I began taking pain killers recreationally two years ago. Last spring, I had a wicked back injury and was prescribed oxys and then time released Morphine. Completely disregarding my liver and the fact that I could become addicted, I was also buying anything I could get off the street, Vicodin ES, Vicodin HP, Endocet, Percoset, anything generic, and when it was't possible to get my hands on these, I would buy Oxycotin 40s or 80s. Now I'm screwed. I can't even get out of bed without eating a pain killer off of my night table. If I don't take them, I feel like I am being electrocuted. I CAN NOT FUNCTION without them -- I get cold sweats, chills, hot flashes and nausea. When I try to not take them, nothing gets done -- I am useless. The only thing I can do when I don't take them is squirm around in my bed and cry because i am so uncomfortable like a friggin junky. Since I've been on painkillers, I have become a stick figure, dropping down to 91 pounds. I don't even get "high" anymore, taking them just makes me feel normal again. I am afraid and sick now. I can't go to rehab because my family would disown me. I hate myself for this and will someone PLEASE tell me how to get this out of my life before I die because I sure feel like I'm dying. How do I detox from painkillers?