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My doctor just started weaning me off. What she is doing is she started me out with taking 7 vic's for 5 days, then I'll go to 6 for 5 more days, then 5, 4,3,2,1. I hope this will work for me. This forum has also helped alot. I'm trying to open myself up to people. THis might help you as well.
I am also going to councilling and I'm taking ativan 2mg. for the anxiety that most people face when withdrawing.
I wish you all the luck. Keep posting and let us know how you're doing.
WHy do you want to quit cold turkey?
I heard that withdrawing is horrible. You get really bad stomach cramps, insomnia, anxiety. I heard it lasts for about a week. It's also really dangerous to just quit vicodin cold turkey that is why I'm curious why you just want to stop cold turkey. Help is out there.
As for the part where you are worried about getting counsilling because you live in a small town and everyone will know you. Look up NA. Narcotics Anonymous. They have closed meetings and open. Closed meetings mean that the only people aloud in are addicts. Open meetings mean anyone can go in. Family, friends, ect. YOu may want to find out where closed meetings are in your area..
I'm going to look up the Thomas Recipe for you and I'll send it in just a few minutes..
B-6 100mg 2 times a day
Vitamin C--E--and A
Calsium-magnesium
A stong multiple vitamin
Phosphorous
Copper
Maganese
Imodium (immodium) for the runs.
Taking a Benzo is also part of the recipe, but is a huge contraversy so I wont go into that.
Eat bananas for leg spasms and shakes.
Drink Gatorade for lost electrolytes due to the runs. If you still have depression after a week, some people recomment 5htp
If you want to email me you can @ ***@****
I hope this helps
Pink
I'll cut & paste & print the recipe but even if I was to stop on my way home, I don't think there'll be any place open that'll have all that stuff.
P.S. I just figured out where to put your name...no mold on me! :) Gotta keep smiling, right?
Pink
Good luck
Your best bet it to go through detox the old-fashioned way...maybe use the "recipe" - but do yourself a favor and stay away from the Ultram.
Good luck.
So many people have fed their addictions through these places, and the doctors do not give a **** about them. Think about it...anything that easy has probably got something wrong with it....2 second phone consult where a "dr." asks you what you want (literally), and a couple hundred bucks later UPS shows up with your Vicodin. I think most people recognize that there is something not right about this.
Should someone see a doctor for a drug problem?...In an ideal world that would be by far the best way to handle it. Unfortunately where addiction is concerned, honesty is not always the best policy. Most doctors do not want to deal with an addicition problem. There are far too many people who were honest with their doctors only to regret ever saying anything. Not only did they not get the help they expected but it did irrepairable damage to their doctor patient relationship. Even worse, the last thing anyone needs is being labled "addict" on their permanant medicial record. I usually assume, maybe incorrectly that anyone asking for help on a message board cannot or will not ask their doctor for help. Besides, most of the regular members on this board have far more knowlage of addicions than most doctors.
As far as getting ultram online. If you want them overnight, it is going to cost you. Do not buy more than 30 (that is the minimum you can buy), take them sparingly and do NOT stay on for more than 4 days. Detoxing with ultram is becoming increasingly more popular with doctors and hospitals. The big downside is the possiblity of becoming addicted to ultram, so keep it short. Davocet will work just as well but are harder to get.
I'm leaving now but I'll check back in. You guys seem great.
I had asked befor whether or not it was legal to order meds off the net. I have a close relative who is addicted to a narcotic and she's telling me she's getting her stuff off the computer. I love her and hurts enough to know she's going through what we are all going through. THen to think she's going to get busted by the law..
Thanks for your response. I totally agree w/ you, girl...
Love Pink
Your assumption about people coming to this forum because they have not gotten help from there doctor may be right. But in my case it is wrong. I came here because I wanted to get other peoples opinions and hear for myself that I'm not alone in this thing. I also want to feel like I'm helping other people through there addiction. Just knowing that I may have helped someone helps me with my addiction tremendously.
I do believe you have alot to offer us because you are a smart person and the stuff you say makes so much sense. I just got really upset when I told this girl that vicodin withdraw was dangerous and you get on and say it's not.
Mariposa does bring up an excellen point of which I have already warned you about. The possiblity of switching one addiction for another. This happens all the time. The "recipe" includes the use of a benzodiazam drug. The addiction potential of ultram may be questionable from a statistical standpoint, but with diazapams there is no question about it, they are addicting. Also, once you learn how easy it is to get drugs online you may find yourself like a kid in a candy store. A very dangerous place for an addict to be.
Antoniette, at this point, consider everything you have read and make the best judgement can for yourself. When dealing with addictions there seems to be no right or wrong, there is only opinion.
Peace
Ultram is addictings, and it is being referred to as the "non-narcotic narcotic."
Later,
Pink
You could address your question about it to the Dr. here at Medhelp...he will probably tell you the same thing.
People are allowed to have different opinions - no one if fighting or being disrespectful. It would be a shame to leave because of this thread. Take care.
Peace
I really don't think I'm a sick person though. I did have that feeling of wanting to die though. I just think it's dangerous to get off of vicodin with out help. So I guess in your book I'm a sick person.
