by the intrathecal pump) for 10 weeks. I was very near death, but no one wanted to clean up his mess and they kept sending me back to him. I had to have my mom put me in my wheelchair and flee the hospital against medical advice-AMA-to search for help.
I ended up at OSU main hospital where they immediately removed and cultured the pump. It was positive for MRSA and had been infecting my CSF-cerebral spinal fluid.
THIS IS WHERE THOSE OF YOU WANTING TO WEAN DOWN OFF MEDS MAY BE HELPED. AFTER THEY TURNED OFF THE PUMP, I WAS PUT ON 220MGS OF IV MORPHINE AN HOUR. I WAS ON 5280MGS MORPHINE DAILY! I AM NOT JOKING! IT WAS THE MOST THE HOSPITAL'S PAIN SERVICE HAD EVER SEEN. If you do the math 55mgs intrathecally equals 550mgs epidurally which equals 5500mgs i.v. Because of the enormous volume of morphine, they switched me to dilaudid, or hydromorphone, in my IV which is approx. 10 times more potent than morphine. This way they could use less ml with more mgs and didn't have to refill my IV pump all the time.
Now down to some better numbers. After 4 weeks of IV antibiotics and massive weaning, I was released on 500mgs Oramorph 3 times a day, or 1500mgs a day. Depending on how aggressive or determined you are to quit, 10-20% every 4-5 days is appropriate and not difficult. I reduced my intake by 100mgs every 4 days. I was released Sept. 8th on 1500mg and today am on 180mg MS Contin-60mg three times a day. Keep in mind I'm a quadriplegic and had many,many,many other struggles while weaning. I couldn't just get up and take a drive, go for a walk, etc. In fact I can't drive at all! I was trapped!
As for those of you on 10, 20, 40, 80 and yes now there are 160mgs Oxys or 15, 30, 60, 100 and 200MG MS Contins(Morphine Sulfate CONTINuous), just quit taking one at a time 7 days apart. The worst withdrawal is gone in 3-4 days. I promise you won't die. Also if you bite a 10mg or 20mg in half, you would only get an instant 5 or 10mgs. This is no different than taking 1 or 2 percocet. If that's what it takes to wean yourself off this poison, go for it. Just make sure you don't abuse your meds by chewing them.
If I can do it, you can too. Just set your mind to it.
Many prayers,
Chris
***@****
Thanks for your comments on oxy contin. I have been taking loratabs for about 6 months and they were not helping. It was then that a friend told me and gave me an oxy contin. I thought this was the answer to all my prayers. I knew that these type drugs were very addictive but told my self it was better to have an addiction than to live like I was living. Now I have changed my mind. My doctor would not prescribe oxys so I have been buying them on the street for some time now. They are very expensive. I cannot understand how people who don't need them can get these powerful drugs. I buy from people who have scripts for them and I buy the whole script at one time. I started taking one 20mg in the morning and one at about 5 or 6 in the evening. Then I started abusing them. Up to 10 20mgs a day. Then I ran out and experienced some wicked side effects. Flu like symtoms with vomiting and so on. Damm, I thought I was going to die. I really want to get off these things and really need to do this myself. I currently have reduced my dosage back down to one in the morning and one in the evening. Iam going to take your advice and after seven days, start taking one a day and then half a one. Anyway, thanks for your comments and to anyone who is thinking about starting oxy contins,,, Think long and hard. If their is any other way I would not advise it.... Rick
We're at the point of desperation now. To keep him from going through withdrawals bad enough to either kill him or cause him to kill himself, I tracked down some low-dose percocet and have been monitoring his intake of those, but even so, he's still taking close to 100 mgs a day. If anyone knows any way he can get help/get suboxone to get him past this, we'd be forever grateful to hear from you.
Nancy
I used Sub to detox and it really helped me.. took it for 10 days and never looked back.. its been over a month..
I feel for you and your family and I want to help..
Hi this is pre-written for new people… hope this helps:
It’s good to come clean with your doc concerning your desire to get off. Ask him to prescribe clonidine, (not klonopin), and ativan. These will help with sleep, RLS and anxiety. These are best to try before formal detox and drugs like Suboxone. I had to do formal detox because I tried everything else, including alcohol to get off and nothing worked for me. Keep in mind that when you try… make it a good one! Have some time off of work if you can… maybe a four day weekend or more. Make the last day of work without any drugs, because the first day is usually the easiest. Try your best to get clean and stay clean because the other methods require more potent drugs and you have to come off of those. I am still on Suboxone and am a little worried about that… It does work well but the jury is out on, “At what Cost.” I also learned while in detox, that the mind can psychosomatically create pain to “get’ the drug. Another was that healing while using opiates greatly diminishes. I would have sores on my hands that would take way too long to heal.
Best
Fish
I have to say this from the bottom of my heart, Please do not keep playing around with these drugs they are very powerful ….. kinda like heroin in a pill and just as hard to get off once you attain the, "addicted" status.
I have some sort of weird degeneration of my knees. The cartilage is basically breaking down and the bone is grinding horn to horn. They can't do any surgery because I have a weight problem (Which I am seeing a trainer and a dietician in an attempt to fix the problem). I can't just sit around either as I have a baby daughter that I am the stay at home parent. I come from a dark history as my father was a hardcore herion addict and my mother was an alcoholic. I am terrified of being an addict but I am also confronted with terrible pain everytime I wake. I weep sometimes from the pain and sometimes I weep because of the sorrow over having to take these pain medications. Right now I am 60 mg of Hydromorphone Contin with breakthru meds of Hydromorphone 8 mg times 2 when needed. The thing is that it is needed so bad at times that I run out of breakthru far too soon. It was so bad this weekend that I resorted to taking my hydromorphone Contin and taking some of my old Oxycodone Contin 80 mgs because I had no breakthru. When I started I was only on Oxycodone Contin 20 mgs and 5 mg of Oxycodone for breakthru. I am terrified. I know that addiction can be something that is handed down from generations to generation. But I am trapped by the pain. My doctor has told me not to worry about addiction as I am not using the medication irresponsibly.
What is my point, nothing I guess, I think I just needed to talk.
I'm going to start weaning down first. My hope is to get down to around 2-3 80's a day. My goal is to be there within a couple of weeks. After that I'll shoot for a new goal. I don't know, am I fooling myself? I'll soon find out.
I truly hope this works, because I sense some terrible things about to happen to me if I don't get things under control.
When I go for medical help, they make me feel like a criminal trying to score more drugs. On my last visit to the doctors I walked out of his office feeling like I'm completely screwed! First of all, he didn't believe the amount of medication I told him I was taking. Second, he treated me like I had other intentions then getting help. Like I was there to score more drugs. I ended up walking out with more questions then when I had arrived! I was so frustrated, I walked out to the car & snorted two 80's in the parking lot.
If somebody out there has any ideas, I'm all ears. I'm so frightened of the path that lies in front of me. But I must try something, if not for me than for my three girls & my loving wife!
Denso