Well after all my whinning..

I just wanted to say sorry guys and also thank you sooo much for you're help/advice exspecially FLaddic she's been wonderful and has helped me sooo much w/the best advice!

I had to cave and I took 1mg of subutex and feel 100% better I refused to take any kind of opiate even though that is close when I could have stuck it out possibly, but i'm just to scared of how long it's going to last and I was extremly depressed....On that note I'm finally going out with my girl friends tonight and can not wait it's been since march since i've seen these ones and they don't do any drugs whatsoever I actually haven't even gone out OUT since then....I feel great and am so happy that i'm actually going to get some of my sanity back from coming out of hiding....I get to get all dressed up and pretty it makes me feel so good about myself today, lets see what tommorow brings AND NO PILLS!!!!!!!!!!!!

[DogtownEVH]

rock on!

[No name22]

But i'm still gonna bit*h about my fluish thing I have going on ugh dammit if I never got this nasty virus I would have never taken ANYTHING today :((((

[justlikeyou]

"if I never got this nasty virus I would have never taken ANYTHING today :(((("


there will regularly and always be good reasons / excuses for us to 'use' somthing.

living clean requires that we deal with these times 'without' using.

[No name22]

Oh OI hear ya I most definatly wouldn't have taken anything...I was having some not much w/d's and turns out it's more a virus than anything, but you're right anything to take something BUT i didn;t take a pill i took subutex not that, that justifies anything....