addicted asking for help

i have been on cocaine for ten years, on and off, first 3 years i did it everyday, 4 to 7 year of addiction occasionally,  last 3 years were the worst, i abused of "snow". now i have "fully blood" secretions from nose , dry mouth, losing of concentration by shorts periods of time, anxiety, insomnia, carelessness, senses distorted, relationships problems, i want to be always high, i don t do it cause i can stand my nose, i am scared, i had ever been this bad. i taste it vaporized. now i am thinking shooting. i haven't reach that yet.
i feel different now.
like other person. i am very confused. mi life had turned to drugs: cocaine and marijuana.
could you help me? what happened to me? i need links to find the facts of this situation. explicit information. i need to change.

[dominosarah]

Hi and welcome to the forum.  We are glad you have found us.  It is pretty quiet this time of night so make sure you keep checking back.

We have a member here by the name of Gizzy who was addicted to coke and is now clean.  I will send him a message and he will be on here at some point.  He has a great understanding what this drug does to you.

You can get your life back and get off this roller coaster ride.           sara

[mikchez]

http://portaltools.na.org/portaltools/MeetingLoc/SSearchResults.cfm
This is a link to NA meetings in Costa Rica,narcotics anonymous
www.ca-online.org......Cocaine Anonymous Online
I know what you are going through my friend, The way recovery works is people helping each other you will find it here, and in meetings. If you want to quit it is possible its not that easy but it is simple, I heard that and now I know what it means. One thing I think is very important is do not hang hangout with people that use this is a hard one for me but its the most important for this recovering cocaine addict. The addiction doesn't get any better it just gets worse combinations of drugs, different ways to take it. Then to the point of giving up on life, Some people are addicts and some are not, I have acquaintances  that can use on week ends and thats it, work on Monday, Not this addict it becomes a full time job, I'm here to tell you there is a way out, and I thank you for reminding me what its like, I do not every want to forget that nightmare.Peace& Love

[dominosarah]

Thank you for the info.......sara

[10356]

hi dradt You are right You need to change. It only gets worse from here if you continue to use.. Shooting cocaine makes it oh so much worse. the high is short lived and the extreme ups and fast downs are extremely bad and can be very volatile.. You have to first make a Commitment to Yourself. get Honest with your family.. Drop anybody who uses and your supplier. even if it is family put distance.. check out the links and meetings in your area. speed kills.. You sound like myself.. You can never get enough too get the high you want. all this will lead to is Permanent Health problems and a wake of disasters in your life. I know the mind game that comes with stopping.. But it is something you can beat with the right attitude.. Your Life is in Jeopardy.. Seek Medical and our Physiological help if necessary, You have peps that love you and are watching you crash and burn.. latch on to something/someone/yourself and save yourself ok.. I wish you well on your journey.. lesa

[gizzy32]

Welcome to the forum. You asked what happened to you. Like most of us here, we got addicted to these drugs and they took complete control over our lives, they made us into a different person and filled us with fear and no hope. You have the choice now to get better and I am so happy you have reached out here and talking to us:)

Cocaine is also my drug of choice and I am clean now. It was my best friend and the most important thing in my life for over 5 years.  For me it took changing my friends, I can't be around those that use drugs and stay clean myself. I needed to find support cause I can't do this on my own. Coke cravings are tough, so you need to learn some tools on how to fight through them. Talking about it right away helps so much.

If you are ready to help yourself first, we will be able to help you. I would suggest getting a check up with your dr. Hope you keep posting here, stay safe and good luck. There IS hope.

P.S. I created a couple health pages here about cocaine and avisg has a good one about cocaine cravings. You can find those in the top right of this screen.