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Well this is poo.....
Day four once more and not too concerned with the words "I will imbibe never again". I was back to 60-70 mg doses, proving what science has taught me. I'm still not sure what the magnetism has consistently been. False sense of security? Boredom? Energy? Have I become so complacent in my life that this artificial rush makes the day more eventful? I am liar. Period. Sure, when I get a terrible headache
Vicki vickster! Though I am just being myself and open with honesty, I do see where I may be misunderstood. I shall dial it back a bit. It is once clear conscious is achieved that I might be humbled by my openness. I do apologize if I have offended or caused anyone additional difficulties in their quest. I extend hand and heart in aid to all that believe I have something to offer them.
Your honesty is with value, graciously accepted. Unbiased criticism is the best!
Your honesty is with value, graciously accepted. Unbiased criticism is the best!
I have the face of Angelina and the body of Victoria...no one said. Ever.
You do come off a little full of yourself, Poochie. And it's fun that you like to flex your mental muscle, but remember: Getting clean is a serious proposition and although I know you're not making light of this fact, some might misunderstand your intentions here...
It sounds like the kids are growing and having a great time with Dad...Hope you stay on track this time!
You do come off a little full of yourself, Poochie. And it's fun that you like to flex your mental muscle, but remember: Getting clean is a serious proposition and although I know you're not making light of this fact, some might misunderstand your intentions here...
It sounds like the kids are growing and having a great time with Dad...Hope you stay on track this time!
Haven't lefty! Popped a couple excedrine and if it isn't surpressed in an hour......benedryl will be my pal. Sleep it off. I want to give you my thoughts on my attachment. I ask that my words not be misread as cocky. I have a body that is about 80% Brad Pitt in Fight Club and 20% David Beckham. I reached this whilst swallowing pills. Boy, what would I look like without? I hate to not be able to workout. When I feel I can't......pop'em! All better.....or??? Temporarily better. Maybe just worse because of the damage I'm doing. I've got some dreams, aspirations that need addressed. They're extremely important. Its the road I'm going to try and traverse.
So you enjoy the humorous approach? I can entertain all day. Here, try this. If the apple doesn't fall far from the tree........my oldest just came running, screaming that I was under arrest! The charges are of no matter. He was attempting to arrest me while butt nekkid, wearing a Storm Trooper mask.
Time to build a fire and relax a bit. May you all find the strength within yourselves or within the help cemented in this community/forum to break the chains of deceitful desire.
So you enjoy the humorous approach? I can entertain all day. Here, try this. If the apple doesn't fall far from the tree........my oldest just came running, screaming that I was under arrest! The charges are of no matter. He was attempting to arrest me while butt nekkid, wearing a Storm Trooper mask.
Time to build a fire and relax a bit. May you all find the strength within yourselves or within the help cemented in this community/forum to break the chains of deceitful desire.
Yes, you should stick around this time. If I smell smoke, I'll know you went out or got distracted...
Honestly, how else can I put it into perspective? Poo is certainly the most gentle description of such situations.
Sony afternoon was a bit difficult. Apparently my emotional response to life's pain and pleasure is skewed a bit. Attended a funeral this afternoon. I had no craving, but my thoughts were "wow, this most certainly could've been easier should I possessed 60mgs of euphoria. I allowed myself to feel, space out....feel a lil more, space out.....took it as I could. My melon has been a lil achy, it does this as the barometric changes shift. So I went for a 3-3 1/2 mile run. Homemade dinner in the crockpot. I've kept busy and productive. Mainly, I'd have to make a drive for anything harder than excedrine......and frankly......POO! I'll put a fire in the fireplace. Then, I can't leave no matter the urge. It hurts now. I need to hurry on that blaze!
Oh, I guess I'm not that bad of a human. I did leave my boys home during the funeral with a Hooters waitress. She's putting herself through school. She's absolutely gorgeous. I love that girl so much. I met her when she was approximately two years old. I was seventeen. By all accounts, she is my little sister, and I protect her as such. Proud of everything she has become! Now, what dad gets his boys a Hooters babysitter? THIS GUY!
Now before I get back to our regularly scheduled Daddy vs Sons tickle fight, I will certainly come back and give additional information on how I make my withdrawal so minimal if anyone is curious. I can be more specific if requested, but to put it simply....