I come from a very good family, I have a great supportive hubby and two wonderful kids. I don't think I'm sick. That really hurt that you would say that...
Sorry that you feel that way. I am getting the help I need now though with getting off vicodin..
Another issue these days is Oxycontin. You can take so much oxycodone now that w/d can be far worse than a sizeable heroin habit.
I w/d from 800mgs oxycodone daily, and I survived. I did wean a little and do a 30 day done' detox, but it was pretty brutal. However, w/ding from a benzo (klonopin) habit was worse. I didn't sleep at all for 23 days and went insane. I wasn't as horrible depressed as I was w/ding from opiates though, just totally withdrawn, like I was watching life go by on a TV.
People who take benzos for epilepsy really need to watch out: when they w/d they often suffer pretty bad seizures.
Bottom line, it's all dangerous, all life threatening, but few people I have heard of die from opiate w/d, and I've never heard of anyone getting really long-term sickness or death from vike w/d.
lee.
There I sat for about an hour, getting my vitals checked, and walking out with a Clonidine 0.2mg inside me and a script for another 3 day supply of the Clonidine, to use 3 times a day as needed. I took them religiously.
I did not mess around with this "Thomas Recipe." All I took was the clonidine. Perhaps I should have added some Immodium, but I toughed it out.
The most life threatening thing to me was the Clonidine. I'm a healthy, athletic, 24 year old, and Clonidine is nothing more than an ANTI-hypertensive. It made me terribly lethargic, I couldn't stand or walk for more than 30 minutes at a time. So if you already have low blood pressure, or are taking meds for high blood pressure, Clonidine may not be for you.
Bottom line? I had a nasty week of withdrawels. To top things off, they were the hottest 5 days we had ALL summer in Wisconsin. I couldn't sleep much, I was very restless, had no appetitte, spent half the day on the toliet, and sweat a whole lot. No real bad restless legs, or severe depression. But I had someone with me 24-7. My husband or my mom, bless their sweet, sweet soles.
Everyone is different. I've slipped back a few times in the past month, and I've tried coming off about 3 times. I didn't experience one awful thing that I did the first time around, so now it's all mental baby. I can do it, I did it once, I'll do it again.
Now you do it. Don't let people here scare you. It's going to be scary enough, but at least let yourself feel some control.
I hope that helped you. Good luck to you, and good luck everyone.
The last 4 days were the worst days of my life, and I wanted to die.(Note I did not say I wanted to kill myself). I am not sure about one compnent of the Recipe - the L-Tyrosine. It's possible that was adding anxiety, not energy. I stopped just that component.
For anyone who does not believe in God and His Grace, you may want to hear about this. I had my Dad and friends over yesterday, and I was in such a state, that my wife had the phone number to a one week detox facility in her hand and we considering going this AM. My family prayed for me, and I prayed like never before, saying I was at the very end of my rope.
I woke up this morning and well what words can I use? Soaring, Euphoric, Extremely positive, but mostly the phrase "the worst may be over". (Noticed I used "may"). I feel so good this morning, other than a little back pain, that I am in tears. All I see is sunshine.
Many will say, "you just came out of the back end of the WDs. "
I say Jesus helped me, because the only thing that changed was the group prayer, and my realization that I am powerless, truly powerless (see step1 of the 12 step programs).
Thanks to vereyone here, and I am not oblivsious to the fact that the depression may return. The depression, for me, was the worst. Now that that has past, I can easlily deal with the physical symptoms.
Finally, the one common thread I have read on these boards is "relapse". So I will hange here and help all I can, as you guys, have helped me.
Today IS AN AWESOME DAY! You guys - all of you can do it, with HIS help!
Remember sometimes "patience" can be a four-letter word! Don't expect it all to just come back. Give it time and you'll do great. You've made some incredible decisions over the past couple of weeks. First, you decided that you wanted to quit. Next, you took the action to quit. A lot of people will say that getting off is the easy part, staying off is the hard part. This is true. Do not, however, minimize your accomplishment. I know you've talked a lot about depression. This is a natural part of the process. The brain is being forced to give up something it loves. Pain pills are downers and you've just pulled the rug out of what sustained you in this "down" state. Now you're left down there alone and your brain needs to kick itself back into gear to pull you out. Celebrate the fact that you are freeing yourself from the shackels (sp?) of the pills. Celebrate that you are returning to life. Let the pain that you feel now serve as the fuel to your desire to stay clean. Remember well the pain and despair you have experienced over the past days so that they may weigh against any decision to relapse.
Sorry for the ramble, but keep up the fight, MAN!!
I know that addiction is hard to get over, but I've been clean from methamphtamine and pills since mid-September. You just have to stick with it. This forum has helped my like out so much. It's great to have people like this WANTING to help you. It's hard to find, so don't blow it over petty fights. I'd hate to see something I love so much go to waste.
Staycool!
Festertool
Again, congratulations and good luck.
