What happens when you miss the rush of the chase?

Today I watched something that brought a ton of feelings back.  Im in 42 days clean plus an hour or so.  I was at the store just a bit ago and witnessed to teenage kids a girl and a boy get arrested for RX fraud.  My heart sunk..  Then for some reason, I wasn't thinking about using, I started to miss the rush of locating and figuring out how to obtain.  I never really thought I got that when I was doing it.  Has anyone else ever had the thought's of the chase?  I dont want to go looking for it, but for some reason it sounded like an extra bit excitement.  I found my life with out this stuff is not nearly as exciting, It for a moment seemed a bit boring and dull. And I had this odd pull to do something on edge.  I just didnt expect that. The lessons i could teach the 2 kids.  I guess now they will learn them on their own.

[ang_811]

i know what u mean..i to have had found myself missing the chase and the excitement. its like.. i like a challenge or something. u  know what i mean? but now i replaced the chase and excitement of finding drugs to doing otehr things that give me the same kind of feeling. for me its my running. i started doing this challenging path that goes up and down hills of this mountain and at sum aprts u have to climb.its like 8-9miles. i havent been able to do the whole thing quit yet so its become a challenge for me. i love my challenges. it puts that excitement in my life again. ....for me the chase of finding pills wasl like an adrenaline rush, so ive been focussing on trying to find the next adrenaline rush. the next challenge for me is skydiving here in a couple weeks. that will be the ultimate adrenaline rush and challenge for me....neways its all about replacing that excitement and the "chase" with positive things like what im doing....u will see by doing things like that u will get that same feeling u got from the "chase" ... good luck and congrats on 42 days clean

[Newlife58]

I think we feel the harder and more difficult the chase was the sweeter and better the result will be. Our mind is always trying to trick us. Brain says ok no more pills but what if I convince myself that what I really miss is the chase maybe I might be able to get some pills if I weaken them this way. Its always a challange we have to stand our ground against ourselves. One day of being clean is better than a lifetime of being a slave to the pills.

[Ballgame]

Hate the chase, just gives me anxiety.  Bad anxiety and if I'm chasing I'm usually doing something wrong

[livngr8ful]

I was at the point, chasing or not I was doing something wrong. It was stress, I just think I became use to it, and learned to function with it. Now the stress isnt around I feel life slowed down, but sometimes it seems to have slowed a bit much.