What can I expect?

Hello all- I am starting to get nervous, scared, anxious and excited all at once.  Its actually the most I have actually FELT in loooong time.  I have posted over the past few days about my repeated attempts at stopping the opiates and reapeated failures all the while my doses have increased and increased to extremely scary levels.  With the support of my husband I finally reached out, made phone calls and found a facility that my ins covers to detox.  I leave 2moro, appt is 10am.  I have never been away from my 4kids or husband for this long EVER. I am not only nervous about that on top of the treatment.  I have heard so many pro's and con's about sub or meth used during treatment and this clinic uses sub.  I'm at the point where the amount of pills I have been taking is getting very dangerous so I am willing to do whatever it takes to get back to being the wife and mother that my family deserves.  I just want to live and feel life again.... like another board member encouraged me with ;o).  But really, I am scared to death.  Can anyone who has detoxed in a facility give me a heads up on what to expect?  What is something you brought with you or wished you had that will help while I am there?  I have 4kids so as you can imagine- I have never had ANY "me" time... and this scares me to have so much downtime while there.  I understand that there will be therapy and counseling and groups probably but....  I dont know I'm just afraid of being so "raw" and being amongst strangers.... I am truly not normally a "whiney baby" and I am thankful for this opportunity to get help... I'm just very nervous. I think it may feel good to be with others of all ages who are suffering with addiction... to share my story as well as learn from others. Open to any advice....

[Ella789]

Please, don't be afraid.  Go into it with an open heart and see how everything works.  You are not the first person to be there and you won't be the last.  You will be okay.  I will be thinking of you and am so glad you're going to get the help you need to kick the opiates for good!

Best wishes,  PM me anytime and let me know how it is going for you!

Hugs
Ella

[tylersblueeyedmama]

I have not gone into a facility, but just like Ella said, go into with an open mind :)  You are doing the right thing!  I know you are scared and nervous about going and leaving your children and your husband, but things will work out :)  I wish you the best of luck and I hope to here from you while in there, if you are allowed!

Everything will work out :)

[TysonRed]

Really go into the treatment with a positive outlook on the work its going to take to get better. I know its probably impossible for you to not think and worry about your kids while your gone, but this really needs to the time where you sincerely concentrate on yourself. I wish you the best of luck, you have great motivation to get better and be that wonderful parent and spouse, just remember to be patient and determined and you'll be fine. Come back and let us know how things go, again good luck, take care.

[mom_of_two136]

When I went to a treatment facility for a week, it was the best thing I did. Of course, I was sent there after I OD'ed and did not have a choice. But the people I met there became like a family to me for that week. For the first time, I had a chance to work on me and only me. It gave me a jump start to my new addiction-free life. My advice would be to be brutally honest with yourself there. Really take the time to reflect and talk to people about your addiction. Learn from others too. Sometimes you can talk to strangers better than those closest to you. Congrats on taking control of your life :)

[lisa6013]

First of all, congrats on making this HUGE step on entering a detox program.  You didn not mention how long this would be, which as a mother myself, makes a difference on your emotional well being... In the past 3 1.2 years, I have been in a detox facility about 12 times!!  Some I entered myself, others because I took to many pills in short period of time, and the hospital would not let me ho home once I stabilized.  The shortest time I stayed in one was 3 days, and longest (same place), was 12 days.  Keep in mind, a detox center is not a rehab facility which is usually at least 28 days.  Although the detox center I went to so many times had counseling, Aa and NA meetings that came there just about every night, etc.  It was a good and bad experience for me personally.  I only have one son, and missed him terribly....  however, the amount of pills that I was taking (like you), were too much.  I was flirting with death due to respitory distress not to mention liver damage from all of the tylenol in the pain meds..  If you would like me to call you to talk for a few minutes... send me a message with your number, or I could give you mine... I am not going to be quite yet!  There is so much more to say!

hugs!