I too have become involved in a 12 step program since detoxing. While hearing a lot about them on this site, I knew none of their details. In my limited experience, I think they are a great source of strength for a recovering addict. I do not attend daily meetings but I do attend 3hr meetings 3 days a week. It is good to get around other addicts. While at times the meetings do not seem to be to relevant to my needs, there are certain "gems" that are expressed by other addicts that really hit home and provide a pool of resources to avoid a relapse. I highly recommend at least checking out a meeting.
I am trying everything in my power to stay clean. I am playing the numbers game. I believe statistically people who attend meetings have a higher rate of avoiding relapse. So, I go to meetings. I don't yet even know the 12 steps but I am working on it.
For those trying to quit, remember this:
You have to weather the storm before you can find the rainbow.
What a waste!
Today has been my best day in months. I still feel the aches and the cramps. My head is still a bit foggy. I am still a little weak. This may last another two weeks or two months. But I got a taste of life again and I love it! I can now start mending my relationship with my wife. I checked out for 8 months. She didn't know what was wrong but I was there but not there. She thought she was doing something wrong. I feel so bad. I really have destroyed her trust of me. I am now starting to work to get it back. I also lied to myself so much that I need to get me back as well. Its a good time to take a good look at myself and decide what my course hereafter will be. I think I see a rainbow off in the distance through the clouds!
Thanks for the notes and the encouragement. Its good to meet up with somebody that shares in some of my experiences.
Best Regards.
Talk to you later.
Signing off.
been reading your posts and you have it right on,dangerous thats it i have tryed detoxing many,many times and i keep going back because my heart hurtd real bad,runs,muscle aches,etc you all know the story,but wow man felt like if i stayed detoxing i might be putting myself in danger,not death but danger!!!!
althought it may have killed me?just dont know,talked to my doctor and they weaned me off,that also did not work,i think i am a true addict,well be well all,and hang in there pink.
good advice belive me you...tce37
I fully expect to dodge some arrows in the next week or month, but the comment about going off vs staying off is in the forefront of my mind.
There is no physical pain I have ever experienced that equals the absolute despair and Anxiety-ride I went on over the weekend. I may have started the Thomas Recipe too soon, or maybe adding the 5http did something, but I was literally 5 minutes from a decision to go to the hospital when I started to feel better, a little better. Then a good bit better. Then last night, it just passed, like a light switch really. Then this morning, my word, I got up, and my back hurt of course, but my mind was like it hasn't been in years, just sunny, ya know. (My mind was never much to start with - brainstorms for me amount to light drizzles).
And then at work today, I realized what a pathetic employee I must have been over the last months and years - just not motivated and interested in going home to my pills - how pathetic. Today, the opposite, happy to see people, upbeat, and then it hit me. This is exactly how it felt after 2 months of giving up alcohol. Compacted energy and sunshine.
Anyway, I fully realize and even expect I could be here tommorow or the next day or the next crying in my wheaties, asking for strength again, because of the next hurdle.
Today I just want to say _thanks_ for the strength over the last couple of weeks. I know one thing now, I didn't know last week. I can win/I will win - with God's help, and the people in this place.......
Thanks and post if you need me,
Rex
How are you holding up?
Post if you need us?
Rex
This is something I haven't mentioned here before, but because it may help you, I will.
I believe my drinking (sober now 7 years) and subsequently the Vicodin was a way to alleviate the intense anxiety I have had for the last 15 years. I somehow developed panic attacks and a killer phobia - of public speaking no less! This is liking a mouse having PA eating cheese. Like my wife says about me, " I have never had an unexpressed thought!"
I have struggled to find a solution for a decade and a half, only to live in fear and failure each time. Drinking took away the pain, but brought shame and in the end would have just killed me. Vicodin, while originally prescribed for my back, which is a legit problem and still hurts, also took away the anxiety to some degree. It eventually turned full circle though and gave me the hell I have been living in.
So why I am telling you this? Because I decided that I can only realistically expect to solve one major problem at a time. I said to myself "First, get off the vicodin", then pick back up on the social phobia battle with a clean mind and body. With God's help it is happening. I was literally trying to solve both problems at once, and it just was knocking me out. This is also why it is fairly difficult for me to walk into an NA meeting with 60 people in it. Most people here may be nervous - sure, but how about FREAKING TERRIFIED and for what reason you don't know?
Now you know this is coming, so let's get it over with huh? Opioids can be used to treat back pain. Where we get in trouble IMHO is when we use them to treat every pain, including emotional ones, like i did.
Having said that, keep your mind on grieving and do your best with God's help to bring that to closure. I think I speak for the rest of the group when I say we'll be here to help you get back in the saddle.
(Warning: Just make sure that day arrives in a reasonable period of time, OK? )
You'll be in my prayers.
Rex
First time to the site...but wanted to put my thoughts in here.
I have been on pain medication and anxiety meds for over 5 years.
Surgeries are now at the #6 mark in 4 years.
I have been on Ultram (4 back pain), Zoloft (anxiety), Resperal and Resderal (sedative and anti-thinking, anxiety), Tylenol w/codeine (back pain), hydrocodine/Vicodin (back pain, crohn's),
Xanax (anxiety), skelaxin (back pain), prozac (depression), 6mp(crohn's), over the counter sleep aids, herbal homeopathic remedies, you name it....and I wanted to let you know how they affected me...as I think needs to be repointed out in this forum
that everyone is different in their reaction to medications or drugs and in their withdrawals...
