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Worried about opiate abuse in the first trimester?
Long story short, I've been with my man for 4 years he is a heroin addict, a chronic relapser and has been to rehab ten times. When our relationship began I was not in active addiction and enabled his substance abuse in a lot of ways thinking I was helping him. Eventually I became opiate dependent too, starting with hydrocodone then oxycodone and then ultimately heroin when he got out of treatment and relapsed we started using together. I only snorted it until I got hit by a drunk driver lost my car and job and got a herniated disc in my back. I became very depressed and eventually he began shooting me up and things spiraled out of control. I found out I was pregnant again when I was eight weeks because i couldn't stop vomiting couldn't even hold down water and lost ten pounds in two weeks. I told him i can't do this anymore and i needed to move back in with my mom and get the kids safe and away from this environment and he needed to go get help. He's in a two year rehab and am now pregnant with my fourth child and alone. I am 11 weeks and switched to suboxone when i was 9 weeks and put on weight and ate very healthy. Unfortunately, i am getting these off the street so its not always a guarantee that i can get them and to avoid withdrawal my only choice is to try and find some kind of opiate. I have Medicad but am having trouble finding an obgyn and a suboxone doctor who will accept this insurance. I want to be clean and more than anything i want this baby to be healthy but id be lying if i said i wasn't absolutely terrified. I have considered abortion as a last result. I am so worried about being so dehydrated when i was vomiting and all those times he shot me up with poison. Im getting a large cash settlement from that drunk driving accident which takes away some stress but my question is if you were in my situation where damage may have been done in the first trimester what would you do? At eleven weeks I am already feeling little butterflies in my uterus and I've had one ultrasound where I saw a strong heart beat. I want to be clean, get my life together, and keep the baby but I don't think I could handle three kids and a child with a major birth defect or special needs by myself. Please help, I know a lot of your comments may be harsh, but please understand I love my beautiful babies, I just got lost in this addiction along the way. Thank you.
Yes the ER will just be a place to get your foot in the door. Once you're there they can evaluate you there and see what's up. Tell them you've been taking the subs,and what ever else you've taken because w/d's can be very dangerous for the fetus. Then hopefully they can get you into a sub doctor right away. I know you are reaching out for help,please take the suggestions here love. You've been on this road for so long. Aren't you tired? I know I was,being a drug addict is a full time job on top of everything else in life. Get yourself into some AA/NA Meetings. Make that first step to recovry. Please try the ER root though.
Apparently you didn't read my post carefully or else you would have seen that I STATED that I abused opiates. I also never said anything about someone reporting me.
Please seek some help for yourself. You owe it to your children, and yourself.
Please seek some help for yourself. You owe it to your children, and yourself.
More negativity? You obviously are so perfect you've never had a problem with addiction so why are you commenting in the substance abuse topic section? I didn't report you, another member did and another member at the beginning of the comments also that took offense to what you said.
I hope you teach your kids to learn from your mistakes. And don't blame a post because you might "run away and get high". That is entirely on you.
The ER is just a suggestion so they can check you out and then DIRECT you to a sub doctor or whatever dr appropriate.
As for as going to the ER do they have suboxone or subutex to prescribe? I would rather go to a sub professional who specializes in addiction and an obgyn my friend went to ( she did heroin for the first three months of her pregnancy, she switched to suboxone and was honest with her ob and her baby was born healthy with no withdrawals and went home with her right away and she said he was very supportive and a great doctor during her whole pregnancy. Just need to make sure he accepts Medicad and ill set the appointment first thing Monday morning.
Thank you, I appreciate that. And I appreciate everyone who genuinely cares enough to take the time to respond when someone is crying for help and doesn't know where to turn or is too ashamed to talk to someone in person. If you talk to addicts in a judgemental and harsh way, they are not only turned off by it, many times they run away and keep using. Addicts already feel extremely guilty and ashamed, that's a part of why we use. You could potentially save someone's life if you give them good caring love, support, and advice and push them to seek help.
The reason I use has always been the loneliness of him being gone and me taking care of the kids by myself. That first post I was almost about to deliver our son and he was five hours away in treatment. I gave birth to our son without him there, he never even met him until he was 3 months old. I had the 3 kids and a fulltime job and bills. The stress of that plus the loneliness of not having a man by my side is the reason why I used, it made me feel better. I would have never done heroin or used a needle if he hadn't come back into our lives. I don't know why i can't move on from him, i still love him and still believe he can beat addiction and we can have a happy life. People that meet him immediately like him, he doesn't look like a typical drug addict, he has style and i dunno we just are very compatible and have been from day one. Its very hard to move on when you love someone.
Its insane how minimal my addiction was at that point and how bad its progressed. I remember feeling extremely guilty just for using a pill at all during pregnancy. When i wrote that post that's really when it started for me, i wish i could have gotten help at that point before it got to where i am now. I also have had the father of my youngest son in and out of our lives, he will be gone and clean for a year while im alone taking care of the kids then he comes out, says he's gonna change, relapses, and its hell for awhile until he goes back. Everyone tells me to move on, he's just a junkie who will never change.
My last post was in response to your 2nd to last post, not your last post, if that makes sense. I hope so.
Those are excuses. You are in the SAME situation you were 2 years ago, and it's worse. Not judgement just fact. We all want to see you clean, trust me!
Just go to the ER, just go to NA or AA, just do what you've been told. It's called contrary action: you don't want to but do it anyway...to get yourself out of a mess.
I really hope you take the advice that's being given, and not just using this place to vent. There's no point. I wish a healthy baby and a clean, happy life for you.
