Yoda

[ScottQuit021907]

Hey, I just want you to know that it's okay to struggle through this. Maybe recovery should not really be associated with getting through withdrawal. Maybe recovery is more of a process; maybe recovery is never complete.

I feel like I'm trying to recover from 3 addictions at once. I thought I would recover from morphine quickly after I got through acute withdrawal, but I certainly struggle with cravings, fuckits, and whatifs. I haven't drank alcohol in over 7 months, but I'm just now starting to address my drinking problem because my sobriety has led to strong alcohol cravings. Cigarettes still smell very good to me.

Just because I am not looking over the cliff's edge doesn't mean I'm not aware of it's proximity, and that's scary. I'm trying to remind myself that, over time, my recovery will get better; that life will become more manageable; that servanthood is possible only if I keep my quit; and that happiness is not possible for me without servanthood.

Scott (wk 7)

[sosad5306]

That was a great post.  I am on day 8 and my demons are always in my face every minute I think about a pill.
You brought up a very very excellent point that I want to comment on: maybe the withdrawal period is focused on way to much.  I always thought if I could get through w/d's then I would be home free.  I could have never been more wrong.  Afterall, w/d's are usually what scares an addict most, especially someone quitting for the first time.  I mean, we spend our lives in active addiction avoiding getting dope sick at all costs and then once we get past that, we are lost.  At least I am.

[LIZZIE LOU]

i so enjoy reading your posts.

this is a subject that i have brought up many times here on the forum...i don't think it is talked about enough...what happens after the w/d's...this is where the real work begins.

kim

[tomanypills]

not pushing na but thats why i go there,,cause they deal with addictiuon which covers everything. if i had to go to a different meeting for each addiction I"d be goin to meetings all day

[Yoda99]

Thank you so much for your "words of wisdom" and support.  You have always been an inspiration to me and once again, you've inspired me and given me hope.  I've had a much better day today.  I am looking forward to the weekend, and I hope you have a GREAT weekend.  Enjoy your time with the family and take care of yourself.
Peace and love,
Yoda
PS:  Recovering from 3 addictions at once!  You might just be the strongest and most determined person I've ever talked to!

[Yoda99]

Hey Kim, I'm with you; I enjoy reading his posts too.  Aren't they awesome?  Anyway on a personal note to you, I'll try not to get too much egg dye on me (lol) and I'll tell you all about it when I get back.  And you'll have to bring me up to date on what I miss while I'm gone.  :)
Yoda