1)Ultram ..... didn't do a damn thing for my pain, went off it
cold turkey, no side affects, except still had
back pain
2)Zoloft ..... gave me more energy in the morning but if only
taking a morning dose, the afternoons would come
crashing down, dead in my tracks by 4pm, ready for
bed
3)Resperal/Resderal.... as a sleeping pill, best I have had, 20
minutes and I'm out 4-6 hours later wide away, no
residual affects, as an anti thinking med, it was
too good, I stopped over thinking at night, but I
couldn't find anything to think of either...
that was frustrating
4)Tylenol w/codeine....doesn't even phase me, like demoral, they
might as well just given me tylenol....however the
nausea sucked...
5)Hydrocodone/Vicodin...with my first surgery worked too well,
gave me halucinations and a foggy feeling, went
off that after 5 days and just took tylenol.
However with crohn's disease it actually helps
with the never ending internal pain and actually
slows down the diareah that can become
uncontrollable when crohn's is in full force.
6)Xanax........didn't want to take at all because I didn't think
I needed something for anxiety, but three weeks in
a hospital with no rest and everyone making alot
of noise, it got to me and I freaked out and had
to take it...today it calms my tremors but doesn't
help with nighttime anxiety
7)Skelaxin.....for back spasms....waste of money...unless to take
amounts exceeding the recommended dose, there is
no reason to waist money on it
8)Prozac.......God send...probably need to be reevaluated to a
higher dose (40mg is low end)...no psycotic
episodes, but when I don't take it...I'm in bed
for hours
9)6mp/purinethol...keeps the crohn's in remission, but makes you
lathargic and tired and hair falls out, so watch
the doses
10)over the counter sleep aids....they basically take off an edge
as I have used Ambien before but it only lasts 4
hours, so I tend to use more than directed with
the over the counter drugs. The best sleep aid
over the counter I can find is good
old fashion benedryl...but you can become ammune
to it when you might actually need it for alergy (allergy)
symptons...
This is me, I might be addicted to the vicodin, but have gone weeks without it, I notice when I am at an ideal weight (for me,
not for the doctors) that I don't need anything but the prozac and the xanax. Therefore it's rather easy to just come off the pain killers and other meds easily. But lack of sleep still is a problem...see I'm up at 4:26 am EST.
I just wanted to point out that everyone is definately different in the way they become addicted and how severely and how easily the can come off of any specific med. Is it mind over matter, sometimes I think, DEFINATELY. Other times, like my cronic back pain, I know it is truly physical and I may not have a choice.
But no one else in my family uses any of these meds, and each has a different tolerance level.
Good example...my mother takes two tylenol and two advil, ONLY on
the nights when her legs hurt and in 20 minutes she is out and has a good night sleep....wouldn't we all like to only need tylenol or advil to ease our pain and sleeplessness!!!!???
So look into yourself and see what your habits and reactions have been in the past and then consult your doctor...if you end
up with a bad relationship with a doctor because you have confided in them about your addiction and need of help, you have
a 'no bedside manner' doctor and need to find another. Is it
a pain in the butt, damn straight, I went through 5 to find the one I have, but he listens, he speaks straight up with me and he
tells me if I'm BSing him and I say the same to him. Some generations are brought up to NOT question the medical field, and I was one of them. If I had listened to one doctor tell me that the pain I was feeling in my gut was just inflamation (inflammation) and
didn't seek help 4 days later after being released from the hospital he practiced at, and ended up in the ER of another, I would have died NO DOUBT!!! I had two absess (abscess) that had burst and
I was septic, it took hours in the OR and the surgeon who saved my life said in no uncertain terms "I was poorly treated".
Doctors are falable and they lie to, they don't want you to know more about your body then they do...but you do...so stand up and tell them....or find someone who is strong in their opinions and practice and is intent on listening to you!!! Otherwise you are
only hurting yourself.
Sorry for the soap box, but I mostly wanted to point out that everyone is different in how they react to meds and how they will
react to withdrawls...just like my mom with tylenol...who knew it
could put people to sleep!!! Certainly not I!
Thanks for the ears!!!
I am truly curious about how so many patients recieve the amounts of potentially addictive medications that are discussed here in this forum. I am sincere about this curiousity----
My first post, I would like to hear people's accounts of how and why they obtained such quantities of these pain meds!
Sincerely, Amazed
Both of them are on steroids, which has caused them weight gain and that "moon" face that is typical from taking them. One of them has taken percs for years for the pain.
My question is about your diet - do you have to totally avoid fruits and vegetables...any kind of fiberous food? One of my friends doesn't eat either, and I think it is very unhealthy...she says her doc told her she couldn't, but it seems like a crazy diet. Thanks.
Amazed: In your last sentence you want people's account of How (and why) they obtained such quantities of pain meds.
You sound frustrated about your situation; but this is not a forum telling people how to get meds. Most are here fighting for to recapture their lives.
