Why do i count ????

[natalile]

Everday i'm finding myself posting, I bet your getting sick ov it lol. All i say is that's another day done. ( apart from my lapse 2 day's ago ), Enyway yep i have done today i don't feel great like i normal do at the end of a day i have been H free. I carn't say clean as i use methadone. But to me i'm getting clean i will give up methadone in the end but i'm on a high dose at the mo & i really don't think i could do it if i had to go c/t.
Doe's or did enyoNE else get a buzz of getting claen from there DOC ?. & doe's enyone no why i feel so down today i should be happy but i cannot smile. I hope this is a passing thing.
Did enyone elsae used to count the day's likwe i do, I even used to mark the day's of on the calander last time i tryed the only reson i don't now is because i ripped it down when i messed up i think i'm abit fanatical when it comes to counting the day's if i didn't count them so much they might go by a bit faster eh ????
peace nat xxx

[GoingToMakeIt]

I am still counting! (months instead of days) It is up to you what works. I am so very proud of you for what you are doing. With all you have gone through, even counting hours is OK. :)

[broknbck]

No, it doesn't go any faster. I think everybody counts the days. Its encouraging you know  2 days, 3 days, 1 week, 6 weeks! Wo hoo!!  

When you stop counting that pretty much means its over!!

After i got clean, i did a detox thing to get stuff out of your body and sometimes i thought it almost felt like i was high again. Maybe it was just 'real endorphins' this time. ha

And the counting is cool. like i would tell myself, okay 2 weeks i deserve a reward and get my hair cut. Then 1 month i deserved some new clothes. After 6 months now,  I don't even look like the same person. ha

Why don't you try to set up some goals with rewards.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

That was my attitude. I didnt count days.....just kept trying to stack more and more of them up in a row. I couldnt tell you right now the number of clean days....but I can tell you that its a whole lot better than last year at this time. And life today is good.