Just go to the ER, just go to NA or AA, just do what you've been told. It's called contrary action: you don't want to but do it anyway...to get yourself out of a mess.
I really hope you take the advice that's being given, and not just using this place to vent. There's no point. I wish a healthy baby and a clean, happy life for you.
Yeah that was when I was pregnant with my youngest, I did very small amounts of hydrocodone maybe once a week. My baby was perfect with no issues. Its obvious I have problem with opiate addiction and its progressively gotten worse. I see that very clearly. Im also getting my tubes tied so I will not be having a fifth child.
I haven't had the oppourtunity to get help because I've been supporting everything, all the bills etc. The only time I've been able to get advice is on sites like these and they help a lot. Im moved out of my house and am at my moms house so the stress of bills is gone and i can actually get real help now. I think i have a pride issue that keeps me from wanting to be open and honest. I've gone to na meetings and its extremely uncomfortable for me to talk in front of strangers about very personal issues, especially being pregnant, i feel like i would get judged.
Bianca- Don't worry about feeling hurt right now, that's not where you energy should be.
This your post from August of 2013. That was Two years ago. I hope you see what I see:
"I am a full-time working mother of a 5 year old boy and a soon to be 3 year old girl. My fiancé is at a long term rehab center for his addiction to heroin and has been there for the last six months, so it's just me supporting the kids. I'm also 37 weeks pregnant with another boy, due August 31st. I have been taking norco 10 mgs throughout my pregnancy, a maximum of 20 mgs, 3 times a week. Some weeks i wouldnt take anything. I was not prescribed this by my ob but my previous physician for bad back pain. I did ask my ob if this was okay to take at my first appointment and she said it was fine, that tylenol and Vicodin do not cross the placenta. But we havent really talked about it since the beginning of my pregnancy. I must admit that in addition to helping with my back pain the medicine helps with anxiety and my stress levels, so i do take them for emotional reasons, my life is very stressful. My question is, since I have been taking it so moderately and I am not addicted to the pills should I have any worry of the baby having any problems when he is born? I have had early labor symptoms, tons of painful braxton hicks contractions, so I think he might be born early. I just took my last pill today and plan on abstaining for the duration of my pregnancy. I consider myself somewhat of a controlled addict in that I do not abuse the pills because I've never taken more than two in one day but I do use the pills at times- for emotional reasons."
This your post from August of 2013. That was Two years ago. I hope you see what I see:
"I am a full-time working mother of a 5 year old boy and a soon to be 3 year old girl. My fiancé is at a long term rehab center for his addiction to heroin and has been there for the last six months, so it's just me supporting the kids. I'm also 37 weeks pregnant with another boy, due August 31st. I have been taking norco 10 mgs throughout my pregnancy, a maximum of 20 mgs, 3 times a week. Some weeks i wouldnt take anything. I was not prescribed this by my ob but my previous physician for bad back pain. I did ask my ob if this was okay to take at my first appointment and she said it was fine, that tylenol and Vicodin do not cross the placenta. But we havent really talked about it since the beginning of my pregnancy. I must admit that in addition to helping with my back pain the medicine helps with anxiety and my stress levels, so i do take them for emotional reasons, my life is very stressful. My question is, since I have been taking it so moderately and I am not addicted to the pills should I have any worry of the baby having any problems when he is born? I have had early labor symptoms, tons of painful braxton hicks contractions, so I think he might be born early. I just took my last pill today and plan on abstaining for the duration of my pregnancy. I consider myself somewhat of a controlled addict in that I do not abuse the pills because I've never taken more than two in one day but I do use the pills at times- for emotional reasons."
Honestly,I didn't have health insurance or extra money for a monthly doctor visit and prescription. I know having another child is way more expensive than that but i didnt get pregnant on purpose, i always made him pull out. When i saw you wrote that as the first comment i figured for sure you were a male who was just being mean. You didn't say anything else to me about how i should make steps for the future you just said basically this is your fault for getting pregnant and left it at that. So yes i do take offense to that and it does kind of hurt my feelings.
Hi, I remember your name. Listen, you've been around here and for some reason, haven't done what was suggested to you. And yes you are in a mess.
Do what Krissy wrote, go to the ER and tell them EVERYTHING. The money you are paying to buy subs off the street is money to pay cash to see an obgyn if it comes to that. Think about it.
I was just gonna write "you WILL need a strong program..." And then I realize statements like that won't help you because it's something you can do in the future. Get into a recovery program NOW. Go into an AA/NA meeting now. People will swarm you w/ support and help. I'm sure you'll meet someone who has been through what you are going thru. You don't have to be clean to go, but you do have to go to get clean.
The lack of taking recovery seriously is what got you into this mess. If you do what you've always done, you'll be back here again needing help because you are using w/ a 5th child on the way. Or worse.
Get to the ER, ask for them to tell you what to do. Don't leave w/o a direction to an obgyn. Then get to a meeting asap.
Do what Krissy wrote, go to the ER and tell them EVERYTHING. The money you are paying to buy subs off the street is money to pay cash to see an obgyn if it comes to that. Think about it.
I was just gonna write "you WILL need a strong program..." And then I realize statements like that won't help you because it's something you can do in the future. Get into a recovery program NOW. Go into an AA/NA meeting now. People will swarm you w/ support and help. I'm sure you'll meet someone who has been through what you are going thru. You don't have to be clean to go, but you do have to go to get clean.
The lack of taking recovery seriously is what got you into this mess. If you do what you've always done, you'll be back here again needing help because you are using w/ a 5th child on the way. Or worse.
Get to the ER, ask for them to tell you what to do. Don't leave w/o a direction to an obgyn. Then get to a meeting asap.
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