Reiterating Southernbelle's comment: What is your point?
and were prescribed drugs for pain , we take them as prescribed
for certian length of time then , some of us biuld up an immunity and take more then prescribed, at some piont the dr, stopes prescribing in some cases and we find ourselves addicted and faceing withdrawls, i , myself was in this situation and could not afford to lose time from my job, so i turned to someone i knew who sold them to me on the sreet, the next thing you know a year goes by , and our addiction has become much worse and we continue to spiral out of controll. we wind up
spending money we do not have and our lives begin to fall apart.
we start to find some way to get out of the situation we find ourselves in, some of us start to look to get better , while
some of us look to find doctors that will prescribe more.
sometimes we are still in pain , other times we are just takeing the pills to escape the withdrawls.
we know at somepoint we have to change , but we find this change
hard to do, we are all at different stages of this road of addiction. for me , i have been clean for 8 months , i go to na meetings, i hang around with addicts who are clean . i also talk with addicts here at the fourm , and other fourms.
for those of us who continue to use drugs aginst our better judgement, this way of life is a life of desperate measures.
we find ourselves doctor hopping or in places we would rather not be , in the dreg's of society.
for most of us it is about facing the truth in our lives rather then running away from it. that is what it became for me , me running away from responsabilty, useing is a slow partisapation
in slowly killing one self.
With absolutlely no other place to get pills on this short a notice, this afternoon I did something I have not done in over 20 years. I went to the local drug mart and bought a bottle of methadone. I managed to escape with my life and a 100mg dose. Of which I only wanted no more than 30 mg. I know that the last thing in the world I need is a methadone habit. I immediately dumped 2/3 of the bottle. I have been taking it by the smallest amounts that I can, which I am hoping is no more than 5-10 mg. It is only Tuesday and it won't last long if I gulp it.
So now instead of feeling totally shitty I only feel bad. At least I can get around without doubling over in cramps. I did all of this just to be "NORMAL" during the holiday.
Like I said, it Keeps Getting Better.
I am soooo sick of all this ****. I hope starting Friday I will be able to get a new start.
lee.
body mech, you'll be at the top of my "thinking of/praying for" list.
one day we will all be free.
Theory:
In most patients, the worst withdrawal symptoms occur in the first 28 to 72 hours following their last dose. The long acting drug methadone may be appropriate to almost completely relieve these symptoms during that 24-72 hour period in a single dose.
Candidates:
Those using the drugs which are commonly called lortab, percocet, diaudid and oxycontin for 6 months or more at a level of 10-30 per day.
Recommended Dosing:
For every 1mg of of narcotic used in a single dosing, use 1mg of methadone. An example would be someone taking 5 10mg hydrocodone in a single dose would use a single dose of 50 mg of methadone. Do not exceed a dose of 80 mg unless you are prepared for the possiblity of slipping into a coma. Keep some narcon on hand just in case.
Expected Outcome:
I suggest that you do this over the weekend starting on a Friday night. Wait until you are well into withdrawals. Then take your dose according to the formula above. You will probably nod and sleep all day Saturday night into early Sunday morning. That is fine since you would have been miserable anyway. On Monday morning most of the effects of the methadone will have worn off. You will no doubt get some withdrawal symptoms but the worst of it should be over. You can "tough out" the rest, which should not be too bad.
Feel free to nominate me for the Nobel Prize
lee.
I promise you, as I am sure everyone else on this board will promise you. Things will only get worse, much worse. There is still time to get off the merry go round.
Then enjoy your life. The 12 step program eliminates compulsive obsessive behavior. It seems like we get high because we feel guilty and don't like ourselves .... then we feel even more guilty because we got high. And the cycle repeats itself. Only a power greater than ourselves can restore us to sanity ..... have a wonderful Thanksgiving ...... Goldie
I have to agree with Bodymechanic and SouthernBelle.
You are likely not going to die, but you are standing at the edge of a pit of quicksand. Movies targeted at the teen and twenty something crowd have told you "This is the American Way -nothing will happen to you - pills are the new age drugs - all the athletes use them". The quicksand looks like a swimming pool.
Do yourself a huge favor and do it right now. Go to the top of the page and look through the forum archives - take an hour or more. Look and try and feel the pain and utter helplessness of the people here who have gotten in and would now pay anything to get out. The truly scary thing is, some of them can't.
Marijuana is one thing, but when you step forward into these highly targeted and scientifically designed drugs, you are dealing with some serious power. and right now, you may be thinking you can deal with that power.
We I, and I believe everyone else here would say we are _powerless_, despite the fact that we originally believed like you - "I can keep it under control".
Carefully consider what you are about to do. I would say anything to keep you from crossing that line. We are all desperatly climbing out of the quicksand, and trying to keep others from stepping in unknowingly.
Use common sense. Why would you ever want to cross that line?
Take it from the experts - life utterly sucks on this side of the line.
Rex
ANYBODY UP OUT THERE? It's 4:40 est, CAN'T SLEEP!
The time is long over due that the addict be treated with the same sense of urgency and dignity as anyone else who suffers from a chronic incurable disease.
