Why???

Hi all.. A few more things.. Why I love opiates so much.. As many of you know, when  I'm on the pills have sooo much energy and get so much stuff done. Without them I am compeletly unmotivated. Anyone else feel this way? I have three pills left and I  saving them for Xmas morning, so I feel good and am alert to watch my son open his presents. Isn't that sad?? What's wrong with me?? Help!

[Rich99]

Very sad for you and especially your son who has an addicted dad.     Narcotics produce euphoria and more energy but when you don't continue to feed your body with more,  you certainly can become lethargic and without motivation.     These drugs disrupt your brain chemistry.    You need to do a serious 180 degree turn and get your life back without using,  for you and more importantly for the future of your son.  

[Rich99]

whoops, addicted mom,  I had assumed the wrong gender here,  but just replace the word dad with mom, makes no difference either way

[dominosarah]

Pills give us a false sense of security.  Until you are ready to let the love affair you have going on this insanity will continue.  There is no happy ending with this addiction.  I hope you get it figured out~~sara

[Bkitty]

You really need to breakup with the pills and look at the underlying issues that keep you abusing them,,you are only beating your head against a brick wall by continuing this love affair with them. The pills gave me energy as well in the beginning,,but you need to know that that will go away and all you will do is keep taking more of them to get that "energy" back and you never ever ever will and before you know it you are taking 10+ a day and waking up in the middle of the night to take one to ward of any withdrawal symptoms. If you truly want your life back you have got to let them go. They act like they are your bestfriend and they only end up to be your worst enemy,,they will stab you in the back. Opiates also block all the norepinephrine,,epiniphrene and dopamine receptors in your brain,,you brain quits producing them naturally. It takes a few months for your brain to figure this out after you stop,,but in time your brain will heal. The best xmas present you can give your son is yourself. The true you,,not the addict you. I wish you the best!!~bkitty

[lulu747]

I second all of the well intentioned and thoughtful advice above.  You owe it to yourself and your family to 'feel' again in a natural way.  Yes life is hard sometimes-but it is also incredibly beautiful-and if you're taking pills to get high then you are not really present in the events of your own life.  You will regret this.  The choice is yours and I promise your life will be so much better for it.  The only way things end with pills and addiction is badly.  Wishing you all the best-there is a lot of support on here.  You asked for help and that's the first step.  The next step is yours....Lu

[all_alone1]

You are not the only one who feels this way.......not only do the pills give me zoo much energy they keep the depression at bay......I started using them for migraines and found out they did much more than that...they gave me back myself.....but even though they don't feel damaging they truely are and even though I am scared to go back to that awful place depression put me in I am tapering down off these things......believe me it is a very hard thing to give up something that feels like it is helping you.....when on the contrary it is hurting you instead.

[ricart70]

I used to think that too.It was taking away my depression.I was really lying to myself.What it was actually doing was getting me high and taking away my feelings.Also it was making me a mean person who was annoyed with almost everyone in my life.Oh and it was killing me and leeching everything natural and good from my body and soul.