adderall and loricet addict

I am a pill addict, and my choice of meds are totally different. I used to do meth in high school and 4 yers ago when I was 21 I tried adderal in  few forms and I loved it! I thought it was a sub for meth in a way without feeling so cracked out yet I went days without sleeping or eating! I was in college then and I had days where I felt so clueless, I would repeat myself lot and talk like i had no idea what was going on! I have been an addict for these last four years but now I am sick of them! I don't feel as good from them anymore so I have resorted to Loricet. I love that feeling too and When I have them I just take them all day! I don't mix the two very often but somedays when the adderall (adderrall) ***** I will take the loricet! I have cold sweats when I have time of drug shortage, as well as restless legs irritability, mood swings, and litterally feelings of terror because I feel I need one or the other in order to make my day productive, and work more productively! Without them I am lazy, crabby, depressed, etc.. I am also on Paxil for depression. I am scared to even say I don't want the drugs anymore, because I do want them but I am tired of feeling this way! I still take the adderll just not s much, I just feel i have to have something everyday!

[10356]

Hi and welcome to the forum..I'm also a addict.. I once thought I could not live without something everyday also, but I had found as you are finding taking something everyday had made my life unbearable.. It changed who I was.
I was in college then and I had days where I felt so clueless, I would repeat myself lot and talk like i had no idea what was going on!
I'm sure this is not how you want to portray yourself too the world or friends and family.. Reaching out for help is the first step..
I use to slam crank for a couple of years so I know the high you are looking for.. What you are doing is eating up brain cells.. Dehydration from being wired is so hard on your kidneys .. No food just depletes everything.. Plus it will age you quickly..
Luckily you can walk away from the adderall (adderrall) with out physical pain but it will play on you mentally might sleep more and you will definetly want to eat..
The loricet will cause the physical symptoms you are talking about 3 or 4 days of that and you will win back your freedom.. There is more to stopping drugs then just quitting.. You have to make changes in your life. Do not hang with friends that use Drop your connection make changes and get support...
We will be happy to support you so please keep posting.. I will be looking for you :)  

[gizzy32]

don't know much about the drugs you are taking, but regardless you came here cause you know you have a problem and this is the first step. Just like you, most of us thought we needed drugs to be productive and feel good until we realize how much it changes us and drugs no longer make us feel good. Quitting drugs for me was the scariest thing i have ever done, i didn't know how i would be able to function again and be happy. In active use i couldn't understand how people could be happy without doing dope, but that is the lie of addiction. You just said "I feel I have to have something everyday" that is addiction, but those thoughts and behaviours change in recovery. i suggest sticking around here and reading some posts and figure out the best way to get clean and stay clean. good luck.

[Ami800]

Thank you for your response, it does feel good to know that others felt that way before and still do! Its like I want to be able to not use and still feel good so I feel like I m notfully ready to stop! I am scred that I will be lazy and feel crappy everyday! My father was an alcoholic and a drug user too. He passed from cirrhosis of the liver when I was 16. My sister is a recovered alcoholic and my brother also has past alcohol problems and curently has addictions to loricet, tramadol, and whatever else in that area of pills. I have felt that it was fine and never really thought my problem was as bad as it it. Just recently I was out of everything, and I was miserable. I cried and then I was angry and my boyfriend was struck with the brunt of my withdrawals
He takes the pills with me sometimes but he doesnt need them! I introduced him to them when I was at a stage where it was more recreational. I feel bad for that but i thought instead of hiding it and being "cracked out" from the adderall (adderrall) would be worse then just sharing! Its hard being on an amphetamine by myself! I don't have any other friends that I do it with. Its kindof a secret to others, but I have mentioned it to some, and they don't really say much. My boyfriend knows I have a problem and doesnt like it yet he will take them too if I offer! He thinks that I will just get over it one day and just give it up when im sick of it, but Im sick of it now, and just not tking them is harder to do then it sounds
I appreciate knowing you understand my problem! I hope to hear from you more.

[mtgoat911]

i was given ritalin when i was in grammar school, i loved it

i felt on top of the world.......obviously i have adhd

but ritalin/adderall stopped worrking, and so did the anti-depressants i turned to as a teen\

and so did the opiates i turned to as an adult

i always thought i had to have something different, i though i found it in drugs, but thats not where i found relief,

pills quit working, then i was left with me, so i had to get me working

you go get yourself working

feel better soon

xo

[worried878]

adderal is a stimulant/amphetamine and has much the same effect on the brain as cocaine and crystal meth...narcotics also release dopamine in large amounts but a tad different in action...all are habit forming..be safe and always move forward

[kjbriggsy]

your d.o.c's are not as uncommon of a combo as you think. many opiate addicts if they try amphetamines and love it and visa versa. and medically and chemically speaking, many doctors will prescribe adderall (adderrall) as a pain management drug as well as a solution to add/adhd. i myself actually enjoyed the effects of adderall (adderrall) and would always go to that first if i couldnt find the opiates. obviously you know you have an issue and luckly you havent gone frther to harder frugs so kick it while you are ahead of the game. you can do it, but you need to make a concious effort to change your lifestyleuyour people your places and your things. most definitely you have to cut off your sources. also look into some kind of help whether it be meetings, therapy, or whatever works for you. letting this go any further you are risking your health and your future. you said your in college. what is your major? where do you see yourself fter graduation. use goals as a reason to take your life back into your control even though your health and sanity is totally reason enough. you can do this and you took the frist step in admitting you have a problem. now do something about it for no one but yourself. good luck and message me if you need anything at all and i mean that.

-Kerstin

[10356]

I had sent you a pm.. hope to hear from you soon...