Lots of water
Lots of green tea with local honey
protein shakes
Exercise exercise exercise exercise and more exercise! Single most important element. When you have muscle aches, do an exercise that signals blood to that area. What I would add to that Thomas recipe everyone seems to recommend........yoga.
If you need more, I'll stick around longer this time. Maybe it will help me.
Thanks again everyone!
Sony afternoon was a bit difficult. Apparently my emotional response to life's pain and pleasure is skewed a bit. Attended a funeral this afternoon. I had no craving, but my thoughts were "wow, this most certainly could've been easier should I possessed 60mgs of euphoria. I allowed myself to feel, space out....feel a lil more, space out.....took it as I could. My melon has been a lil achy, it does this as the barometric changes shift. So I went for a 3-3 1/2 mile run. Homemade dinner in the crockpot. I've kept busy and productive. Mainly, I'd have to make a drive for anything harder than excedrine......and frankly......POO! I'll put a fire in the fireplace. Then, I can't leave no matter the urge. It hurts now. I need to hurry on that blaze!
Oh, I guess I'm not that bad of a human. I did leave my boys home during the funeral with a Hooters waitress. She's putting herself through school. She's absolutely gorgeous. I love that girl so much. I met her when she was approximately two years old. I was seventeen. By all accounts, she is my little sister, and I protect her as such. Proud of everything she has become! Now, what dad gets his boys a Hooters babysitter? THIS GUY!
Now before I get back to our regularly scheduled Daddy vs Sons tickle fight, I will certainly come back and give additional information on how I make my withdrawal so minimal if anyone is curious. I can be more specific if requested, but to put it simply....
Lots of water
Lots of green tea with local honey
protein shakes
Exercise exercise exercise exercise and more exercise! Single most important element. When you have muscle aches, do an exercise that signals blood to that area. What I would add to that Thomas recipe everyone seems to recommend........yoga.
If you need more, I'll stick around longer this time. Maybe it will help me.
Thanks again everyone!
I'm still laughing over " Well this is poo"....
POO?? An understatement to be sure...
POO?? An understatement to be sure...
Though soft, truer words have not been spoken. An imposter! Dead hit. Yes, I love it. It caresses me in darkness and excites me upon light. All the while it robs me slowly.
I've perpetuated such a facade for what feels like eternity. The difficulty is dialing back to simpler times while maintaining the hectic life as a doting husband, loving father and endless friend to all that seek a life of health and fitness. I've helped so many attain lifestyle goals........yet fail myself repeatedly. I will ponder and engulf myself in your recommendations. Its no way to live... I applaud your unwavering efforts in being an anonymous friend.
I've perpetuated such a facade for what feels like eternity. The difficulty is dialing back to simpler times while maintaining the hectic life as a doting husband, loving father and endless friend to all that seek a life of health and fitness. I've helped so many attain lifestyle goals........yet fail myself repeatedly. I will ponder and engulf myself in your recommendations. Its no way to live... I applaud your unwavering efforts in being an anonymous friend.
An imposter in your own life...I get that and understand completely. We use because we like it. Period.
Is there anything you could like MORE? Sometimes, changing our mindset helps and not thinking about the pills In a romantic way certainly helps! Many times, realizing and confronting our use and the reasons behind it goes a long way in getting on the sober road.
I'm pretty sure that a horrible withdrawal experience does nothing to kill the beast within. Also, the meds do perpetuate those headaches...
Stay in touch here...
Is there anything you could like MORE? Sometimes, changing our mindset helps and not thinking about the pills In a romantic way certainly helps! Many times, realizing and confronting our use and the reasons behind it goes a long way in getting on the sober road.
I'm pretty sure that a horrible withdrawal experience does nothing to kill the beast within. Also, the meds do perpetuate those headaches...
Stay in touch here...
They certainly do help. But, the headaches and the "headaches" become more often. Withdrawal for me as I've mentioned previously .....not a big deal. I've never slept well and the sweat is annoying, but tolerable. If each subsequent withdrawal could be as draining as the first........maybe I would think twice. I think I really need a change of latitude. My fam deserves better. Though no one has a real clue. A true closet case, quite the actor, performer if you will. An extremely high functioning abuser. Energy wasted on ridiculousness.
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