Well last night I was offered 2 5mg norco and I took them... Today is day 1 again:(

[Luckygirl05]

I should have been on day 4 but my sister came over to help with the kids and she saw me in pretty bad shape. She handed me 2 5mg norco and I thought I would have said no but I took them. Today I am back to square 1... This is now my 1st day clean, again. I feel so guilty and ashamed. I felt normal for about an hour or two then the w/d symptoms came back. I took a .25 xanax to help me sleep but I feel like I was awake off and on all night. I had dreams about finding a stash of pills in my pocket and just taking them all at once. It's weird that I dream about pills.. Have any of you ever done this??? I still want your support, I feel pretty unworthy of it at the moment though... I hope I can make it through this... Christina

[jamajessie]

Lee said everything I wanted to say.


I hope you join us again soon. Your a beautiful smart young woman. I really hope your okay. If you relapsed it's okay we all have done it( I've done it at least 10 times myself). You have nothing to be ashamed of. You haven't let anyone down. Please post soon.

Good Luck
Jessica

[leeisgettingclean]

please let us know what is going on. We are here for you-----even if you have slipped back into full blown addition---thats alright, you need help and you have people here falling over to help you. Do not let shame hold you back---thats part of your addiction---makes you feel dirty, shamfull, not good enough----Well guess what, IMO most if not all people here know the reality of relapse and the feelings that come with it---However, I was once told the only bad relapse are the ones you dont learn from and the ones you dont come back from------So you come back and help us all by teaching us what you learned. Good Luck, Lee

[paintedangel]

Sweetie the very FIRST thing you MUST do is to tell your sister and anyone you see regularly that does drugs to either stay away or never bing them around  you and let them know you are SERIOUS! Some people think they are trying to help and there are some who want to sabotage your sobriety. Stay FAR FAR away from that last type ...they are all over. My thoughts are with you kiddo! If the wds are too much ask your dr about suboxone....My wds were totally gone within 90 minutes !

[steve851]

SO YOU MDE A MISTAKE I DID MILLIONS SO WHAT SCREW THE HYDROCODONE,OXYCODONE,ALPRAZOLAM,DIAZAPAM THEY WILL MAKE YOU THE SHITTIEST PERSON EVEN IF U R THE QUEEN U WILL FALL SCREW DOCTORS THEY WHANT MONEY STAY AWAY  MOTRIN,ALIVE  EXEDRIN ISD GOOD TO  IF YOU ARE SCARED TO WITHDRAWLL GO TO A DOCTOR AND GO ON THE ...SUBOXONE...TREATMENT 1 PILL 2 TIMES A DAY AND YOU ARE SAIN NOT ****** UP........

[jamajessie]

Hey keep your head up! So you slipped up, so what! We all do it. You know you tried and that is what matters.  It will take time to get it right.

[Back2Me]

Sooooo did u totally fall off of the wagon? If so it happens. Don't feel too bad about it.

[sway1]

admit you are powerless. ask for help from whoever it is you pray to, to take your will. as long as you keep your will........you will be miserable. i am so proud of you for being honest and telling on yourself. way to go! you are in my prayers already. hang in. peace, sway

[Back2Me]

Look at it as you still have your clean time of 3 days and now if you go three more an screw up again (not that you will or should but IF) your ratio would be 6 days clean to 2.  That's still way better than you were before. So look on the bright side of it and don't give up! Consider it your own unique taper plan :)

[moonshyne777]

Hey don't be too hard on yourself. Wds are really rough and tempation is great but even  harder when someone literally puts them in your hand. Your sister may have meant well but you should tell her not to bring over any pills. You have to let her know that you need to stay away from all opiates in order to get through the wds. Those couple pills were just a slip. Just keep going and know that it will get easier soon.  

[gnarly_1]

HI Christina ....ok you slipped ...your not the first on to break down and take a couple of pills when your in the middle of withdrawals...on the + side you stoped b/4 it began to take over your life again...this is merely a bump in the road ...on the down side it set you back a bit in your withdrawals and it can be devastating for your attitude ...right now theirs no room in the equation for guilt or shame ...we need to beet this thing and a positive attitude is what its going to take...so take a couple of deep breaths ...tell yourself this wont happen again and dust yourself off and get back down to it again..YOU CAN DO THIS...
you need to tell your sister not to offer you anything to help...im sure her heart was in the right place but all it did was mess things up...you will be fine I don't think 2 pills is going to set you back to day 1 again but it may prolong things a bit...its no fun being in withdrawals but you can make it thew them....just hang in there...try praying to God when it gets tuff....this helped me..he all you got when it 3am and your up shaking
just remember this is only temporary and the symptoms will eaz up in a couple of days...your attitude has been great don't let this slip ruin it for you...this is 1/3 physical 2/3 mental so keep a win win attitude going...I know by your previous posts your serious about making it and I have a lot of confidence that you will from reading your posts...I have watched a lot of people do this and you have what it takes to get the job done...this would also be a good time to hook up with some aftercare like N/A or A/A..conslors are good to but you could probably find a meeting in your area by googling one ...this is a critical part of recovery that often gets over looked ...it helps give you the tools and teach you the skills to live a clean and sober lifestyle it will also put you together with some people to call next time you feel like taking a pill and they will all understand what the whole withdrawal thing is about and can help you with that also...the main thing here is try not to get discouraged...do something proactive in your recovery so it dosent happen again....we will all still be here for you and I will do everything I can to help you break free of this addiction....good luck and God bless....... Gnarly      

[dominosarah]

Hopefully you will let your sister know that you are an addict.  I wouldnt allow ANY of my family or friends bring drugs into my home.  Keep fighting this as you can do it......sara

[onthefence]

it takes a whole life change, and for 90% of ppl (cuz i have seen some that stop and are truly happy w/o long term aftercare) of ppl need to be involved with alot of their time, and self, with aftercare ,  (meetings & social events centered around & with group support , about sobriety & staying sober). Whiteknuckeling it only lasts a short time usually.

i have seen ppl after a year or so, gradually stop being so involved aftercare , and make it (the longest being 34 years & counting) but they still hit a meeting now & then, and are forever involved with helping new to sobriety ppl, as that is what helps them to stay sober themselves,.
I can tell you this though , alot more of those ppl that started grad. leaving aftercare, relapsed than made it.
just what I have observed over the years, ofcourse everybody is differen't and this is just a pattern i noticed ther were exceptions both ways.

[LeaAnn807]

You can do this.  Just dust off and start fresh.  It will make the WDs a little longer, but that's not the most important thing.  You need to be getting some aftercare.  Can you go to a 12 step meeting?  If you had been getting some kind of care and support, you might not have taken those pills.  At least you would have had someone to call???!!!!!

: ) Chin up, girlie!

[laurel453]

hi, Christina

as lucyred said you've made wd's longer ...as if they weren't long enough..  but keep fighting, we're addicts, we're looking for any chance to use ... we must see the red signals beforehand and stop at the moment we can.

maybe you can speak with your sister ?
otherwise you'll find yourself in the same situation sooner than later ...

good luck and keep walking :)

[lucyred68]

Hey hun, don't beat yourself up too bad.  i did the same thing almost 3 years ago when i quit methadone, norco and xanax all at the same time.  it was a setback to be sure, but not clear back to like day 1.  just added a couple of days to the very long wd's that methadone causes.  with the norcos, you will be through it all much quicker.  hang in there, you can make it.  i"ll be praying for strength to get through it all.  Lucy