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It takes about 1 month of constant use of Buprenex to develop a physical tolerance. I can't imagine how someone could get high from it, because it just doesn't have that effect, ebing only a partial opaiate agonist. But hey, getting "high" is a very individual thing, so who knows? The only thing I've ever felt from it is the lack of feeling withdrawal symptoms.
So there it is ... life in the slow lane. Almost 2 months clean of feeling "high" and it feels mighty good, actually.
i can't help you much with your question about bup, but it sure
is good to hear from you! I'm also real happy you've gotten down
to just one amp a day. i would like to hear more about the bup
expierence, as i know next to nothing about it. Would you post
your expierence with it? i'm sure that other people on this for-
um could really benefit if you shared your expierence with this
relativly knew form of detox
keep that angel on your shoulder
kip
Well, Buprenex is truly a wonder drug. I mean, it didn't eliminate all of the bad initial symptoms from heavy opiate withdrawal, but it sure made it a helluva lot easier. That and Clonidine, of course.
The beauty of Buprenex is that you feel nothing from it -- no buzz, no high -- so in that sense it's not reinforcing. It's been, what, 7 weeks since I've been "stoned" on opiates, and I'm learning to live life without that opiate feeling. Going to meetings, etc. I'm really surprised how easy it is. I have almost no cravings, etc.
And the Bup definitely helped. It is supposedly physically addictive, of course (although again, no "reward effects"), but the withdrawals are supposed to be "mild to moderate" as compared to heroin or Vicodin or other pure opiates.
Bup is a partial opiate agonist, not a full one.
If I had it to do over, I might have opted for a rapid Bup detox and taper so that I didn't use it for more than 2 weeks or so.
But then some folks swear that using it for a couple of months helps restore and rejuvenate your dopamine receptors.
Who the hell knows. I just want to be off all drugs, including Bup, so that's what I'll do -- either quickly by going cold turkey or slowly over the next few weeks.
Shea
Another family member tell me that it's getting harder and harder to get meds like fioricet or vicodin from Mexico. At least that is the case in Juarez and some of the other border towns. Has anybody else experienced this? J.B.
if you go to Canada to get 8 mg of codiene mixxed with tyelenol,
beter tak a wheel-barrow with you to start toting your liver around in. if person is going to do this there is a very simple
method to seperate the codiene out. just plug opiates into your
search engine.
you can buy any drugs you want in the pharmacys in mexico. there
are laws against posessing these very drugs. the local police
enforce these laws selectively, so if you head on down there to
take a little rx vacation, don't forget to have enough money
to buy your self out of trouble!
hey just wanted to tell you, don't be a stranger. let us know how
it goes from time to time. you know it's the strength that you
share when your growing is what the rest of us need most of all!
That last comment you made to Schlub really hit home for me.
It is so true.
Have I told you lately how much I respect you?
wow.
thank you.
WW
ok, ok i stole that one too (i told you i was a thief) i think it
came from a Hoyt Axton song called "less than the song."
my poor head is full of 50 years of hard living- but there was
always music and words--my own someone- elses most of the good
stuff is someone elses. very little of what i write measures up to
an "archetyple standard." writing is very dangerious (at least for
me). i usually hate things i write because it doesn't measure up
to the things in this world that are truely beautiful like my wife,
the man who helped me get clean the first time around. so writing
is dangerious and self loathing usually comes real silent and real
swift.
**** listen to me...i'ld rather tell you about kip the thief &
junky.
you know what to put on your shoulder!!!
kip
You remind me of Hermes, the Greek God. He is the trickster, the sacred thief. He invented a musical instrument called the lyre to lull Zeus to sleep and then stole his herd animals..LOL
I've got a statue to Hermes on one of my altars at home.
Stealing medicine for your people is holy work. And words my friend, are medicine. At least yours have been for me.
Never think you don't matter or haven't had an impact. I'm living proof that you have.
lots of love,
WW
kip
Thanks for remembering me. Who'd a thunk I was that noticeable?
My addiction doc said we should stick with the taper down, & that a few "bumps in the road" (me having trouble sticking to the taper) are nothing to worry about.
"You're an addict," he said, "since when do you get from A to B in a straight line?"
Hmmm, good point. Anyway, he said not to worry, and that he had total confidence that I'll get off the Bup soon and be okay.
I like this guy, I really do.
I'll check in from time to time. Thanks again.
If you're desperate, you can also order Bup from www.healthcarepharma.com. Their Bup injectable is temporarily unavailable, but they have Bup in tablet form (just do a search for "Bup" on their site) but you need to be sure to get Bup **without** any other drug in it. And try to match the .3 mg dosage used in the amps. 1 or 2 tablets under the tongue.
But be careful -- you could get seriously addicted to Bup.
In fact, I won't let myself order Bup from this site or any other site. Because if I start medicating myself, I'm back to dope and then I'm dead.
I promised myself and my family that from now on, the only meds I will take are the meds prescribed by a doctor who knows of my addiction problem.
you sound as if your on the way out of la, la, land. one less
dross eater out in the cold tonight- eh?
after reading your last post i don't know why but i started to think about a song by Micky Newbury. I don't know if you remember
back that far. well micky newbury is one of the best songwriters
ever, so of course he is from texas. any how here are the lyrics
to: Saint Cecelia the song your last post got me thinking about.