Peace
Any better today?
Rex
really, though, i'm trying to make light of it all. if i didn't do that, i'd be in a lot of trouble. i don't ever recall feeling so down and frustrated at the same time. guess i need to see a shrink. what are addictionologists like? are they helpful? what can i expect if i go see one?
i'm in miserable shape mentally and i can't see functioning without my pills. i need help.
everything will be alright. try to live just for today.
enjoy your thanks giving, and your kids.
just try to take small steps in the right direction.
keep posting. and take it light.
peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
michael
I agree with Michael - take it one day at a time. You may be feeling down because you're putting all your problems on the barbell and saying "Im lifting this all today".
Focus on today and think of all the great things God has given you. Don;t try to solve every little problem today, just concentrate on one thing. Repeat positive thoughts over and over to yourself and know that just being here asking for help means your are on the right road, and not wondering where that road is.
I _seem_ to be on the other side now, running downhill and feeling better with each day. If I can be there you can too. The key is, at least for me, was asking God for help and BELIEVING he wanted me off the meds. Because of last week I am scared to death of relapse and I hope I never completely forget that feeling. If you have that feeling today, just KNOW that with God's help it WILL pass.
We'll be here,
Rex
for the past 6-7 months i've been taking around 9 up to 12 vicodins everyday,and i dont see any sign of me getting off them too soon,but id kind of like to.i been snorting oxycontin for about 2 weeks now,and my parents are clueless they just think im the pothead i always was in my room down cellar smoking my weed all day,but ever since the oxycontin(not the vicodin) its only about 3-4 times a day i smoke a bowl or go out in the backyard and smoke a j with a friend,i'd love it to go back to the days where me and my friends sat down in my room passing around the bong,rolling blunts drinking a few beers every now and then,but now its totally different,all i am is a druggie now. but the only thing im happy about (besides when im on my pills obviously) is my friends are still there for me,they are constantly telling me to keep my nose clean and think about what is going to happen to me,i love my friends and i think they could be the biggest help of all,but i know im a fuckup,i gotta quit this ****.
I hope you are feeling better today. When I initially went and saw Dr. Kishore, I was sick and withdrawing. He sat me in a chair and seemed to study me. He then when into a wicker basket that had an array of medicine in it. He then gives me a pill and says to let it melt on my mouth. He gave me another one with the same instructions. He then got three different glasses of water and broke capsules and I drank each one. In a matter of 15-20 minutes, color to my face returned, no aches and was sleepy. We left, and I fell asleep on the ride home. I did not ask him what he was giving me as I did'nt care. I put myself completely in his hands. I had to return in the morning, sign in to see him (first come, first serve) and there was a therapy session in progress as we waited. I found it theuraputic and to be honest was stunned at the amount of young people there (Boston-big college town) that were all fighting oxycontin addiction. In my opinion, its a huge epidemic. Since I had to see him for five days (pee in a cup each time) straight, the meds he would fax into my pharmacy would be one or two day supplies. The co-pays are the same if you get 2 pills or 30, so it was frustrating from a cost standpoint as I spent about $500. But, I guess when you take into consideration that I could blow that in one whack buying opiates, it pales in comparison. Dr. Kishore is a man from India who went to Harvard. He became facinated with addictions and made it his specialty. Bodymechanic mentioned some drug called buprenorphine. I don't know what that is or does. Dr Kishore's philosophies on addiction seem to be twofold.
(1) get the bad toxins out of your body and (2) make your body well from the damage you have caused it. My wife would prepare the medicine for me and I would just take it. Around the 5th day, I was able to dispense my own. I went upstairs and got all the paperwork for what I was prescribed and the dates. The following meds were prescribed 11/03/2002-11/05/2002. (1) Neurontin 800mg (1 tablet every 8 hours) (2) Sonata 10mg (1 capsule at bedtime) (3)IC Quinine sulfate 260 mg (1 tablet twice daily) (4) prilosec 40mg capsule dr ast (1 capsule everyday) (5) IC clonidine hcl 0.1 mg (1 tablet 3 times a day) (6) IC Tramadol HCL 50mg tablet (1 tablet three times a day) (7)ic temazepam 30mg (1 tablet at bedtime) (8) ic dicyclomine 20mg (1 tablet 3 times a day) I also had a clonidine patch on during all of this. This was the critical stage of the process. For five days, all I did was sleep and eat BUT although uncomfortable at times, DID NOT have the withdrawals that we all know about. As the process moved along, he subtracted and added meds (1) zyrtec 1mg/ml syrup (2 teaspoons daily) (2)ic nabumetone 750mg (1 tablet every 8 hours) (3) ic baclofen 20mg tablet (1 tablet twice daily) (4) ic magnesium oxide 400mg tab (1 tablet once a day) (5) catapres tts 1 patch b-1 (the 2nd clonidine patch, they last a week). These were meds added to the above (this was at the 7 day interval)He eliminated the Sonata 10mg and the ic temazepam and replaced it with ic doxepin 25mg (1-2 capsules at bedtime) and ambien 10mg (1 tablet at bedtime)I saw him next at the 10 day interval and he prescribed (1) ic lisnopril hctz 12.5 tabs(1 tablet a day, my blood pressure was high and he