Why do I still feel like this

[hjt101]

Any help peoples???? Im just past 6months clean of all drugs, was heroin/crack addict for 20yrs. I was attending NA meetings but total abstinence is not for me. I have an occasional drink now & again, I also struggled with other aspects of the meetins, tho I attended regularly for approx year and half. Im strugln wi loneliness now as most of my friends were members of NA & as I have chosen to stop attending & to have the odd drink they are no longer keepin in contact with me. I started workin on a part time basis again recently and this has been good, I work with a family member who knows my past history but none of my other workmates do, sumdays I just dont feel like they "get me". I feel diff from them as they have families, lives etc. I think Im just feelin lonely a lot and not sure what to do :(

[IBKleen]

I am glad to see you are out and enjoying the day. We have to make out own happiness...it does not come to us so it is good to see enjoying something.

Since you no longer have contact with a support group, please, please be careful of that "Stinkin' Thinkin". Being alone with myself and my thoughts? Well, I am not in good company. And when I start to feel sorry for myself and feel that I don't have what others have, etc. etc...there I am in real trouble.

Please find support however you can. If NA is not for you, find some clean friends...whatever you have to do. Hope you stick around.

[hjt101]

Thank u for ur kind words & 4 takin the time to respond to my moans ha ha!!!
Its a gorgeous sunny day here in Scotland (doesnt happen very often!!) so I have been out sitn in the sunshine and am away to hed back out again & enjoy the rest of the day.

In response to witchery regarding the drinking, yes I am aware that often we swap one addiction for another and I am not drinkin much or often. Have the odd glass o wine when up at my brothers on occasion & have been out twice in the last 6 months and on both these occasions I made sure I didnt let it get out of control. Its just nice to relax sumtimes.

I have a busy wk ahead lookin after my darlin nephews for 2 days as they are now off on their summer hols from school, then workin rest o wk (I work part time in the afternoons) which is great. I have only been back workin for the past 2 months but it has certainly helped with the boredom. I also have studies to look forward to as I am embarking on a college course which starts at the end of Aug so Im sure I will meet new people there even tho they will all most likely be teenagers and I am old enuf to be their mother!!!! I think thats what I find hard, how does a 41yr old woman make new friends, I am a real chatty person & have no difficulty in talkin to people but I think what Im misn is the girly chats I used to have with the girls in NA and I miss that contact with others. I dont want to always be with my family, tho they are more than happy to have me around. My sister in law has been so supportive thru all this and is always teln me to *** up to theirs rather than sit on my own, yet \i worry that they will get sick of me!! Then again if she didnt want me there she wouldnt ask me would she???!!!!

Well enuf of my stuff for just now, off out to bask in the glorious sunshine again. Ill be back online tho & am grateful for findin this site and will have a proper look at sum of the threads already on the go and hopefully I will meet new friends thru here as well.

Thanks again folks, I really do appreciate your views & suggestions.
Hope u all have a luvly day wherever you are in the world.

Luv n Hugs
xxxx ;o)

[10356]

Congratulations on getting past 6mo. This is big. and a job :) We are not really use to being out there in the real world and our experiences are different. You will not feel like this forever.. as above I also picked up a hobby mine is photography.. fills a void for me and get me out of the house.. has given me the confidence I needed to jump back into life.. Look for something that brings you pleasure and gets you up out.. maybe even going back to school.. this has gone a long way in helping with depression and loneliness for myself.. Keep your eye on the goal and expand your horizons.. I wish you well.. lesa

[witchery]

If NA is not working for you you could perhaps try something else...I bet there is al ot of help out there and you just need to find the right one...Shame, those NA friends of yours aren't your friend anymore...and I hope you are not drinking too much, don't want you to get over one addiction to another...I heard Alcoholics suffer much more than us >_<;

Good luck and tell us how you go :)

[Crying_Freeman]

I think you just need to meet some new people and make new friends. When you use drugs you seem to only make friends with other users and close your self from the outside world.
I suggest you take up some new hobbies and meet people who share the same interests as you.
When i became clean i took up hip hop dancing and found ppl that had things in common with me.
Its better than using and staying home by yourself... some people tend to get caught up in this to kill the boredom.
Stay strong, call up some old mates you haven't seen for a while =)