ST. CECELIA is in her garden picking paper violets
For all the wide-eyed children sadly clinging to her dress
Singing blesed be the heavenly to Hell with all the rest
Her salvation is her virtue her sin her emptiness
Crying I'm unfeeling she turns into her shell
Well how can i be like jesus I have just begun myself
To find my own way back in time I think
I know me well
But at other times a stranger stands
Just where my body fell
Do you think about me ever now and then
Do i ever cross your mind
Sounds like old man winter just threw his fiddle to the wind
I sure need to hear from a friend today
St. Ceclia's in her garden singing come into the fold
But all the little children would rather rock and roll
Singing blessed be what is to be away with all thats old
Oh the silence it is golden but the loneliness is cold
*micky newbury*
i guess it's the second verse where he says the stuff about where
a stranger stands where my body fell. I felt like that when i
walked away from my first heroin detox.
anyhow goodluck and don't be a stranger!
keep an angel on your shoulder
kip
"Keep an angel on your shoulder."
I don't know why, it gives me chills. And you're right, that song was resonant, as all songs of loss and perhaps redemption are to me.
I just posted on another addiction forum to a guy who was caught in that feeling of utter exhaustion and loss of motivation that affects many after opiate detox. I know his fear because it's my greatest fear in life right now. If I don't "show up" every day full of vim & vigor, my family will not eat.
So it terrifies me that I may feel it when I'm off the last little bit of Buprenex in a couple of weeks.
But my wife is great. She says don't worry, if we have to sell the house and move to ******* Idaho because I can't make money anymore than that's what we'll do. I lucked out with this woman.
Does addiction turn us into wimps? I used to have some fortitude -- hell, I was a war correspondent in Afghanistan for years between 1979-1987! Where's my guts? Where's my strength?
I'm rambling, so let me do you one back by quoting an Afghan love poem (the Afghans are NOTHING like the Taliban -- they're a joyful and playful people). It's entitled, "Dauntless":
"I am caught in love's web so deceitful
none of my endeavors turned fruitful
I knew not when I rode the high-blooded steed
that the harder I pulled its reins, the less it would heed.
Love is an ocean with such a vast space
no wise man can swim it in any place
But true lovers should be faithful to the end
and face together life's crooked trend
When you see things hideous, fancy them neat
Eat poison, but taste sugar sweet!"
just a thought: Have you ever heard of or seen Tom Gutier (spelling!!)i work at the same university as this--person!!
keep the angel on your shoulder!!!
kip
And yes, the Bup helps with the physical and psychological symptoms of withdrawal because it, too, is an opiate (albeit a "partial opiate agonist"). So as a med to help you detox, it's really quite effective. And it doesn't produce any euphoric effects so you get out of the habit of feeling that "high."
There are other drugs that can help with cravings as well that are not opiates. Bromocriptine has been somewhat effective in reducing cravings, Wellbutrin also but less so. And if you're worried about relapsing, you can always go on Naltrexone, which prevents you from getting "high" should you take dope again. It lasts several days in your system, so even if you decide to get high one day, you'll have a couple of days to rethink that decision while waiting for Naltrexone to leave your system.
about Tom Gutier-- I'm not real sure what he is. At my university
he is dean of international studys dept. and also heads up the
dept (project ?) of afghan studys. during the russian conflict in
afghanistan he pulled in federal grants of 5 million a year. Our
university tv dept is the only station that can uplink to the
networks. Tom Gutier has been doing a lot of live uplinks in the
past few weeks! I've preformed services for this guy in the capicity of doing my job. He's one of those people who can be real pleasent when he gets what he wants....
anyhow he knows every arab student by name. most of these students want nothing to do with him. several years ago i had two young arab men who were student workers. neither one of these young men had much to say about Tom. when i asked about all they would say is he is not what he appears to be???
Personally i think he's an *******, and we almost got rid of him,
but current events and new fed govt. grants means we will have to
put up with this primo-donna for a few more years! he supposedly
is the formost authority on Afghanistan in the western world. He
even has afghanys who work for him and they dislike him too. Just
wondered if you had ever heard or come across him in your line of
work.
keep an angel on your shoulder
kip
Like I said, I've heard of him and doubtless read his work.
But I never met the guy.
It's been around for a while and is prescribed for pain.
By the way, Maryanne, you said you checked other pharmaceutical sites and found Buprenex available in injectable form. Do you need a prescription for these sites, or can you just place an order? Also, I wasn't clear whether you wanted oral or injectable? And incidentally, most detox facilities use Buprenex injectable **sublingually** -- i.e., you squirt it under your tongue and hold it there 5 minutes, just like you do with the tabs.
it's been awhile since the forum has heard from you. how are things
coming along? have you gotten free from bup yet? please let us know
how thigs are going.
keep an angel on your shoulder
kip
I'm off the buprenex now 10 days, gaining strength and motivation
slowly each day. Still onlu opertating at aboout 40% peak efficiency, letharguy and losed oof will are a problem.
But I see blight atbthe ened orf the tunnel. This weakness is survivabale, though not necessarily pleant. But I'm, on the right track. I got a 3wife that cares for my every need when I feel like collapsing flat on my back, so I'm very lucky there.
I'm curious abouytmething though. I'm supposed to have gum sergery and dental implants within the next couple of montrhs. Now I know that opiateson't have the same euphoric effects when used for actual pain, but here's my qiuestion. Let's say I need Vicodin for 5 days after surgery. Given my predispowition to addiction, Will I develop rolerance and withdrawal effects af ter only five or six days use of pain meds for actual pain.
Cus if so, I'd rather stick needles in my eyes than go through another vweek of leg kicking and trenmors and being unable to sleep. What do you trhink, Kip? Anyone else have an opinion?
I really need your advice again. You've all been so wonderfyl to me, I won't forget it. By the way, if anyone wants to see my gorgeous 5-month0old oin his glory -- or even me dressed in Affghabn garb whilst a war correspoondent there some years back, just emaiul me and the oicks are on the way.
Here's hoping kip (the angel on my shouldert) can help me here.
Sorry, all.