Thanks GTMI...I know I shouldn't ignore it.
Nauty....I think letting out some frustration isn't a bad idea sometimes!! LOL
you can beat me up.....I'll let you.
Nauty..........
Which ever route you go is OK. But it is not good to ignore it.
Hugs back at ya
Thanks GTMI and Mary. I agree that I need to do something and I am going to do something because I can't keep on like this. I appreciate everyones comments so much. Posting has actually made me feel a ton better already today and I think I might go outside for a few!! I guess I have to see how cold it is today....LOL...stupid Michigan weather!! Thank you all again so very much!! You all rock!!!! HUGS
So sorry your so down. I agree with getting some antidepressants. Sometimes our bodies need a little push, especially after detoxing. Magi had me really worried there for a while. She just couldn't pull out of her funk. The doctor put her on Cymbalta and she is doing so much better. I was one that was always againts all these antidepressants, but sometimes you almost have no choice. Sometimes trying to wait it out can be dangerous. Hugs, Mary
It's time to break out the amino acids. Try SamE 400mg it helps the mood and energy too. Exercise if you are able. It gets the endorphin production going. Eat some dark chocolate.
Thanks Lonesome. I have been thinking about it all day. I do think I should talk to my Dr. about it. Thank you again. I am here if you ever would like to talk, you can message me anytime. I know just talking sometimes will make me feel a little better about things. Hugs....I hope things get better for you also!!
just keep an open mind I didn't want to be on then either but not that I'm and I see the difrence in how I act and also it has help me with my decision to stop the painkillers too I think that it has help me sooo much keeping me going when I just really have gone thru so much latetly really I don't know how I'm able to function with everything that I'm going thru and I'm not home under my bed with the lights off lol (even though I really want to sometimes) lol
Lonesome....I am not taking anything right now, but you all seem to think its a good idea,
so I am thinking hard about it now. I guess if it helps get me out of this "funk" so to speak....LOL......ugh, I just try to be optimistic and I get so ..............I don't know!! Anyways, I am thinking about the meds. and may talk to the Dr. but I am not sure.
you sound just like me lol, I was feeling the same way are you taking any madication for depression? my doctor put me on lexapro and also trileptal that is suppost to be by bi polar and seazures but what it does is stabilizes your mood swings and I have to tell you it really works. I was the kind of person that would drawn in a glass of water and now I really analize everything in my life I don't jump into conclusions I don't thing everyone is out to get me or judging me maybe you should look in to it just for now while you are sorting thing out.
Good luck and just remember you only have one life.
hey, i wanted to again address your original post. i understand not want ing to take pills of any kind. but for some relief from symptoms it may be the way for you to go short term. especially if it prevents you from craving. and a possible relapse. talk about an a$$ kicking. lol antidepreeants are to elevate your mood and give you motivation. they cant be all bad lol
love
cathy
lostdreams...LOL....thanks and I appreciate you!! You are a great friend!! Thanks.
Hey hun
I'm so sorry you feel like this, you know you are in my thoughts! PAWS are......................................c**p, keep posting and hopefully the cravings will pass. You have done so well to get through all that has happened, i'm proud of you and you should be too! You know we are here for you, pm me anytime hun.
oh, if you wanna smash something, you go ahead! lol. Isn't that what smashable things are there for??? lol
Lisa!! You are more than welcome and I will feed you too. I think maybe I am gonna have to get some extra groceries....LOL
I keep telling myself things will get better. I hope they do soon.
I feel like I'm getting ready to repeat what everyone else here has said but YES PAWS sucks beyond the telling of it. I know how it feels to not want to get out of bed. Give yourself a break in knowing that someone who nurtured you as you grew up is gone now, I think it's understandable to feel moody now. The thing is we have always been able to become "comfortably numb" in times like this and now we feel EVERYTHING! As cheesy as it may sound you are really growing from this experience right now. Each day will get better, the highs will level out and the lows will get back up to where they're suppose to be.
So, if you feed me I'm in for the road trip too!:)
Much love,
Lisa
You got the idea....ROAD TRIP!!!!!!!!
LMFAO Cathy!!! You both are always welcome anytime!! No invite needed!! You can just show up and yes, i will feed ya!!!
I AM NOT CONTRIBUTING..I AM SAVING MONEY FOR MY OWN TRIP. MAYBE WE CAN MEET UP THE JAQUI!!!!! THEN CONFUSED CAN FEED US.
Jacqui...LMAO....I think that's a great idea!!
Perhaps we can start a fund-raiser.....you know, to sponsor a trip for me up there...over there...
Thank you Melissa!! I agree, I need to get back to posting and starting to get back to what makes me happy. Not so sure about meds.....but I will at least think about it.
Chi_Chi....hope you had a nice vacation, and I know you are right. I do need to start getting back into something. I have several books that I still haven't read yet, and have been thinking I need to actually open them. I would love to help you if I was close!! My oldest is just so active in EVERYTHING, which I am very glad ans sooooo proud of her, but at the same time, I am always driving her everywhere which is tiring. Not to mention I have the other 2 which are also great and I am very proud of as well, and they are also active, but not as much as the oldest. My kids are my life and being that I got pregnant at 16, I just want to be such a great Mom and prove statistics wrong, and I think I have so far, LOL, but in doing so, I have had not much if any time for myself. Everything revolves around my kids and that really is fine with me, I enjoy watching them do their things, but I am literally worn out and with this PAWS, I have noticed that I am not enjoying these things like I use to, and that makes me feel horrible, I have actually thought to myself, "Oh man, not another activity, does this ever end"....that made me feel like DIRT!!! I have never felt that way when it comes to my kids. Oh, I have to get out of this somehow.
Cathy, I read your journal and I understand that. It makes perfect sense. I don't want to try anti-depressants....ugh!! I don't know, I guess I need to do something about it though. You are so right, I do need to get back here and start posting again. It helped me soooo much!! I know we discussed this last night and I know you are right. (as always) =) No more a$$ kicking, I know you are here for me, and I won't forget it. Thanks!!!
I'm so sorry. I know you have had such a rough time but you have so many friends here who care about you, so I have to agree with Cathy kick, kick! And like she said start posting again!!
I also agree with Cathy on the antidepressants. They still let you feel emotions but take away the extreme high and lows.
I hope everything gets a little better for you. I know the grieving for your grandma will take some time. You know if you need me, I'm here.
Big Hugs!!!!
Melissa
maybe you would benifit from some antidepressants. nothing long term just something to get you through like the next six months. i have read that the success rate for addicts increase by 25% for those that take them for the first year. you know unfortunately we put our brains and bodies through hell and they sometimes need help to recover. there is no shame in that. AND if you get back on here and start posting again it helps you see others are worse off than you and that should pick you up some. and yes you are on my hit list now. I AM HERE FOR YOU.....