Would be week 10 clean but it's day 6 today all because of 1 slip 2pills gr

[Gunner817]

Well I went 65 days clean then messed up and took 2 5mg then got clean again right after, set me back a bit but on the right track again so I'm happy. I look at it like this if I can go 2 months clean and relaspe for 1 day then go clean for another 2 months lol at that rate il be 11 months clean each year lol no but I want to stay clean with no relaspe love yall

[dominosarah]

Yep i am always on you about the weed.  ANYTHING that alters our mood keeps our addict mind alive and sick.  Recovery is all about dealing with our demons and learning to live a life free of any chemicals.  I only want the best for you so that is why i keep riding you on this one.  

[gnarly_1]

Hey Dude good to see you havent gave up the fight....relapse is more of a mind screw then anything else  thank your higher power for helping you keep it at one day  for most us it can eazly get out of hand again  as for the smoke  you need to quit if I
started to smoke weed it would go like this.. first I smoke a joint  then I like to drink beer when I smoke dope  then I like to drink wisky when I drink beer by now my judgement is clouded and Im off and running with the pills...this is a progressive illness that only gets worst with time  keep going to the meetings pick up a sponcer work the steps and get off the weed it is kinda like lighting a fuse and you keep blowing it out   sooner or later you run out of of fuse and it blows up in your face...just saying.................Gnarly

[Merri123]

Lit was only a one time thing so 2 pills won't send you back to the dtart. You had a moment of weakness. It happened. Now move on from it. You are doing good. Going to meetings. Staying busy.

One person here said when she was at your stage she would make herself accomplish something each day. Today I'm going to get all the laundry done. Or cut the lawn. Or do my shopping.

You are doing great. Meetings will only make it better.

[Gunner817]

I haven't smoked in like 8 days!! Yes I've attended aftercare (NA) twice now I have my 3rd meeting tonight. Then i won't be able to go back til next Monday being that it's the holdidays il be busy. Trying to get past New Years without a relaspe. Like I said I feel like I feel when I was at day 65. I don't feel like day 8 is here. So that's a good thing. Yes I have looked into and attended aftercare.also dominosarah you always on me about the weed haha so do you think I should quit weed? I never told my NA people I still smoke but since the relaspe I haven't smoked once. Just I smoked occasionally for 2 months no problems you think that could cause a relaspe?

[Lilly1955]

welcome back

[dominosarah]

Hi Gunner...Congrats on getting back on track!  

Now here comes what we have all been telling you.....Get involved with some aftercare.  Your way of thinking isnt going to pan out in the long run.  Time to turn that brain of yours around.

And finally.......still smoking weed??

[Heather8448]

Have you tried after care? it save my life, baby steps keep trying but we have to realize at some point using becomes a choice, staying clean is a choice too
keep moving forward I had 7 months then I smoked a joint I have 10.5 months and I should have close to 18 months :( but thats life
Keep on keeping on!