feels the toxins leaving the body was the cause) (2) ic tizanidine hcl 4mg tablet (1 tablet at bedtime) (3) ic clonidine hcl 0.1mg tablet (1/2 a tablet 3 times a day. (4) Paxil Cr 25mg tablet (take 1 tablet every day, its an antidepressant) I then saw him a week later which was at the 17 day level, feeling as good as I have felt in years. I no longer am on the clonidine patch. I have four meds that I'm still taking: Neurontin 800mg, ic Lisinopril 12.5 tabs (1 tablet daily, blood pressure still high), Paxil and the ambien. I'll see him this coming Sunday and at that point I will have been off opiates for 28 days. Now I need to work on the mind as that has certainly been damaged. I was on opiates for two years and would literally pop pills first thing in the morning just to feel "normal" as the saying goes. Not being a slave to these things anymore,not stressing out finding enough to last periods of time is such a great feeling! I hope I did'nt bore you with this long letter. I'm also not suggesting that the medicines I mentioned are some kind of magic formula. I'm quite sure it varies from person to person. I can say with complete cetainty that it worked for me. For what it is worth, here is my opinion/belief on methodone. I firmly believe that going on methodone as a relief from opiates is a huge error. I simply don't have a high opinion of methodone. And now that I know that opiate addiction can be treated (Dr Kishore treats ALL addictions, including herion, crack etc..) my opinion is even lower. I have a friend who was doing something like 360mg of opiates. He is currently on methodone to feel "normal" and function accordingly. He is on 65mg a day. The theory of course is that they decrease you by 2mg every 10 days I think. When they went to drop him to 61mg, he did'nt feel right. He was sweating, lethargic, not "normal" My belief is the body builds a resistance to methodone like any other drug. I think that is why you have people going for years. And make no mistake, these places are cleaning up money wise. I think I've yapped enough Southernbelle. I'm new to this area and am an addict like everyone else. I find my mind just flowing with all kinds of thoughts. My email addy is ***@**** if you have any kind of questions or just want to drop a line. Take care, Mike
Rex
Love to all and Happy Thankgiving..
Please please help, I am starting to feel it bad!
I'm done (again!)
The reason for so many a day is that I avsolutely LOVE the felling it gives me. It helps me deal with others, maintain a higher (happier) attitude), get mor works done and better motivation. It now takes 20-25 Norcos (10/35) for be to even get a little buzz. So if I want 3-4 buzzes per day then thst is 60-80 pills per day! It is amazing how quickly it adds up.
You asked where I was, I am in the Wash DC suburbs. Where are you? And what kind of help do you think you could provide? I am a prominant business official and for me to go public with this sort of problem in my life could be career-threatening. For the first time in my life I feel scared, humbled, alone and just trying to take it one day at a time. So far today only 10 pills which is like NOTHING for me!! I keep wondering why more people don't down as many as I do. It just seems so so easy!
Thanks for your care...
I'm Done
Thanks.
I'm Done
Rex
Love you guys,
I'm Done
Not meaning to scare you, but just one of these "hits", would probably kill me, and I'm no wimp.
seek some help, and depend on us for emotional support if you need to.
Welcome to the forum, and good luck plus God's love to you.
Rex
Good luck...
I have a real bad habit on and off for about 1 year now and has become worse over the past 5 months, I started with maybe 2 percs a day and now im doing atleast 12 oxycodons 5mg each a day. and atleast 1 oxycotton 80mgs along with them at the end of the day. and sometimes even more. I have started breaking the capsules on the oxycodones and sniffing them. And then taking the pills too. What can i do to quit, I have tried to quit but get very bad cold sweats and pain like my skin hurts like a flu. I hope you can help thanks. Email me with any ideas .***@****
dave
Go away.
Does anyone know if clonodine can be used with the "Thomas" recipe along with Valium. Basically are there any dangers involved in mixing the Clonodine and Valium? Planning to kick a 100mg Oxy (snort) habit next weekend. I have ran out before for a couple of days and basically just sweated and felt like I had the flu. I wish I had known about this post sooner for all the helpful information and moral support. I have all the ingredients in the Thomas recipe as of tonight. Just going to use up the last of my perc's before the weekend. God bless you all. Thanks.
Jerry
You can safely detox at home. The first 3 days are the worse, you will feel like you've contracted a super flu...aching legs, twitching legs, the runs, nausea, sweats, chills...but all of these things usually pass after 3-5 days. Keep reading on this forum and you will find tons of support, advice and help. Not to mention love, encouragement and strength. I'm into day 4 of my detox. This is my 3rd attempt. But you must want to have your life back, without pills. Good luck and God speed. We are all here for you.
Kilo
It sounds like you're on the right path. Stop now, I mean that!
Your addiction will must certainly get worse. It's 3-5 days of pay me now or pay me much more later. Good luck
Kilo
I'm new here and just had a question. My mother in law takes vidodin ES...2 at a time...with 4 dramamine as soon as she wakes up and then about every 4 hours all day long. She was recently hospitalized and the doctor determined that she has "chronic pain" and has prescribed a pain patch...not sure what is in it though. Will she still face vicodin withdrawal or will the patch just take the place of her vicodin?
Thanks! :)
I came upon this forum and have read for the last hour about many situations. My heart goes out to all who have had struggles. I think that I am about to join you in those struggles.
The one thing that I haven't seen much here is the use of Vicodin that I have been participating in. Perhaps I am still at an early onset of the problem.
I have always like the feeling of Vicodin and when I cam accross a pill or two from friends or someone who had some, I would take it, have a beer or two and enjoy. It was no big deal.
About a year ago, however, I had the chance to buy a large quantity of pills and did... thinking to myself "this will be fun... I can enjoy them periodically." So I started out just taking a couple of pills on Friday and Saturday nights. Then I began taking them a few nights during the week. Long story short, I am now up to about 4 or 5 nights a wekk. I never take it during the day, only at night. If I have a day of no pills, then the next night I take 2, 2.5 the next night, 3 the next night and 3.5 or 4 the next and then I take a night off. This has been going on for at thuis rate for a few months now without causing any disruption in work or any other aspect of my life.However, last week, I went like this for 5 nights and, when I took my "night off", I found that I suffered from the restless legs, insomnia and anxiety. I was surprised because, since I was only taking it at night, I didn't think that it would effect me in this way. I know... pretty stupid, huh? Anyway, I am thinking that, at this point, I may be OK just tapering off and shouldn't need to seek professional help for other drugs to help me off of the stuff.... any advice?
Thanks
You will want to post this in it's own topic. Just click on the Post a Question button at the top of the page. This is an old topic so alot of people don't look at the older topics. That way you can make sure you get your answers.
I am in a similar boat as you. I haven't been taking the meds for all that long. Started recreationally and it just grew and grew from there. But only for about 10 weeks. So I figured the w/d wouldn't be that bad. BOY WAS I WRONG!! I am on Day 4 now c/t and it is tough even though I wasn't taking it that long.
If you do decide to go the tapering route you really should have someone else hold the pills for you and dose them out for you according to your plan. Trust me, it is VERY easy to say you are going to taper off today and then that turns into tomorrow and the next day, etc. It's too easy to get caught up in that cycle. Whichever route you decide to go make sure you are ready and stick with it! It won't be easy but it is so worth it!! In the words of Michael_777, love and strength to you!
I will post the question as you suggested.
Good luck to you with your c/t... hang in there!!!
post this again, but start a new thread (where it says POST A THREAD at the top.)
and yes, the Thomas Recipe will help. as well, there is a blood pressure med called Clonidine that works amazingly well for w/d symptoms...
good luck to you...
:)
mj
super _scared
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This place is awesome. The compassion and support here will help.
Please post again.
Also, read my journal for how to feel better during this.
Best of luck!
I have chronic pain everywhere all the time and have for years. I never ask for pain meds or any specific ones for fear they will assume Im a junkie.
Ive researched alittle and want the doctor to test me for Fibromyalgia or Chronic Fatigue Syndrome because I have the symptoms.
I buy Vicodin basically from friends and neighbors to get by. Its costly.
How to I talk to the doctor about this?
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Ultram is a narcotic-like pain reliever.
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Seizures have occurred in some people taking Ultram. Your risk of a seizure may be higher if you have any of these conditions:
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I am a 35 yo female and mother of 3 who has handled 3 natural labors/deliveries - 2 of my 3 children weighed over 9lbs., and also a 6 hour abdominal surgery to repair a tear in my lower abdominal muscles, which left me with internal staples from my pelvic bone all the way up to my ribcage - and, WOW, amazingly, I never got addicted. In fact, I stilll have a 3/4 full bottle of Percocet sitting in my cabinet from my surgery last July.
Honestly, pain meds scare the hell outta me, rightly so. They are dangerous, controlling CHEMICALS that are not natural.
It is frightening to read all of these posts that recommend using one drug to counteract the WDs from another drug!!!??? WTF?
God created us as strong, able-bodied human beings. We are capable of dealing with anything. So much of our physical pain is mind-over-matter and/or caused b/c we, as a society do not value our bodies and do not take care of them on a daily basis.
It is shameful to be part of a society that so freely hands out these Rxs like candy. I'm sure the big CEOS of the Drug Companies have something to do with that...just like with tobacco.
I am currently living with a spouse who has turned to the use of Vicodin - and I am just dumb-founded. Yes, life is difficult, sometimes we have battles to fight and it is an up-hill struggle, but abusing drugs is so very hurtful to so many. Just remember that we all walk along this life together, maybe if we remembered to hold one another's hands more, and not walk all over each other, we could all handle life's battles without the help of those little, destructive pills.
God's peace to all
I guess you are superwoman? More power to you.
"I cannot believe that so many people are in such poor physical health..."
Addiction is physical as well as mental.
Instead of posting such a rude & judgmental comment, you should count your blessings and be thankful that you do not have an addiction.
Hopefully your judgmental and full of yourself attitude is only on here and not at home. An addict needs support. Not judgment.